Film of Love

Cinquante Neuf

“So what are your talents?” my co-workers asked me. we are in the middle of our afternoon break. We decided to get some food in the cafeteria because they want me to take a bite of the food from the cafeteria. It is so crowded here honestly but what they just said is that it is normal for a big company that’s why they are just eating outside if they have a long time to spend. I learned that their break times are different every working day. I don't know if it’s a good opportunity or not.

“I can skate!” I replied. That thing can make me proud and I love their reactions when I mentioned it.

“Really? That’s cool.” They complimented me. I thanked them. The sport and the talent that I treasure the most is now can be opened up to other people. I am very likely to hide or avoid anything in terms of something incredible that they want to see in a normal person like me.

“When a time comes can you let us see those tricks?”

“Sure when the time comes,” I promised them. I hope that day will come by and I will also make that moment unforgettable. I will glide, slide and spin on the ice that day with delight and gracefulness. I hope they will be more fascinated when I will show them that.

“You want a tour?” Shion asked me. I didn’t notice earlier but he is a good-looking guy with a babyface. He looks small at the same time his face too and somewhat delicate. I want to be his new friend and I can sense that he wants to be friends with me too.

I am a loner and an outcast when I was young. Just like Aryn I don’t have many friends despite that I am a sociable person with a bright personality, January said that to me. we are like the opposite poles that became best friends for more than a decade I guess. It was a rare opportunity for me to have friends. I think time really change people and my situation right now changed. From an outcast to many friends. I don’t care if they are not loyal, or backstabbers as long as they treat me alright then I will consider them as a friend because I know how it feels like having no friends or someone to have fun with.

Aryn and I have a different system at home. sometimes, I don’t want to even stay at her house because it is suffocating. I shiver as I thought about what Aryn felt. I am a person or a kid that likes to play outdoors as much as indoors because I am energetic when I was a kid that’s why my mom wants me to have a kid my age to play on the playground. Little she didn’t know that almost all of my classmates and neighboring kids avoided me. I just want to play and I think it’s really bad for them to play with me. I have sometimes wanted to be sad, angry, and annoyed by them. As I grow up, I don’t even face them even when we are in school and it was satisfying to me but I always and always ended up playing with Aryn until I became used to it and making her use the precious title “Best friend” to her.

“Hey! Earth to Dem?!” Jaax nudged me.

“Oh..hey! what? We are we?” I stuttered as I asked.

I looked at the view and I noticed that we are on the rooftop of the building. The sun is so bright while the snowflakes fall in slow motion. It was a great sight for employees who are burned out from the work. They can buy some coffee in the café and go here to chill. It’s such a great idea to put a rooftop garden in a company. the company is so unique and I can sense that its top priority is its employees.

“I know that it is such a great view, right?” Shion asked.

He is smiling at me widely as he also pointed out the birds who are flying in order. It was a sight to see and I didn’t even notice that we are not the only ones on the rooftop. As I said earlier some so many employees are tired and they seek for refreshment by the garden and from the over-looking view of the city. I know it will be beautiful if we are in the golden hour time or even in the sunset.

“Do we have time to explore?” I asked the two guys. They are seemingly close to each other and I might mistake them for a couple. If my guess is not a mistake I am happy to ship them. They looked good to each other.

“Ehem!” I fakely coughed. “I thought I was watching a scenery, not a drama.” I teased them as they withdraw from each other’s embrace. Shion blushed and Jaax just scratched his head feeling sorry for my eyeballs.

“I think I am watching some kind of drama here and I say that you two looked good with each other.” I complimented them. It is true though that they complimented each other. I also love their height difference and how they act to each other. How great is it that I wish them both a healthy relationship?

“Thanks!” Shion replied shyly. Shion is a bit shorter than me and has golden-brown eyes with beautiful perm golden hair and while Jaax seems to dye his hair to an icy color with a hint of grayish color in his hair and his eyes are in some kind of dark shade of brown. If I were having a sibling or a playmate I can have Shion. Don’t you feel that whenever I saw him I think is that I want to protect him at all cost and he will be grateful that two people love him?

“Do you guys feel that sometimes people will acknowledge you when you are now in the spotlight?” I suddenly asked. They all looked at me with sad eyes and looked back at them and gave them a sad smile.

"Should we take a seat? I want to hear your story.” They suggested and that’s what we did. I looked far away and opened up to them. I don’t know but I just want to take a lean on someone’s shoulder this time. I think I will burst out any moment. I know it's somewhere wrong and the timing is bad but in this case, it’s not and never be wrong timing, I guess.

“Well, it’s just me and my childish recalling memories from my childhood.” I began. “I am an outcast and people like me when I behave pretty well because I am a weird and energetic kid. They only liked me because of my appearance but never really what I do.”

“I became proud one time when I chose the sport I like and introduced it to my friend and as we decided to train together. I am afraid to try it out but I felt that there is something inside me that said that I can do it so I did. We grow up and suddenly there’s a part of me that didn’t grow up with me and that’s the acknowledgment people give. I thought I’ll be in the spotlight but I am wrong. I grew up to be someone’s shadow and that last when she retired from it.”

I told them so much and I kept my tears but I didn’t take it anymore. I told them my story from the beginning I felt so much pain and the pain I have now because of what happened to my family. I guessed that she was blessed and I was the cursed one.

If she can get those things I can also get mine. I think it’s time to play my game and to be in the spotlight that I will have. The two guys gave me a handkerchief and I dried my teary eyes and decided to go back.

"There you are, guys!" Ms. Justine said once she spotted us, going out of the elevator. "Did you have a great time?" she asked me. I smiled at her and replied. "Yes, the rooftop garden is so much of a view and it should have an entrance fee." She laughed when I said that but they need to have an entrance fee because it was well-built but as a joke.

"Don't give them ideas, Dem!" Shion said. Right! they might hear it and little we didn't know once we get up there again there is an entrance fee and I have no money to pay that, but I hope I get inside for free because I am the one who gave an indirect idea.

"Right. They might have it and we can't pay it because they charge too big." Jaax added.

"Hey! shh! They might hear you!" Shion reprimands his lover. They are too cute not to tease. Aww! They are so adorable and you can't take that thought about them.

"The love is in the air!~" I sang. Ms. Justine laughed at me and gestured to get back to our tables. We are like a little family in this medium-sized room. I like it here because it's not too big, or crowded or too tiny for us to work. Given the time here, I did forget what happened to me and my family. I felt peace in here, no jealousy, no breaking of hearts, no need to give so much to make them see me.

They treat me just right, not that very close but I can see well that each other gives respect and I should do it to them too. I need to take care of this kind of relationship because I am afraid to break any other relationship with new people. I can't take it so well and I am afraid that my past is starting again. I need to make new friends, and I will make sure that my friends are true and be true to them also.

"Wow! Do you hear something?" Jaax asked me out of nowhere. Hear something? Is he Harry in the Chamber of Secrets? I smirked and asked back. "What did you hear? Care to tell me?"

"I hear nothing. That's what I hear," he replied. I looked at him chuckled. "Wait did you get it?" he asked again. I just nodded my head.

"See Shion, my friend here Dem can understand me!" he said. Shion rolled his eyes at him.

"I get what you are saying, I just don't want to reply." He crossed his arms while looking at his monitor. Oh! Are they in their loves quarrel state, right now?

"Really? Then what I said?" he challenged his lover.

"Silence. That's what you trying to say to us." I nodded to their right side because that's what I also thought. So it means that he cares and listened to his lover he just doesn't want to say it.

Jaax is making weird sounds. "Hey! Isn't it forbidden to flirt in the workplace?" I asked. I want to ask and I have no attention to offend them.

"Well, we don't know. I think it is not that forbidden but they just don't want others to see it," he replied.

"Isn't it the same?" I confusedly asked.

"Well, Forbidden is such a word that has the power to control someone, in the case you're asking they are free but they should know where it will place and it is a workplace so they should know that it is off-limits." Ms. Justine jumped in and explained. We all looked at her and nodded our heads.

"Whoa! Ma'am, are you listening?" Shion asked.

"Isn't it obvious how I heard all of you?" she asked. Shion pouted and just nodded his head. The place is not that too large and we are the only one who is using the place and we are like four people so the voices can be heard clearly and another one is that our tables are not that far from each other, besides Ms. Justine but the other two can be the reason.

"You can continue what are you doing while talking too," she said. "It can also help you to enhance multi-tasking." I don't know if I can finish my work if I'm talking while doing this so I just shut my mouth and continue doing my work and they also did. I chuckled when they also did it, and I guessed we are on the same page this time.