JOY 1

Joy 1

My heart craves

For who I once claimed,

all the night I seek,

all the day I dream.

You see I held her,

for those few seconds,

I felt her warmth

I heard the hearts beat

she hugged me just once

her heart beat with unquestionably ease.

For those few seconds,

she was mine

and I was hers.

My heart was at home.

And for the first time,

he was not my own.

They both sung.

And that moment they were one.

Let me confess at once,

I was sick,

since born I was.

I was thirsty,

I was in quest.

But for those few seconds,

he was quite slow in every beat .

As if to match her own.

The universe faded to that rhythm,

quiet and slow.

My mind was calm,

but he forsakened me,

for once he freed,

nowhere to be seen.

For those few seconds,

he could not torment me,

with silhouette of who I was,

or was meant to be.

Never in those few seconds,

when I whispered to her ear,

when I held her tight,

did he lament of my pain.

Or did he dare,

whisper to me,

of the twenty years of thirst.

He was silent and went,

and I was a fool.

But I felt whole,

I wished for nothing.

Nothing but eternity,

on her warm breasts.

Just like in those few seconds.

My body like cracked eggs,

had but feeble will.

One that was fuelled,

by crumbled soul.

Ah in account of my illness.

But in those few seconds,

all that waned .

And my body found an ally,

and the will was clear and full ,

it gave birth to zeal.

As I whispered to her ear,

" I like you Joy. "

I don't doubt she understood me,

For though she spoke,

words were feeble .

But we were one.

And nothing in those few seconds,

nothing else mattered,

but that I found my,

JOY .