Chapter 54El"s point of view
I'm not angry with Jas; I just lack the courage to continue to face him. I'm not upset; instead, I'm envious. I understand I have no right to be envy if he wanted to show his appreciation for Baki, but that is how I feel. I'm not sure how to conceal my emotions, and this is the first time I've treated him like this. I know he's curious, and I know he's puzzled by my behavior, but I can't force myself to be okay. It also, too, will pass; I'll be well, but not right now.
I didn't get a chance to speak with Jas before he went. I wonder why I have the impression that he meant what he done previously. I'm not sure how it came to mind, but I get the impression that Jas made the banner to make me jealous, and if that's the case, I'm not sure why he did it. Does he l
