I WATCHED HER for a while as she slept. I wanted to lie down next to her, but these weird feelings won't go away since I saw her contact lenses. So instead, I went downstairs and went to the back of the house. I even passed by the chair in the bedroom where I've put her bag down as she left it in the car earlier.
The sound of the river helped me calm down, but I can't stop thinking. What do I do if she's lying to me? Do I just forgive her like it was no big deal? f**k.
And what if I'm not able to forgive her quickly? When will I do that? This is ridiculous. And horrifying.
We are talking about marriage. And I even bought a house for us. That's how excited I am to share a life with her. It was an impulsive decision, but at this point, I don't know how to feel. I don't know what to do.
