his love for me

Ch 14: Pain, relief and agony

"She is not royal.It means "She is not royal.It means you have chosen an underling." and my mouth hung open.No one,i repeat no one,had ever insulted me like this.and what was my so-called husband doing?He was sipping his juice like it was the most important thing to do in this whole universe.oh, well,he is a man and all men are same.If someone insults you ,they leave you alone to face it.on the contrary,if someone praises you,they will jump to take the credit.If you are being praised in front of your father,he will say "i raised her in a good way".If you are being praised in front of your husband,he will say "i kept her in good way and i have chosen wisely." but in case of insult ,they either disappear or behave like their mouths have been zipped.I clutched my chair tightly,i could give him answer but who am i to that?He is a prince and i am just a middle class girl,there wasn't any comparison.I bowed my head and tried to behave like I didn't listen.The dinner ended and we were guided towards the stage.It wasn't a 10 ft high type of stage,it was just a 3 stairs upwards.king and queen sat on their throne which wasn't connected to the floor.It was floating in air.A stair beneath them was 6 floating chairs and i was reluctant to sit on those but Jayce guided me towards the one in corner.Sheldon sat on the other end with a blonde beside him,a handsome guy in centre with a brunette and in the end Jayce and i was standing.I looked at that floating chair which was quite magical.I was about to sit when Jayce held my hand and stopped.He put a scotch tape like thing and spoke (later i came to know the purpose of that tape like thing was to increase the volume of sound),"Respected fellows ,my apologies to speak before this formal introductory starts,i want to say something.You will get formal introduction of this beautiful girl on my side after few minutes but i want to make one thing very clear.I am a part of royal now,there is no doubt in that.She is my wife and she shares everything with me,my joys and my despair,my richness and my poverty,my burdens and my delights,my heart and my brain and obviously a partner of my respect and disprespect.She is a part of me,it means if i am royal then she is also a royal because she is my better half.Not only a half but a better half.And if someone dares disrespect her then heshe is disrespecting the royality.And if someone from royality tries to offend her then he should be ready to to bear my wrath".While speaking the last sentence he looked at Sheldon with anger in his eyes and i was standing there like i have taken a bath in concrete,i was unable to move,to speak or even to blink my eyes.I was breathing and sometimes "just breathing" feels good when you are blank.His eyes met mine and he nodded like requesting me to sit.I sat and after that what happened i have no idea.It was like watching a movie without audio.People were talking but i couldn't listen.People were moving but i couldn't comprehend anything.My mind was too occupied to think something else.His words were repeating, bouncing,echocing and swirling in my mind.I don't know when this whole thing ended and when we did reach in elevator.It happens sometimes that your feet grow a mind of their own.They know how to move and directions.We both were alone in elevator and i was looking at him.He looked at me and it felt like time had stopped and just then the door opened and we were on his floor.He came outside and i followed him.My hand was still in his hand.I was going into the room given to me but then he stopped and as my hand was in his,i felt it just then and i stopped because i didn't have strength to fight with him.He moved his hand on my cheek and said ,"sorry for whatever happened,It won't happen again and you can always count on me", and i lowered my eyes and went away because if i stayed there for one more second ,i would have started crying.

I came to my room and fell on the carpet like smooth thing.Tears began to flow.He apologized.Why did he apologize?It wasn't his fault.There are people who hurt you but never apologizes.Nigel had hurt me beyond any limit but he never apologized.He always played victim and considered me a culprit.There was a time when he trapped my rationality and made me think that i was responsible for my own pain.He blocked me but i was the one to say sorry.He was talking to other girls but i apologized after fighting over it.He forgot my birthday but i was the one to take its responsiblity.He couldn't give me time but i apologized because I wasn't understanding that he was "busy".I was the one who always apologized.In three years he never apologized,never and this man whom i met almost one week ago was apologizing even when he didn't do anything wrong.I was crying incontrollably.Did i develop a soft corner for him?no,i can't do this.Then his other words echoed in my mind,"you can always count on me",and i smiled.That type of smile that doesn't reach your eyes.I started laughing,Nigel said same but where is he now?most probably talking to some other girl now.Anora you can't invite someone to break you again.This man is like every other man.if he has taken your side in front of whole crown ,so what ?Nigel promised you so many things and how many promises did he fulfill? Don't trust any man Anora.