SARAH'S POV",
The thing about wanting something for a long time is that you begin to confuse the wanting with the deserving.
I understood that now or I was beginning to understand it, which is different, because understanding something and being able to stop doing the thing it explains are not the same process.
I had wanted Adrian Veyron for three years.
I want to be precise about what that wanting was, because imprecision on the matter is what had caused most of the damage. I did not want Adrian the way you want a person you love, I was not naive enough, even in my most self-deceiving moments, to dress it in that language. I wanted what Adrian represented: the velocity of it, the specific weight of standing beside a man like that and having the world restructure itself around your pre
