Chapter 6
Benjamin left the tavern in a trance, and began wandering mindlessly.
He wanted to get as far away as possible. He wanted to find a mirror, and curse at his reflection. To hurl a vase against a wall. He’d been stupid. He’d been a coward. And he’d hurt the person he loved most in the world.
Why couldn’t he be as courageous on dry land as he was at sea? Why did real life always end up being more treacherous than life onboard his ship?
His feet led him back to the white church. You need alcohol, Benjamin, not prayer, he told himself, but his body didn’t seem to care what his mind was saying.
He stepped inside. It was deserted, just like the first time. Immediately feeling comfortable and warm, he made his way to the first row of pews, crossed himself, and kneeled. He contemplat
