I try to figure out the best way to start. We sit in the car silently … Ashleigh not even trying to start a conversation since we left training. I don’t really blame her. I haven't exactly been fun to speak with right now either, but just her presence alone is calming me down. Part of me hoped she would say something to try and ease the tension, but I know she won't say anything until I do. I drive a little further out of the city until we arrive at the place I had in mind. I used to go here all the time with mum and dad. It felt right to bring her here. Maybe one day we can have that same tradition, coming out here every other weekend. The lake is exactly as I remember it. It is about the size of a football field, with shrubs and trees protecting it. I drive through the small clearing

