The Rockstar

Chapter 10 : Miss 'Us'

(Daniel's POV)

Present 

I washed my face and looked at my reflection in the mirror. It’s not me. It’s not the same me who was few years before. I’ve changed. I lost many things. I lost a lot of people. Everyone looks at me as a successful rockstar who gets everything with the snap of my finger. But the real myself is screaming for my love which I may not get, behind the walls. I miss myself. I miss being myself.

I wiped away the water droplets on my face with a towel and came out of the bathroom. I saw Hell sat on my bed. I strolled to her and stood beside her. 

“What are you doing here, Hell?” I asked. 

She stood from the bed and looked at me. She gave a sarcastic smile and said “Ric came to you few minutes before and I thought you were enjoying listening to your favourite music and laughing with Ric. Oh! I think I’m mistaken. You are not the same Dan who used to laugh with us and share everything with us, right? s**t! How did I forget it?” she started tapping her chin with her finger. 

“Ric asked you talk to me. I understand. Get out.” I said angrily. 

She laughed listening to me. “Get out? You are asking me to get out?” she pushed me by my chest. “You are f*****g shouting at me to get out?” she pushed again. “I’m your bloody friend. It’s not a year or two friendship. Ours is a f*****g twenty six years relationship. And you stopped talking with your bloody friends thinking about your f*****g eight years relationship?” she shouted. 

I kept silent without saying anything. Her eyes became red and teary with all the anger and pain. 

“You are making everyone’s life hell by making your life hell.” She shouted. 

“Who asked you think about me? Bloody carry on with your life.” I shouted back. 

Tears welled up in her eyes with my sentence. She slapped my left cheek and pulled my collar “How can you talk to me like that? How can say that with much ease? You and us are not different. We all are same. Our bond remain same till the end. Till you die. Till I die. Till everyone dies.” She shouted. “I f*****g hate you.” She cried while shouting. 

I hugged her and tears escaped my eyes. “I’m sorry, Hell.” 

She hugged me back and continued sobbing. I withdrew the hug and cupped her face. I wiped her tears away with my thumb and said “You are our little devil. I can’t see you crying. Please don’t cry Hell.” 

She wiped her tears and sat on the bed. 

“Have you eaten anything?” 

While I was about to say something, she interrupted me saying “I know you didn’t. Come on, eat something.” She caught my hand and we both strolled to dining table. I sat on the chair while Hell went in the kitchen and started doing something. After few minutes, she came out with a glass of milk and oats. She served me and I started eating. 

“Thank you, Hell.” I said. 

She smiled looking at me. She didn’t utter anything till I ate completely. I finished eating and sat on the chair again. 

“How is Ric? I shouted at him few minutes before. He left angrily. How is he now?” I asked. 

“He came home and started destroying all the furniture. He told me everything. I got angry and I’m here.” 

After becoming famous and rich, we bought mansions for us. One for me, one for Ric and Hell, One for Tom and Tim. After proposing eachother, Hell and Ric started staying in same place. The mansions are located not many miles away. We can easily reach our mansions within few minutes even by walk. 

“I’m trying, Hell. I’m f*****g trying a lot to find her. But I’m unable to find her. All my efforts are becoming in vain.” 

She held my hand and said “If something is meant for you, it’ll come to you one day or later. But thinking only about one thing and neglecting others is... is really a stupid thing. You don’t know how much we miss you. You don’t know how much we miss our crazy laughs, our weird things. It’s been three years Dan. Three years since I saw you laughing truly. And I miss ‘us' a lot.”

“I think it’s the punishment for me. It’s the punishment for making her cry.” 

She hugged me and comforted. 

“Dan! As much as you are feeling pain, I’m feeling the same. At least you got to say bye to her. But for me... she never gave the chance. I considered her as my close friend Dan. And she left without even thinking a single thing about me. This pain is really more and I couldn’t bear it sometimes. Whenever I see her pictures, whenever I think about her, I always feel pain.” 

We both kept silent for a minute. 

“Hell! I’m sorry. I’ll try Hell. I’ll try to become the Dan whom you all love.” 

“We love you whatever you become Dan. But you are not loving yourself. That’s the problem.” 

“I need time.” 

“The last time when I talked to you, you said the same. Now... you are telling the same. How much time you need Dan?” 

“Fine. Tell me Hell. What should I do now?” 

“Apart from the practice and concerts, you won’t go out. Go out Dan. Spend the time like you used to spend before. And above all, talk to us. Don’t avoid us. We gave you time. Nearly three years and we can’t anymore. We are missing our stupid Dan very much.” 

“Stupid Dan?” I raised my eyebrow. 

“Of course. Yes.” 

I smiled looking at her. 

“I’m so lucky to have friends like you all.” I said hugging her. 

“Yes you are.” She winked. 

While we were talking, I got a call. I looked at it and didn’t lift. I got the call again and finally I switched off my mobile. 

“Who is it?” she asked. 

“A channel has been asking for my interview. I told them that I’m not interested but they kept calling.” 

“It’s your literally hundredth time saying no for an interview.” 

“Leave it Hell. I’m not interested.”

“You said you’ll change. So let’s start with this.” 

“When did I say that?” 

She raised her eyebrow and hit my arm. 

“Ouch!” 

“Call them and say that you are ready for the interview or face to face chat or whatever it is.” 

“Hell!” 

“Dan!” 

“God! You won’t listen.” I muttered. 

“Of course I won’t.” 

I called them and accepted. Then we both talked for few minutes and she left.