41. ALINA
I walked back up to my room feeling pretty proud of myself. I do like Fraiser. I wouldn’t have slept with him if I didn’t, but I meant what I said. I had no expectations. I don’t know what’s going to happen in my life or what direction it's going in, or even how long I will live here. I just knew I looked forward to seeing him every day and I found him attractive. I wasn’t expecting anything to happen between us, but its OK that it has and it’s OK that it’s over. Experiencing any kind of positive connection with someone is a good thing and that doesn’t change just because it’s ended. It does sting a bit though. Hopefully, she’ll only be here for the weekend and I can just avoid them. I don’t want to see her or get to know her. She’s clearly in a different league to me. She’s be
