Thursday—
Days have gone by and I feel emotionally drained!
I have spent the last few days feeling sorry for myself, binging on junk and listening to sad music—Nothing Compares 2 U, By My Side, Someone Like You, Need You Now and of course Always by Bon Jovi, which re-breaks my heart every time and floods my mind with memories of Alec singing it to me.
Why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we feel the need to make ourselves feel more depressed by watching movies or listening to music that just reminds us of our heartbreak? I have no idea why, but someone should come up with an answer—or better yet, a cure.
I keep waiting and hoping Alec will knock on my door like last time. I keep thinking we can still mend things, but as the days go by, I start to realise even if we did get back toget
