Episode 29 - Friends We Are NotMonte Carlo, France, 27 December I finish the steaks and go up to my room. The light off, I come to the window and stand there, peering into the night. My gaze is fixed on the blinking dot of a lighthouse in the sea. Its rhythmical signals, echoing in my heart, inspire and instil hope in me. I hear a knock on the door. 'Yes?' I shout. Cautiously, the door opens. A ray of light falls into the room, accentuating a silhouette of maman. 'May I come in?' she asks. ‘Yes,' I nod and move my eyes back to the ‘blinking dot’ of the lighthouse. She walks in. 'Sitting in a complete darkness again?' she asks, but I don't reply. 'Chéri…, ' she says, 'have you been out?' Silent, I keep staring out the window. 'We were worried about you, didn’t know what to think

