Thorns of Roses

Paris (Part II)

Song for this Chapter:

Against All Odds-Mariah Carey featuring Westlife

CHAPTER 86

DIESEL

Today was supposed to be the start of our lives apart.

The four of us.

The past months or years even have been so exhausting yet it was my favorite time of my life.

This year, I get to love my best friend and the woman I had ever loved in my entire life.

Corinne Angeline Lewis came into my life unexpectedly and turn my ice-cold heart into morph of butterflies and flowers.

She put colors in my black and grey world, when in fact she was having her own demons to fight off.

She was the epitome of strong and soft to me at the same time.

She was so strong that she can manage to smile the pain away and laugh off the misery she’s been trying to keep.

When I first saw her in that yacht with her family looking so beautiful and shy yet happy and calm demeanor, it started as fascination. That fascination turns into whirlwind of thousands of emotions that I can’t even believe that someone like me can feel for another human being in this world.

She was my best friend and she will always be.

She is the only one I can think off whenever I was having a hard time fighting for my own survival.

She was the reason why I wanted more, and why I dreamt to have more than what I can have in this world in order to protect her from the cruelty of the life she’s been.

I wanted to save her, not knowing that she’s the one whose saving me from my own.

You see, from where I come from before the Mayhems, it was so messy and if I have to describe hell, I will definitely describe my own home in Russia.

I have secrets, secrets that even my own best friend, the woman I love didn’t know about.

But Blaze Mayhem know about it ever since the night I stepped inside the mansion of the Mayhems many years ago yet it feels just like yesterday.

I killed and become a monster in that early years of my life, and I am not proud of it, but I will surely do it again if I have to meet Corinne Angeline once again.

I don’t have any intentions when I made my way into the Mayhems life.

I just wanted to have a roof on my head, a food on my stomach and a bed to sleep on.

But that changed when I figured out why Corinne is so desperate to get the hell out of his own family.

Unfortunately, I forgot that she is so beautiful that I am not the only one who sees her that way.

Blaze Mayhem, casts his eyes and his claw into Corinne without her even noticing.

I know he’s been planning how to get her all to himself since we were only fourteen.

The fucker didn’t even date anyone, he just loves to f**k.

But his heart, belongs to my best friend.

I knew that I was no match for the power that Blaze had from the start. Since he was born in this world, he has been the only heir of Cosa Nostra, but my love for Corinne pushed me to expand the dream and intention that I had since I stepped on the door of the Mayhems. I wanted the same power that Blaze has. If it's not possible for me to have the same power that he has, at least I have to kill again. In order to survive.

But off course, no matter how much I tried, I met my same demon.

Blaze is the same skin as me.

A cold-blooded killer, a psycho who’s willing to do anything for Corinne.

And even though I know that in the end I will lose, at least I tried.

I kept thinking ever since I married her sister that Blaze can protect her more, that Blaze can give her more than what I can.

But he left her.

For some other woman.

He left her like she was nothing but a trash when she’s been my whole world.

I can’t read Blaze’s mind. I don’t know what’s going into his psychotic mind that in just one snap he lets go of someone that he’s been fighting off since the beginning.

Is this part of his game?

Is this his way of punishing me?

But you see, there’s no turning back anymore.

Even if Blaze wasn’t around anymore to stop me from loving her.

Because Carina is carrying my own child now. and there’s no way I will abandon my own child just because of my selfish desires.

Europe.

This place was going to be our fresh start. From we, I meant Carina and me and our baby.

I remember when I was so young, I had dreamt of having a peaceful and stable family of my own that my own parents didn’t gave me while I was growing up.

And now, I am about to live that dream.

Carina, is a good woman.

She’s caring and thoughtful, and she loves me.

While I am so busy casting my attention to her sister, I didn’t even know that she has it on me.

She loves me unconditionally.

Something I won’t ever get back from Corinne when she fell in love with the Devil.

And once you fall in love with the Devil, there’s no way out.

That is why, I am glad that she takes one step away from here.

Paris.

That’s where she’s going.

Maybe a mile away from me, but I am stull happy that she’s far away from here.

She having his baby.

No matter how much I tell her that she doesn’t have to, and we will understand her decision, but one thing about her, she’s stubborn as hell, maybe if I am more than willing to admit, Blaze’s match. They’re the same. They have the same fire and soul.

Maybe that’s what drawn her to him, and the same way around.

They can be the most powerful, if both of them didn’t have to be so stubborn.

That’s what Havoc sees when Corinne and Blaze were together.

So, I know, it was also hard for him to let the girl go.

A tight hug squeezed me back into reality.

And from then I am back in the airport when I traveled many years from the past.

“I am going to miss you, but cheeks.”

I chuckle, that’s the nickname she was always calling me. oh, how I am going to miss this sweet yet void smile of hers, her soft and delicate touch and her voice that was music to my ears.

I cupped her cheeks and kissed her forehead “I miss you already.”

A tear escaped my eyes, as my voice cracks. And I hug her. So tight that I am afraid I might kill her.

But I have to savor this moment because I don’t know when will I feel her warmth once again.

She looks up at me with a tear in her eyes, she’s broken beyond repair. I can see that even if she tried to hide it.

“Take care of my sister. This will end well for all of us.”

I nod and swallowed very hard. I don’t I can ever let her go on her own. But I have to, right? Then I sob. Thank god, Carina left some time ago when she felt like she’s too emotional to handle things like this. But not without saying goodbye to her sister. “I love you, you know that, don’t you?”

She nods frantically as she smiled at me with endless tears on her eyes “I do. And I will always love you too.”

I hug her once again, tight.

She took a deep breath and wiped her tears “That’s my flight. I need to go.”

I nod and hold my tears. “Goodbye, Corinne. Be happy.”

She turns around and look at me one last time as she walks backwards waving her hands to me, with a huge, hopeful smile on her face “Bye, Die! Be so painfully happy from now on!” she shouts at me, didn’t even care about the people around us, and that made me laugh too.

For the last time she blessed me to see the old happy and cheerful Corinne I once knew.

And from then on, I knew everything’s going to be alright. I just have to trust her own process.

But when I looked into the floor to ceiling mirror wall that has the view of Corinne’s plane.

My world shattered once again with a loud and fiery bang that shattered the whole plane.

I didn’t know what to do, instead I run towards the entrance along with the other people to save what’s ours.

Another bang that made the plane shattered into million pieces.

“No!!”

That’s all I can mutter for I don’t know how long.