Lyla
I sat outside on the stoop of Charlie's apartment complex for a long time.
Despite my chest feeling like it's been cracked open, the rising sun coming up over the buildings was almost peaceful in a way and brought me some sense of comfort despite the chilling feeling of having disappointed both myself and my ex-lover.
Whatever I'd been expecting out of Rashid's mouth when I'd realized he'd been the one calling hadn't been to the confession to wanting me.
Of course, I reciprocated it, but admitting to it was more stupid than any decision I could've ever made. I hated how he made me feel, that false hope he instilled in me that just wouldn't quit no matter how hard I tried to stamp it down and ignore it.
It wasn't easy pretending that I was okay anymore and it was getting increasi
