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Zac
I don’t know when it started.
This feeling I have when I see her.
Maybe, it was the first day she moved in after her parents died in that crash.
Or maybe, it was from the time she started eating my carrots to keep me from getting into trouble with my mom.
Everyone thought I had been with many girls. They thought I was a player but none of them caught my attention.
They always tried to get in my bed, all of them, but Yvette had me staring at her. Wanting her.
My feelings for her were forbidden so I kept it secret but I must confess, it was over pouring.
Maybe that was why I took the bet. They didn’t even have to convince me to do it.
It was supposed to be simple. Pretend to be Kai. Get her to confess her feelings and report back. No one thought it would go this far… not even me.
I took being my brother too far.
Somewhere between the bet and the kiss, I lost control. I never had any with her around, so I kept my distance.
I knew she only had eyes for my brother so I never stood a chance, but to deceive her like this...
She looked at my tattoo and the shock in her eyes was enough to rip my chest apart. I could tell, she wanted to wake up from this dream.
She wanted the ground to swallow her up—anything to erase this mistake.
Tears brimmed her eyes, and all I wanted to do was wipe them off and apologize until she could no longer feel anything.
But I knew there was no explanation for what I did.
I let my emotions own me for a moment.
“Yetti…”
She sprang up from the bed, and picked up her clothes. “You’ve lost all right to calling me that name.” Her voice was in sobs as she spoke.
“Please just hear me out.”
She stopped, looked at me with wet eyes, and croaked. "I'm listening."
But words failed me.
How could I tell her it wasn’t a mistake?
How could I tell her that the dare was only to find out if she had feelings for Kai but everything else remained true?
“How could you deceive me like this? I thought we were family…”
By now, a tear slid down her beautiful face and my my heart broke.
She looked sick—disoriented, betrayed.
“Did you drug me?” she whispered.
“Drug you?” My eyes widened, “I could never. Everything that happened last night was because of your blind obsession with Kai. Can’t you see? He doesn’t love you, he never has. Not even as a friend.”
“That’s a lie… he cares for me.”
“He pities you…”
Her gaze hollowed like she had been stabbed. But I couldn’t help it.
“He sees you as the twelve year old that lost her parents and needed our help. He will never love you the way you want to him to, Yetti.”
Watching her love my brother with so much devotion was painful to watch.
She had to know she was waiting for a man who would never look at her.
Especially now.
“He’s getting married today, Yetti… stop waiting for him.”
She went white!
She didn’t blink.
Her lips quivered. She looked like she was holding together with one last nerve.
I should’ve swooped in and held her. Should’ve told her that I would never hurt her like Kai did.
He knew she loved him. He knew she would do anything for him. And he used that against her every damn time.
Last night broke the camel’s back and I aided.
“I’m sorry…” I finally breathed, “I’m truly sorry, Yetti.”
“So everything was a lie…” she began to heave, struggling with breathing.
“That was my first time, Zac,” her tears flowed freely now, “You stole my first time.”
My heart stopped. I thought I would collapse. I stood from the bed without even realizing. I began to walk towards her.
She stepped back like the mere closeness of us would ruin what was left of her.
I stopped to make her safe. A blind attempt to gain her trust again.
My words failed at the very thought that the night I cherished so much would be the night she would spend her entire life hating.
“I swear I didn’t know…” my voice cracked, “If I had known…”
“What if you had known…?”
I felt my world tilt, and shame covered me from head to toe. “Tell me how to make you forgive me,” I whispered, “I’ll do anything.”
“Anything?” She asked, tears spilling.
I nodded stupidly, hopeful that there was something I could do to make this right.
When she looked at me, her affectionate eyes were cold.
“Stay away from me, Zac. Forever. Don’t call me. Don’t speak to me. Don’t come near me. Our friendship ends here. That’s what you can do.”
Her words landed like a blow to my ribs.
She turned for the door.
"No… Yetti. Wait…"
It slammed shut before I could finish. I stood, frozen.
Stripped. In every sense of the word.
My legs wouldn’t move. My throat couldn’t swallow anything.
She was the only thing Kai had that I always wanted... Always.
And now… I had none of her.
Her absence spread like an emptiness over my chest.
I sank at the foot of the bed, dragging my hands over my face. For the first time in my life, regret hit me like a physical force.
I’ve had flings in the past. I’ve had girls slap me in the face before breaking up with me because I wouldn’t make an effort. But none of them ever made me feel like I would lose my mind.
None of them ever made me regret my choices.
I shouldn’t have taken it this far. I wouldn't have taken the job if I had known that what I thought was a crush was love.
I was crazy in love with Yvette Lotanna.
I don’t know when it started, but I was certain she would be the heartbreak I would never recover from.
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