Prologue

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PROLOGUE Ang masaktan ka dahil sa ngalan ng pag-ibig, ang minsa'y nagdudulot sayo ng takot na magmahal muli. Sa parte ng buhay ni Chaira, ito ang kabanata na hindi n'ya nagawang buksan hanggang ngayon. Sa edad na tatlongput-apat, piniling maging single na lang at magfocus sa kanyang trabaho. Looking back on her past and remembering all that went down hell, made her want to find the cheating bastard she once called fiance, and whack his pickle into his body and flush the b***h in the toilet. Hindi pa rin maaalis sa kanyang isipan hanggang ngayon ang dahilan kaya n'ya ako iniwan at ipinagpalit sa babaeng inaakala kong kadugo. I take one bottle of beer in the fridge and drink it one long gulp. Every year at this day, I celebrate my freedom to the man that cheated on me. Remind myself why I don't need someone in my life. 'I'm not wild enough in bed,' he said. Fvcking *sshole. Why did I loved him again? Oohh right, I remember my stupid self those years, believing what we have was something special. I knew him when I'm sophomore in college. I'm studying Elementary Education while he was taking Architecture and on his 4th year. We met in one campus party and started became friends. Since mas matanda s'ya sa akin, madalas n'ya akong inaaya sa mga activities ng school. Until he courted me and asked to be his girlfriend. Agad ko naman s'yang sinagot at naging magnobyo kaming dalawa bago matapos ang taon. He met my parents and family after few months being together, doon n'ya nakilala ang pinsan ko. They became friends too since pareho sila ng kursong kinukuha, ngunit sophomore pa lang ito at sa ibang unibersidad s'ya nag-aaral. And at that time she's in a relationship too. We were together for more than two years nang inaya n'ya ako na magsama kami sa isang bubong. May permaninte na kasi itong trabaho at nakabili ng apartment para sa sarili n'ya. Hindi ako pumayag agad pero nang magpropose ito, tuluyan akong pumayag at napa-oo sa kanya. We decide to had a long-term engagement dahil hindi pa kami handa na magpakasal na dalawa. In our five years together, when he started to change, became distant slowly to me nang hindi ko namalayan. I'm already teaching back then and helping him financially. We're both ready and at the right age to get married. Boy, I was wrong. I chuckle bitterly sa naalala ko at napatingin uli sa kawalan. So wrong. I'm so stupid na hindi ko man lang namalayan na unti-unting namamatay ang apoy sa pagitan naming dalawa. I'm to hang up on the idea of our happy ever after s**t. Napailing ako at kumuha uli ng anim beer sa fridge at dinala sa sala. Good thing I'm living alone or my roommate will think I'm pathetic, still hanging on the man that cheated on me. Mind you, I'm way over him. I hate him so much in the time like days. Wishing that I never meet him and she is not my cousin. This is the reason I'm remembering my past, to remind myself what I've been through and never let it happened again. I shake my head trying to remove the image that engraved in my brain for so long. It's impossible though especially if you witness something like they did. I trusted them both. Never suspected anything since she knew he was my fiance, he's off-limit. I'm too confident that they only work together on one project since she is an architect also. One project indeed, f*****g each other behind my back and her, end up pregnant with my fiance's child. Halos magdilim ang paningin ko noon nang makita ko silang magksama palabas sa isang ob-gyne clinic. Nagkataon na naghatid ako sa aking pupil na nasugatan at napadaan sa bahagi na iyon ng hospital upang dalawin ang isa ko pang pupil na cancer patient doon. Hindi na ako dumalaw pa sa estudyante ko kundi sinundan sila ng palihim hanggang nakarating sila sa apartment ng pinsan ko. I waited, still giving them a benefit of the doubt. Pinaniwala ko ang aking sarili na sinamahan lang ng magaling kong fiance ang pinsan ko dahil close sila. Yeah! So close, all right. I waited for half an hour but my so-called fiance didn't leave the house. Doon na ako nagduda at nag-imbestiga. The funny thing was, I had the spare key of her apartment kaya agad ako nakapasok sa loob ng 'di nila namalayan. Hinanap ko sila sa sala at kusina ngunit wala sila. Kumabog ng husto ang puso ko nang may marinig akong ungol na nagmumula sa kanyang kwarto. Umakyat ang dugo sa ulo ko at nanginginig sa galit habang papunta sa kwarto ng magaling kong pinsan. Malakas kong itinulak ang pintuan na tumama sa pader na ikinahinto ng dalawang taksil sa kanilang ginagawa. And there I have witnessed something I never dream to happen, my cousins were riding the pickle of my fvcking fiance with a small bump in her stomach, with a shock and frightened expression on her face, same goes for the fvcking asshole. Ignoring their shock expressions, and naked selves, I march in the bed and pull my cousin in her hair, drag her down to it and slap her many times in the face. I didn't stop until I saw the blood coming to her mouth and ignore her plead and tears. I leave her and turned to the man I used to love. My body was shaking with hurt, anger, and betrayal from him. I asked him why, and he blurted out I'm not wild enough in bed. His eyes widen when he realized his answer. Lalo dumilim ang paningin ko at buong lakas s'yang sinuntok sa mukha. Natumba ito sa gulat at pwersa ng kamao ko. Hindi pa ako makuntento, sinakyan ko s'ya at walang habas kong sinuntok ng dalawa kong kamao hanggang sa nawalan ito ng malay. Panay ang pagmamakaawa ng walang kwenta kong pinsan habang ginagawa ko iyon. Hindi pa rin ako makuntento, sinipa ko ang kanyang pickle at tiyan ng ilang ulit. He groaned from the pain even he was already unconcious. I felt satisfied seeing his state. If I could only kill him, I wish. Tumayo ako at hinarap uli ang salawahan kong pinsan. Nanghihina itong nakaupo sa kama at umiiyak. I pulled her hair very tight and made her saw my murderous face. "Don't ever show your face to me and my family you fvcking slut. You're a disgrace to our family." I split on her face and pushed her hard in the bed. I took the engagement ring, throw it beside the *sshole, and took the night lamp and smash it again and again, until it was unrecognizable and useless like the relationship we had. I leave her apartment with head high when I saw a few bystanders outside the house. I ignored the looks they gave me and called a cab. That was the last time I saw them. I packed my things in his apartment and live with my family for a while. My family and relatives found out what happened, furious at my cousin's behavior. The scandal spread around our hometown, and since our family has a high standing in the community, it brought shame to the clan. I'm too numb to care. I ignored the chaos around me until I had enough. I asked my parent's permission to leave and to change the new environment, away from my painful past. They agreed. So here I am now, years later, have a successful career but afraid to love again. I chuckle to myself, I rather stay single than end up being a common-law wife of someone, since annulment here is rare to approve and divorce is not an option... there's none. I'm fine being alone, have a stable job, and own an apartment, wala na akong mahihiling pa. Little did she know, it will change soon. Ika nga nila, never says never. Huwag magsalita ng tapos dahil minsan mapaglaro si Cupido. Hindi mo alam, ang inilaan sayo ay nahuli lang pala isinilang. 
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