Ronan
The feelings and the reactions of my heart and mind were f*cking with me more than I could handle. The way my heart would light up when I'd see Leif was in complete contrast to my body when it came down to being with him physically.
And then the reactions my body had to seeing or even smelling Ivy betrayed me even worse. I was a walking, talking b*ner when she was around. She didn't even have to be near me. My body knew when she was. My d**k would wake up and begin trying to tear its way to her. Meanwhile, I couldn't get hard to save my life when Leif was around.
And the guilt I felt because of all of it was horrific. My stomach felt like it was in constant knots and the anxiety I would get when I knew I was going to spend time around both or either of them was enough to make me w
