Almost Always You

Chapter 12

I never expected a relationship with Xander after what happened between us the day before, and now the way he was talking to me was really hurtful.

"I don't want a relationship from you. I think I've established that clearly since we made this deal."

I was angry.

"Then what do you expect me to do, El? I can't always keep talking to you."

"Why not? You can always talk to me. Nothing weird happened between us for you to ignore me. If you think I'm going to be some clingy girlfriend, then you're wrong. I just don't like you ignoring me. I mean, we're friends. At least, I thought we were."

"We are friends. It's just that I... I didn't know you were auditioning for the cheer team."

"What? I'm confused. You're mad at me because I auditioned for the cheer team?" I asked.

"No. But I just... I just don't like the idea of you in a cheer uniform. I mean, I would love to see you in that sexy outfit jumping up and down; it's the other guys I don't like. I don't want those stupid guys coming after you once they see you in that outfit," he said calmly.

"Xander, that's the stupidest reason I've ever heard."

"You don't know them, El. They'll use you like a tissue, and when they're done, they'll throw you away like you're nothing. I don't want that happening to you."

"Xander, I'm not that little girl anymore whom you used to protect. I'm grown-up. I can take care of myself. Plus, you don't have any right to be mad at me."

There was a slight disappointment in his eyes when I said the last part, but he covered it up soon, just like he always did.

He breathed out slowly and said, "You're right, El. I don't have any right to be mad at you. Just take care of yourself."

"I will."

We continued working on our assignment. We made good progress, unlike the day before.

By eight, we were tired and decided to continue later.

Mercy texted, saying that she would be staying with Josh at the frat house that night.

"Looks like I'm on my own. Mercy is staying with Josh."

"Oh, they're going to have s*x," Xander said, smiling widely.

"How do you know that?"

"I just know."

We decided to order pizza.

While we waited for the food, I decided to resume watching Bridgerton.

"What's this about?" Xander asked as he sat beside me.

"It's a period drama. It's a romantic series."

"I don't like romantic series."

"That's because you don't believe in love."

"And you do?"

"Yes, of course. I believe there's always someone, somewhere, who will love you more than they love themselves. You just have to find that person."

"I don't think anyone will love me."

"Why?"

"Because I end up hurting the person who's really close to me, or, in other cases, they end up hurting me and then leave me."

I knew he was talking about Riley and James.

"They leave because they're not worth your love, or you hurt them. But one day, there will be a girl who will never leave your side, no matter how much you hurt her. You'll realize then that it's her love for you that's keeping her by your side, no matter how much you hate her."

"We'll see," was all he said.

Our pizza arrived. Xander didn't allow me to pay even half, saying it was his treat.

We watched the series while eating.

The scene was where Daphne and Simon realized that they loved each other on the night after their wedding. It was the first time they had s*x.

I never liked watching scenes like that, so I decided to skip it, but Xander protested.

"Hey, why are you changing it? It was just getting interesting."

"Really? I don't want to see this."

"Oh no, we're watching. Plus, it's something we're going to do soon," he said in a seductive voice.

I gulped and continued watching.

Xander was paying more attention to me than to the series. I could feel his eyes on me.

I felt awkward watching it.

As soon as the scene was over, I shut my laptop.

Xander was still staring at me, and I could feel it. I looked at him and raised my eyebrows.

"What's wrong?"

“Nothing. Just thinking about the time we are going to have sex.”

“What are you thinking?” My voice came out a bit different.

Xander pulled me over his lap. He whispered in my ear.

“Would you like me to describe it?”

I just nodded because he was really close to me and it was really intoxicating. He buried his face into my neck.

“First I would kiss you slowly and endeavor your plum lips, then your neck. All our clothes will be gone by then. Just our naked bodies colliding against each other. Slowly I’ll put my head over one of your t**s and suck on your nipple.”

He was palming my breast. It was warm, so I wasn’t wearing a bra. I was so turned on that my erect n*****s poked out. Xander pinched my n*****s through my tank top. He continued whispering while placing wet, sloppy kisses on my neck.

“I’ll take my sweet time and enjoy both of your tits.”

I let out a small moan when he found my sweet spot behind my ear.

“I’ll leave hickeys all over your chest and neck so people can know you are mine right now.”

My heart skipped a beat when he called me his.

He moved his hand over my ass, and I started to grin. I could feel his hard-on beneath me. Xander guides my hips to move faster.

“Then… Then what?” I asked eagerly.

Xander bit on my shoulder.

“Then I’ll lower my head between your thighs.” The thought of it makes me moan louder.

“I’ll slowly poke my tongue out and slide it up and down your wet c**t. You will be withering under me, baby, asking for release. You’ll be grabbing my hair and pushing my head down, wanting more pressure.”

I wanted him to do that to me right now. I tried getting up, but Xander stopped me. We started dry humping again. Xander helped me move my hips faster. In a few minutes I came in my panties. I was tired, but I kept on grinding. Soon Xander came. I got up from his lap and gathered my toiletry bag.

“Where are you going?” he asked.

“To take a shower. I can’t sleep like this,” I said, blushing. He smiled at me and got up. He kissed my forehead and then pecked me on my lips.

“Do you have an extra towel? I would also like to take a shower.”

“Where are you going to take it?”

“At your dormitory bathroom. Where else do you think?”

“What if someone sees you?”

“Come on, El! Live a little. No one will be showering at this time.” I thought about it, and he was right.

“If you are sure, then let’s go.” I gave him an extra towel, and we made our way to the bathroom. I was being cautious the whole way, and Xander was making fun of me. The bathroom was empty. I opened one of the curtains and entered the cubicle. I placed everything on the rack and got out of my clothes when suddenly the curtain was opened. Xander was staring at my naked body. I felt weird but when I saw him lick his lips it made the little girl who once loved him very happy and satisfied.

“What?” I asked.

“Can I join you?”

“No, get into the other one,” I said, drawing the curtains back. I started the shower. A few moments later Xander came in naked.

“What the hell are you doing?”

“Taking a shower.”

“Go into the other cubicle.”

“Nope. The other one doesn’t have you in it,” he said, and he pushed me aside, and he stood underneath the showerhead.

I tried to push him away, but he grabbed my hand and pushed me into the wall. He kissed me deeply. His tongue entered in my mouth. His tongue piercing hit me every once in a while. I was hot and bothered. I pressed my thighs together. This action was noticed by Xander. He brought his hand down and pushed my legs apart. With his other hand he guided my right hand to his hard-on. It was the first time I was touching someone. I tensed.

“Relax, baby,” he whispered in my ear.

He moved my hand up and down while his other hand was rubbing my v****a. Once I got a hold of what I was doing, his hand left mine and grabbed my breast. He inserted a finger inside me. I moaned in pleasure. The hot shower and Xander giving me sloppy kisses on my neck made me come in a few minutes. I was moaning so loudly that I was scared someone might have heard me. I continued pumping Xander. He brought his lips to mine, kissing me passionately. Soon he came while groaning into my mouth. He looked me in the eye lustfully.

“I hope it was good for you.” I said, blushing.

“It was the best handjob I’ve ever gotten.”

“Stop lying, please,” I said, looking down embarrassingly. He pulled my chin up and kissed me on my lips.

“El baby, why would I lie to you? It was seriously, and I’m not saying it so you don’t feel bad. You are a natural,” he said genuinely.

I blushed. He kissed my forehead. We washed up. No one ever saw us, and I was really grateful.

When we got back to my room, Xander suddenly said, "Hey! My mom asked me to ask you if you'd like to come to our house for the weekend. She was really excited when I told her that you came here for college."

"Umm... sure. I really am desperate for a home-cooked meal."

"Okay. We can leave after the game on Friday. Is that alright?"

"Yes, of course."

I yawned.

"No, shush. I need my beauty sleep," I said.

I cuddled up beside Xander and fell asleep with a huge smile on my face.