Film of Love

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Before I go out the room, Mrs. Julia called my name. I thought they are busy but then I comprehend that I must inform her first before going out. I walk towards her so that I can whisper where we are going.

“They told us they want a water break,” I said. I don’t know actually where we are going exactly but I will just have reasoned it out because it is still true in the first place.

“…” she looked at me like she can’t believe what I just said. I just responded her with the “I don’t know” expression and hoping she will finally drop it off and make me leave because they may or may not notice that I am nowhere behind them. Frankly speaking, I am doubting if I should be there also or I should just stay here and do my own thing because as far as I know we are not that close to have a water break together, if that’s what they want to call it, but I know it is not so bad to have accompany to take a mini break. “Sure thing! You must be back before the meeting will end.” She told me and I looked at my watch and we still have an hour to go. I nodded my head and thanked her and went out.

As I expected, they are nowhere to be here anymore. I looked at the hallways that they might be waiting for me but they are not there. I sighed and take my walk back again to the room not until someone yelled my name in the opposite direction.

“Ms. January!” I voice echoed throughout the hall. I squinted my eyes and looked at my left to find Natallia running towards me.

She was out of breath when she arrived in front of me and spoke. “We are waiting for you in the corridor.” She calmed down a bit and continued. “What happened?”

“I am just asking permission from our team leader. Might someone call us and check on us and finding I am going to a trip to the place I don’t know.” I reasoned out. She wagged her head implying that she understood what I am trying to say.

“My bad! We didn’t even wait for you to inform that you’ll be leaving,” she giggled. I looked at her because she looks like a bubbly little kid who spot an ice cream truck. She hugged my arms as she dragged me to the hallway to the foyer where they are all standing and they look like they are talking way more serious than ever.

“Where are we going?” I whispered into her ears.

She looked at me and smiled. “You will see it!” She is still holding on me tightly like I am going to be like a sloth or escape. I am so worried that I even feel that my anxiety is rising up to the top. I need to control my heart, and I don’t even drink coffee earlier this morning because I might be bad when I just fainted the day before yesterday. I still didn’t visit a physician because I have no time to render. I don’t want to be excused again—it makes me afraid and not letting me do things. If I have time this weekend I will try to go visit my doctor that takes care of me and handles or knows my situation better than anyone. I know I don’t have something on me, or the information that says details about who are they, but the only thing I am holding on, is the place where I might be brought to get a correct medication.

That information is from the old man, Mr. Blanchester. I can’t help to have doubts, beats me but I can’t help to acknowledge his statement about it. There is no wrong on trying, it will be an amazing but demanding journey to me. I can also let it be splendid start for me.

“Here she is!” Hani said. The trio went from too serious to too friendly it was a drastic change on their duality. They are really an artist, and actors in their true form but I don’t find it odd nor fear of being with them. I observed that the people who are looking at them are simply admiring them or loop up them in veneration and some avoided them like they are sort of people in authority and some look at them with envy.

I felt that people who doesn’t get to work with them gave them a judging eyes and I believe that it has something to do with the label in their sleeves. Actors is equal to people who moves with scripts or actors facing people in a plastic way but that’s what they only see and believe. I might add that it’s fine for people to judge someone because it’s our nature, however they must find the truth and learn them before finalizing their judgement because I know that they will change their minds about the people they judge.

I sometimes feel the difficulty to make friends because I am not exposed to various kinds of people and help me learn and adapt the thing called socializing so easily but then I remembered that socializing is somewhat runs in our blood. We all bleed the same color so then conclude that I am nonetheless a social person but it was just deep inside me, I am an introvert and I am not denying so maybe…that’s answers the burning question on why I am like this with other people.

I am also the person that if you don’t make a move then I will freeze on my spot and it’s alright with me. I look at the guys in front of me, they are in the front of the elevator who just opened and we are all entered—I am “unfortunately” in front of them and I hate it. It is unfortunate because I just feels conscious about my whole being. I mean…I don’t hate being with them, I just hate when I am in the center. Center means spotlight and spotlights makes me uneasy and moreover they are not just an ordinary people but a public figure. I noticed how my height difference from the two girls are amusing but if I will be compared with the guys in the back my height gap is much larger.

My height if I don’t wear heels from Alejandro is from the chin, while from Jace is from his collar bones. Imagine that height different, they are giants and I am the dwarfs. Hani is the tallest from the three of us while Natallia is the second and I’m the last. As I blabbered about our height gaps, the ride from the elevator lasted for a few minutes and finally we are in the lobby of the company.

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“Jace!” Hani walked towards me. She followed me and also the others as I drop the line that was not even from the script. I think they didn’t notice that I am not being a jester around them but I am hinting our guide, January Ashton. I smirked when I am able to think of her name in full confidence and not in the bad side this day.

“Hey! Jace to the moon and back!?” Hani yelled. I looked back at the both of them when I am near the elevator when they motioned that I should come back to them.

“What is it?” I said nonchalantly. I am an actor so acting like calm being is one of my forte and many more. I can do most of the expression based on the situation. I am not an awarded actor if I am can’t control my emotions but it doesn’t mean I can’t give a genuine reaction. The situation right now is wrong to make them know how elated and happy I am, so I just keeping it inside. I am not on my limit so I can still keep it for who knows how long.

They pointed out that January is not with us, but I know I saw her in my peripheral vision that she followed us. I will interrupt their conversation and almost go there, it will be a false move for me and maybe they will even take it differently. I am fortunate when Tallia interjected and raise her hands to volunteer to fetch her. We all nodded and let her do the work.

When she was gone, Hani looked at me and asked. “What’s wrong with you?”

“What’s wrong with who?” Alejandro seems lost and asked. It is actually his way to be noticed by someone he gushes on. I smirked while I rubbed my nose. Hani releases her eye rolling to Alejandro while she scoffed and point her finger at me—indicating that I am the one who she is talking about and her eyes shift again to me and I quickly hide those smirks and went on a calm mode.

“So what is wrong with our Jace dude, huh?” he asked.

“I am just in the brink of taking a nap on how they are taking so long,” I replied and acted like I am actually feeling drowsy when I only felt excitement and alive in the moment.

“You look like you’re not even sleeping,” she commented. I gave her a faint smile and looked back to the hallway Tallia went in. “Are you alright? Do you drink sleeping pills? Do you want me to get—” I interrupted her and said. “I am alright!” Emphasizing every words, I said. She can be so annoying that makes me want to shift her into other division by just telling Ms. Alice Leroy, the casting producer.

“Fine!” she snaps and pouted. I shook my head while I saw that they are coming in our area now. I didn’t even wait for them to be able to reach us on the same spot but I walked towards the elevator and pressed the down bottom.

We waited for a while and the doors opened, giving us a spacious and empty elevator machine room. I pressed the 1st level where the lobby is located. I am not even minding if we are all going to go out in the main entrance as a whole crew, even I know there will be a paparazzi in the surrounding.

She looks matured but her height is still cute. I can’t believe that she is small when we are younger I am the short one. My puberty hits different, I’d say, but I don’t know if it is perfect for a forehead kisses.

I am on the verged of making a sound when I supposed not to. It was also surprising that no one even went in the elevator. This will be a too much information nonetheless it will be a good info too. Our company is so rich that there are elevators for their artists and executive producers and directors. The artist elevator is painted or the details are made with such a great texture and materials of rose gold while the ordinary elevator is silver with bronze on the details, we all have clear glass paned for the wall of the elevator so we can see the view of Eiffel tower from a distance.

“Where are we going?” Tallia asked. She was beside them and she is clinging like a koala that doesn’t want to be remove or detach from its mother.

“Let’s give her a trip to the Levitates café,” I said.

They all groaned when I mentioned the café. The café is located just a few blocks from the company and it was made for the artist in the Levitate Entertainment.

“Why there? We should get her a nice view not your face,” Alejandro whined.

“Hold up, Mr. goodie boy!” Hani said. “Are you telling us or him that he is not recognized as the view? Huh? Tell me! say it to our face!” she provokes the young man. I think you guys know that she is basically too obvious that she is a fan of me. I am not trying to boast about having a co-actor as a crush because it will feel awkward and feel so wrong for me but I am trying my best to deny it.

He looked at me, he looked like a scardy-cat but I just shrugged it off. It’s not that it is a big deal. He let out a nervous laughed and apologized quickly.

“Hey, let’s move! The light is green now for pedestrians.” I pointed the light and they all walked to the cross the other side of the street.

“We are going to the café that has a therapeutic view!” Tallia exclaimed. “Are you excited?” I heard her asked January. They finally removed from each other because I can totally sense that January is getting a bit shy about it.

It was a calm walk when a motorcycle was speeding so near the crosswalk. I snatched January when I saw that the motorcycle is going to hit her. My reflexes are so fast and I am thanking it.

I looked at the motorcycle who was now down in the road. It slides because of the snow and it is now in the road, flat. The only injured was the driver and no other citizen was harmed.

“Uhm…Mr. J-J-Jace?” she spoke. I realized our situation, my co-artists also looked at us and I did feel a little shy and decided to let her go kindly and gently released her from my arms. I also clean her coat and asked. “Are you alright?” she nodded and gestured that we should continue our walk. I t-think I-I c-can’t even walk with my hearts beating like this. January, what are you doing to my heart?