Selena was very excited when her mum informed her she was getting discharged one week later. While she hadn't completely forgotten about Alex, she no longer broke down every time thoughts of him crossed her mind. It still made her sad, but time helped the flood gates acquire a lid to keep them in check.
The last time she cried over Alex was two days ago, when she watched short clips from his funeral in the local news. She couldn't stand the sight of close family members balling their eyes out, especially his mum. Her heart went out to them but all she could do was sit on her hospital bed and cry. It frustrated her that she couldn't be there to bid him the final goodbye, but she made a note to take flowers to his grave as soon as she was up to it.
"How are you feeling today, Selena?" A smart looking nurse asked, after checking her vitals.
"I feel fine." She replied.
"Your report came in from the psychiatrist this morning, showing you're in a stable mental state and can return to class." She stated with a smile.
Selena wasn't sure how to respond, so she smiled back at her.
"We understand the effects of trauma to the mind, which is why we had the evaluation done on you. Everything looks good for now but if you experience anything unusual like repeated nightmares or black outs, please report it to the hospital immediately." She added.
At this point, she remembered her nightmares. She wanted to report it but decided against it. They were too embarrassing. Besides, they would make the hospital staff judge her and think she was harboring inappropriate thoughts about her lecturer – which was not the case.
"Sure, I will." She replied instead.
The nurse turned to Selena's mum and asked her to grab her drugs from the dispensary before leaving. It felt great to be back in normal clothes again. That hospital gown was a bit too plain and depressing for her state of mind.
Her mind went back to her dorm and she wondered what her reaction would be when she goes back there for the first time after the incident. The thought was scary to be honest, but she had to do it. She had to find the incriminating note and destroy it before anyone else did.
"I wonder why the police haven't found the note yet. I left it right on his pillow."
Selena grabbed her stuff and walked out of the hospital room, hoping never to return. At least not for something as traumatic as what happened to Alex.