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[4] what have i done?

Tyler's pov

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It's my fault I thought as I paced around the hospital, it was 12:00 Pm and nurses were running into the room that my littler brother shay lays in. These thoughts wount go away, I fucking

killed him, he was lifeless, pale, he had blue lips and fingertips and his self was gone, he was covered. In damn blood, his blood, I killed him, o my f*****g god, why did he have to do this, why, just please tell me why, god please tell me he's

alright. My sister, Anna was trying to calm me down as I paced around the hospital waiting room, I sneered at her to f**k off before I went back to pacing. She sighed and whispered loudly,

"for f**k sakes Tyler your not helping!" , I groaned, "oh please like you are?" , she silenced as a docter came up to us, "are you Tyler?" The doctor asked me, "y-yes?" I said confused as to why

the doctor knew my name, "come with me." The doctor said as they walked to the room shay was in, when we got to the room the doctor opened the door and looked at me telling me to go in, I went in and the doctor shut the door.

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"T-tyler?" I heard as a coughed was formed right after, I looked over and saw shay looking at me with a frown plastered on his face, I teared up and went over to him, a tear landed on him and he looked up. I looked away, one thing I didn't want him to see

right now was me crying, I wiped my eyes and sat down in a chair right beside his bed. He looked at me and I looked back at him with sympathy, he was so fragial, and so broken, and it's my

fault... "Tyler look at me." Shay demanded softly, I looked up from my hands and looked at him, my gaze went down to his soft plump lips. I frowned looking at them, he must've noticed I was

looking at his lips cause the next thing he did was smash his lips into mine, he pult away and I said "shay I'm so sorry-" he cut me off and a weak smile crept on his face "it's okay, I hate

me too." His eyes were glassy yelling to break any s ecound from now,  I realed him into a hug, which he broke down as I did, he tugged on my shirt. Crying into my chest as I kissed the top of his head.

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Shay’s pov

It was Monday morning and I got discharged  from the hospital, Tyler looked like a rec and so did Anna, mom and dad tried to act strong but I knew they were down right terrified too. When we got home mom and dad were cautious of everything I did, they made

rules like, I couldn’t be alone at all times, I couldn’t go into the bathroom without  leaving the door unlocked, Anna or Tyler had to be with me at all times, they made to cheek on me every few

minutes, I wasn’t aloud to take a bath or shower without someone being in the room with me, I had to be home at 10:34 Pm or they'd freak out. I groaned as mom finished telling me and my siblings

all the rules, I got up to leave and Tyler tried to follow me but Anna stopped him, Anna followed me into my room and sat down on the bed as I shut the door. I walked over to my bed and sat on it, Anna looked at me carefully as I reached in my droar, I groaned

“can you stop being so cautious of me, your acting like dad and mom.” , Anna sighed, “I’m just worried about you, shay, I don’t want you to do that again.” , i sighed and placed a hand on her

shoulder "I'm fine ev, really." Her nickname is ev and only I call her that, Anna started to tear up and she brushed my hand off "why did you do it shay?" Her voice cracked near the end, "because of tyler..." i gave in and just told her, I looked up at her and she looked furious, she got up "I'll be right back." She spit

angrily, that's all she said before she speed walked out of the room, I realized whay she was doing and quickly got up and sped walked down the stairs. When I got down there my eyes widened,

Anna and Tyler were fighting. "You b***h!" She snarled at him, he snarled something back, after cursing and arguing for a whopping 20 minutes Tyler lashed out and said exackly three words that

crushed me completely, "He's a mistake, Anna!" Snarled Tyler, Anna's fist clenched and she rose her hand **smacc** she smacked Tyler across the face, then my mom rushed down the stairs and

yelled "what is going on in here!?" , Anna and Tyler both looked at her, a tear left my left eye, mom asked louder "what is going on in here!?" , Anna looked at her furious, "Tyler is the reason shay even did what he did! Tyler also said that shay was a

mistake!!" A tear left Anna's left eye, mom looked furious after Anna finished, she walked over to Tyler and smacked him across the face "your grounded younge man you f*****g hear me!" She cursed sizzling the last words, Tyler nodded and looked at the ground,

his eyes then wandered and met mine, his eyes widened, "s-shay" his voice trembled out, "I'm worthless to you huh!?" I lashed out at him, Anna's and mom's faces looked towards me and there eyes

widened as I stormed off. I slammed my room door shut and flopped on my bed sighing aggressively, my door slowly opened and a

regretful looking tyler came in. I groaned annoyedly, "what." I

sizzled, glareing in his dirrection.

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