Ashlyn I finally made it to the Blue Moon pack gates. I had to stop a few times to let my tears out. The pain I’m feeling is unimaginable, and I don’t know how anyone survives their mate’s rejection or their death. Rolling my window down so the warrior on duty could wave me in, and I’m sure I looked like a fuckin’ mess. The gate opened, and the warrior waved me in. As I drove to the packing house, I wondered how Mason could do this to me. The first week I was back was magical, and he was so wonderful. What the hell is wrong with me that no one can love me? When I pulled up in front of the pack house, I cried into my hands again. I couldn’t breathe, and the pain in my chest was getting stronger. I didn’t even notice the people standing outside the pack house until my door was opened, an

