I sat on the couch, watching as Lilith and Theo rushed to get ready for breakfast. I hadn’t moved an inch since I sat here last night.
Last night… when I thought I would simply cry myself to sleep.
But my plans had taken a turn—one I never imagined possible.
I hadn’t expected anything that happened.
After everything that unfolded when Lilith arrived, I didn’t see any of it coming.
I never even considered the possibility that Theo would try to comfort me. That he would come over to the couch, lie beside me, and try to figure out what was wrong—all while Lilith slept.
I never expected him to think I was upset with him. Or that he would somehow coax me into admitting who I was truly angry at. I never expected myself to actually open up and tell him what had been weighing on my mind.
And I certainly never expected the way he responded.
My fingers instinctively lifted to my bottom lip, as if I could somehow recreate the sensation he had left there. As if I could bring back the one moment that turned my world upside down, making me question everything I thought I knew.
My entire body warmed as my mind drifted back to it. The way he gently brushed his lips against mine before deepening the kiss.
The way he subtly reacted to my touch whenever my hands moved.
The way he effortlessly pulled me in, making me melt into him.
And then—the look of panic in his eyes when he realized Lilith was waking up. The frustration in his expression, as if he hated that he had to pull away.
And then… the soft kiss he placed on my forehead.
For some reason, that kiss solidified everything that had happened before it, as if confirming that none of it was a mistake. That he meant for it to happen. That he wanted it to happen.
I curled my knees closer to my chest, trying to steady myself as I processed everything.
I didn’t even remember what I was thinking in the moment—it all blurred together. I only remembered the shock, then the acceptance.
I remembered feeling happy. Ecstatic, even.
And then, just as quickly, crushed that it had ended before I could even process it.
I tried to make sense of it, but nothing was fitting together the way it should.
I could feel Theo’s desire, the passion in his kiss—a feeling that was both completely familiar and utterly foreign to me.
I understood it in the way it sparked something in me the second it happened, setting me ablaze.
And yet, I didn’t understand it at all.
Because it came from the one person I never expected—the vampire who owned me.
The last person I would have ever thought capable of feeling something like that for me.
And yet, I couldn’t deny it.
I rested my forehead against my knees, trying to keep up with the flood of thoughts in my mind. Trying to understand how something so wrong could feel so right.
How my completely unrealistic, irrational thoughts about Theo had led me here.
I needed answers. I needed to talk to him.
But I couldn’t. Not while Lilith was still here.
I lifted my head, scanning the room for her—only to lock eyes with Theo across the room.
Both of us froze. Neither of us looked away.
I don’t think I could have if I tried.
His eyes were like a trap, pulling me in. And apparently, so was his entire face, judging by the involuntary glance I gave to his lips.
After a few seconds of silent staring, he offered me a small, apologetic smile, his gaze filled with something… longing.
He wanted to talk, too.
Before I could react, Lilith strode out of the bathroom, tearing our attention away from each other.
“You ready?” Theo asked her.
She nodded eagerly.
Taking that as my cue, I stood to open the door for them.
Lilith had complained about it last night while she thought I was asleep, so I figured it was best to avoid any more issues.
As they approached, I quickly stepped forward and pulled the door open.
Lilith looked satisfied.
Theo, on the other hand, clenched his jaw.
I dropped my gaze to the floor as they stepped past me, watching as Lilith’s heels disappeared into the hallway.
But Theo took longer to leave.
Before I could wonder why, I felt a soft touch on my upper arm.
My head snapped up, my breath catching as my eyes met his once more.
He wanted to say something. I could see it.
And I wanted to as well—but now wasn’t the time.
“I…” He started, his voice strained.
He cleared his throat. “Your food will be delivered soon.”
The tone in his voice made my mouth go dry.
“Okay,” I rasped, trying to ignore the thick tension between us.
His hand lingered on my arm for a moment longer before he finally let go and followed Lilith out the door.
I stood frozen in place, fighting the overwhelming urge to chase after him.
Instead, I forced myself to shut the door.
As soon as it clicked closed, my back pressed against it, a long breath escaping me.
Desperation clawed at me.
Not just for his touch—but for him.
I wanted him to be here. Just him. So we could figure out what had happened last night. So I could get the answers I so desperately needed.
And I knew I could have that if Lilith wasn’t here.
If she wasn’t always glued to his side.
At that moment, I wanted nothing more than for her to leave.
To go back to her room. To leave Theo alone. To leave us alone.