Almost Always You

Chapter 7

Xander's POV

I don't know what came over me when I kissed her. She's my friend's sister, and it's not right for me to kiss her or have feelings for her.

Sure, I liked her a lot in the past, but I thought all those feelings were gone after I moved here. But seeing her sitting on that couch on my birthday made me realize that my feelings for her were still there, and I needed to control them.

She had grown so beautiful. Everything about her was different now, yet somehow, she was still the same El I remembered.

I just didn't want her to be someone else's, but I couldn't give her what she wanted either.

When I saw her kissing that David guy, I wanted to punch him in the face. It wasn't my right to do so, but I couldn't control my emotions.

I left her upstairs alone after kissing her. I hoped she didn't expect us to be in a relationship just because I kissed her. I knew she wasn't naïve enough to think that, especially since she knew me pretty well.

I saw her coming downstairs a few minutes later. Her makeup was gone, and her eyes were red.

She was crying.

All because of me.

She ignored me and disappeared into the kitchen.

I needed a distraction.

I got up with Nikki still on my lap. She lost her balance and almost fell, but I caught her just in time.

"Come on. Let's go upstairs," I told her, leading her upstairs.

Nikki and I had always been casual. We both knew what we wanted from each other, and there were no expectations.

She was someone who would satisfy my needs, and I hers. We entered my room and started kissing. I kicked the door shut. As I was kissing her, all I could think about was El and her pink lips on mine. I pulled away from her and moved towards my bed. I gently pushed her down and hovered on top of her. I kissed Nikki’s neck, and she moaned loudly. I was really hard. I ripped her shirt open; she wasn’t wearing a bra. I soon placed my lips on one of her hardened peaks. Nikki threaded her fingers in my hair and pulled them.

“Oh God, Alex!” she moaned.

She was withering beneath me. I switched to her other boob, giving it the same attention, and lowered my hand into her shorts. I rubbed her through her panties.

“Ahh,” El moaned. Wait. What? I stopped completely and looked up. I was still for a moment. It was Nikki.

“Remove your shorts and panties.” I told her and removed my pants. I grabbed a condom from the bedside table and rolled it onto my c**k. I sat on my bed and pulled Nikki onto my lap. She lowered herself slowly, taking me inch by inch in her. I closed my eyes, feeling the sensation. Nikki moaned and threw her head back.

She started going up and down slowly at first, but I couldn’t wait anymore; I started thrusting upwards. She let out a loud moan. Her long legs on both my sides, her hands wrapped around my neck. I closed my eyes and increased my speed. Her moans grew louder. Even though it was Nikki riding me, all I could picture was El wrapped around me. She stopped her movements completely. I gripped her hair and tilted her head. I bit into her neck, thrusting into her.

We both came at the same time. I got up and went into the bathroom. I got cleaned and went back downstairs with Nikki behind me. She went to her friends, and I started looking for El.

I went into the kitchen, but she wasn't there. I saw Josh and Peter talking to each other.

"Hey, have you guys seen El?" I asked them.

"She was really drunk, so David took her upstairs to my room," Peter said.

"Really? She's drunk, and you guys let her go into an empty room with some random guy?" I asked in a raised voice.

"Chill, dude. David's a nice guy. Plus, he just came downstairs a while ago to get water and crisps. He said they were for El. It would help her sober up. We've known him for a long time. The guy is decent. He wouldn't take advantage of her," Josh said, to which Peter nodded.

I thought it was a waste of time talking to these guys.

I made my way upstairs on my own to find El.

I went toward Peter's room and opened the door without knocking.

What I saw immediately made my blood boil.

David and El were about to kiss.

I saw red.

I was furious.

I knew I didn't have any right to her, but I still hated whatever was going on between them.

El stood up so quickly that she lost her balance and almost fell. David caught her.

I didn't like seeing him touch her.

"What the hell is going on?" I asked angrily.

I moved toward them and pulled El closer to me. She didn't say anything. She just looked at me.

"Nothing, Alex. Ella and I were just talking," David said.

"Talking? Really? If you guys were just talking, then why did it look like you were about to kiss?"

David was quiet.

He knew it wasn't a good idea to get on my bad side.

He didn't have an answer, so I continued.

"Listen to me clearly, David. El is off-limits. She's my friend's sister, so when he's not around, it's my responsibility to look after her. It's my final warning to you. Stay away from her," I said furiously.

El opened her mouth to say something, but I looked down at her, and she stopped.

David left the room without looking back.

El stared at the door for a few seconds before walking away.

I ran after her and stopped her.

"Where are you going?" I asked calmly.

"I'm going back to the dorms."

"It's past midnight. I don't think you should go now."

"So where am I supposed to sleep?"

"You can sleep in my room."

As soon as I said it, she let out a fake laugh.

"You think after everything you've done tonight I'll be staying here with you? I don't know why I'm even telling you all this. You don't have any right to know. You've done enough."

She tried to walk past me, but I stopped her again.

"At least let me drive you there. It's still not the right time to walk alone on the streets."

"No. I'm fine on my own."

She walked past me.

I didn't say anything or try to stop her. Instead, I followed behind her.

She didn't notice me until we were on the street.

She stopped and turned around.

"I don't need you. Why can't you understand? You make me miserable!" she shouted before starting to walk again, this time a little faster.

I increased my pace too but kept my distance.

She was mad at me, and I didn't want her to hate me.

She didn't say anything else and just kept walking.

We reached her dorm. I followed her inside. I don't know why. I just did.

She turned around when we reached her room.

"I'm here," she said, opening the door and stepping inside. "You can leave now."

She was about to close the door when I stopped her and stepped into the room.

I closed the door behind me.

"I think we should talk," I said nervously.

I didn't know why I did that.

I just did.

"I don't think there's anything to talk about. We kissed, you left without saying anything, and then later you went to have s*x with Nikki."

Wait.

How did she know about Nikki and me?

Seeing the surprised look on my face, she continued.

"That's right. I know. Peter saw you both going upstairs."

I wanted to tell her there was nothing serious going on between Nikki and me, but she raised her hand, stopping me from talking.

"Save it, Xander. I don't really care about you or who you have s*x with. I care about my life, and you have no right to interfere in it. James doesn't care about me, so stop using his name in front of the guys I'm interested in."

With that, she opened the door and pushed me out.

She shut the door in my face.

And it hurt.

It hurt more than I wanted to admit.

Because for the first time, I realized that she genuinely believed what happened between us had been a mistake.

And maybe I was the reason she believed that.