I've had it all and lost it all. I've been on top of the world and face down in the dirt. What I've never had was average, the things that normal people know.
I'm extreme in a world where mediocrity rules. I don't know a middle ground. I'm all in or all out, but I can't be somewhat invested. I pretend to be, for the world, but internally I'm warring with myself for being a hypocrite.
So, when I love, I love hard or not at all. There are no likes or maybes. My heart knows right away when something is right. Sometimes I don't listen to it, just to experience something other than huge excitement or major regret. In reality, I still feel the same. We can't change who we are, even when we pretend to be something different than we were born into.
My dad gets me. My mom struggles. I've learned
