Eleanor’s POV
I crumpled to the ground, disbelief filling me. I closed my eyes as tightly as I could. Tears had already gathered behind my eyelids and threatened to escape. Not my Ryan. Not my gamma. He was so care-free and loving. He never had a negative word for anyone and loved to tease his friends. He was the life of the party and made everything better. He was the reassurance when I doubted myself.
“Eleanor, are you alright?” Liam asked.
I opened my eyes, and the tears poured out as I looked over at him. “How the f**k do you think I am right now? How can you ask me that? I just found out that he’s gone. It’s all my fault!”
Liam shook his head, seemingly in a daze. “You’re right. I’m sorry. That was–I need to go.”
He walked out of the room, and I sat on the floor, letting the tea
