his love for me

ch 11: I know what you think

To say I was befuddled would be an understatement.King, queen, crown,WTH is going on here.He is joking, isn't he?But so many unexpected things have happened that i had no other excuse to not trust him.I have to trust him.I didn't notice that he was holding my hand while saying all these things and we were sitting on a sofa like thing eye to eye.The moment i noticed this proximity ,I withdrew my hands from his and stood up."I am not your wife.If you have this tradition then what can I do in that.In my world this marriage will not be accepted. if you say that I am not in my world but in yours even then marriage is a bond of souls not of bodies.I don't love you then how can I accept you as my husband?"I said this in a very realistic tone.He looked hurt at my last sentence.boys don't get hurt nora,i reminded myself ,they just hurt others and they do it occasionally and badly."I didn't ask you to accept me as your husband.I am just asking you to help me",He said in a very serious way.I raised my brow to tell him that i need more explanation."I want you to just act like my wife till they chose the next prince and then you are free.You won't be my wife anymore",He said in a very emotional voice."Hello you dumb head, can't you understand?I am not going to play your wife for even a single second.I hate you ,I hate all of you.I will never allow you to play "this" with me. Is marriage a joke to you?Oh yes,you are a boy and marriages are jokes for you.Boys think that they can marry any girl,use her and then spit her out of his life.I don't know why you think about all of this in such a ridiculous way",while saying all this i started crying.My all wounds have been opened again.I put my hands in my hands and started sobbing.He came closer, "Are you sure about this that you will not act as my wife for the sake of people living here",He asked in a very harsh and angry tone.I thought for a second,should i do it?for other people?I have done million things for others but what did i get in return? betrayel, pain and misery.For once i should become selfish.It is my life and I will spend it as i want ,not for others not anymore."Yes,i have decided.I am not interested in all this drama",I said with all the confidence I had."ok",he said and i was relieved but his next words waggled me."If you aren't interested then you can't go back because i brought you here as my wife.only a few people can come to this kingdom and those all are related to this place in some way. People will ask me why did i bring you and I won't have any answer,they will kill you and make me prisoner or i can save myself by using contacts but as far as i know you don't have any contacts here",He said all this in a matter of fact tone.

Tears gathered in my eyes again,I was looking at him.I have no interest in my life anymore but my mother...I can't leave her alone.She had already tolerated so much how can i do this to her.Tears made their way and started flowing.He was standing in front of me,looking at me,waiting for an answer but i think he already knew the answer.He said,"you will get your dress for evening in some time",and went away.I fell on the carpet like thing and started crying again because i tried my best to not to fall in front of him.

                  ~~~Jayce' point of view~~~

She said she didn't love me,it hurt me but when she thought that she had no interest in life,this broke me.Why  does she hate me this much.Here in my kingdom are many girls who could do anything to be my wife.I am handsome in all accepted standards.Girls gawk at me and she doesn't like me.Liking is another thing she actually hates me.No girl has ever said this to me,never.And why she has no interest in living,she is just living for her mother.Yes,she didn't say it aloud but i have this power to read anyone's thoughts by just looking in her eyes.So from the very first moment whatever she thought i know.