NOT AGAIN
839 Words
ELLE'S POV
I woke up with to a familiar heartbeat but not the one I expected. As I open my eyes and glance up into Lee's eyes I say "Lee I had a wonderful dream. Noah showed up and..." I couldn't continue and I started crying. Next thing I know he is brushing the hair off my face "Hey Shells, it wasn't a dream he is here" I look up at him "really Lee he's here and he doesn't hate me" "yes my dear sweet crazy twin he is here and he doesn't hate you. I didn't think it was possible but I think he is more in love with you than before" I throw my arms around him and race downstairs only to hear June scold me "Now Elle calm down you know you can't upset my grandchild like this" "where is he I want to see him I need to see him I have to tell him I love him and missed him and beg him to forgive me" Mathew comes up and pulls me in his arms "now calm down there sweetheart we will get him for you he went for a ride come sit down" Lee comes over and grabs my hands "did he ask why I am here and not at home" Lee looks at me and says "I think so, I heard you crying and even though I wanted to go in to you I knew he needed to be the one to hold you so I waited." I look at Lee "what aren't you telling me" "we told him everything. Understandably he was very upset he said he needs to clear his mind to calm down so he didn't do anything to upset you" I reach for my phone and as I dial his number I say "o.k." but he didn't pick up. Lee said maybe he was still riding. "Lee will you take me to the Hollywood sign I bet he is there" "Shells I can't do that you know your not allowed to do anything strenuous." I pick up the phone again and call him no answer. by the time I have made my 5th call I am sweating crying and begging "please Lee take me there what if he is dead, what if he is lying in the road somewhere...oh no I feel dizzy I hear Lee yell "mom she is not looking too good please hurry" "Lee what if he is jail for starting a fight oh no I need to lie down" I feel something cold against my head I hear Lee in the distance "Where the f**k are you...I can't hear everything I keep fading in an out...June please I need to see him...I need to know he loves me...she tells me I know darling he's coming don't worry he's coming I start to calm down breathing like I used to tell Noah to do all the while June is changing the clothes on my forehead saying don't worry he's coming.
I hear someone running and someone coming to a stop in front of me as I look up he is kneeling in front of me begging me to forgive him that he left his phone on the bike that he will never let it happen again telling me to breathe slowly. I chuckle at him using my own technique on me and look up at him and say I'm ok. now will you just hold me? I feel him lift me in his arms I don't know how long we were like that him rocking me before I heard June say hold still and felt her check my blood pressure than hear "thank God it's normal" I think I fell asleep at that point.
When I woke up I was in bed again I could hear a heartbeat beneath my ear a familiar one. One I have missed for too long and I feel those strong arms around me I have craved ever since I told him it was over. I start crying "please not again I can't take this anymore" I feel someone brush my hair off my face "I'm here Shelly baby I'm here I am not going anywhere" I wrap my arms around his neck and cry "Noah I love you, I never stopped loving you..." he cuts me off "I know Shelly I know don't do this to yourself. We have to think of our baby our beautiful baby. You only did what you did to protect me to try and give me the dream you thought was most dear to my heart. I am telling you now Us, this family we are creating is what is most dear to my heart. That first night we told each other that we loved each other and made love this is what I dreamed about you carrying my child. Us building a family together I Knew the first time I laid eyes on you that you would be the mother of my child.
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