Well it has been a few days since I found out everything and I spoke to everyone about it and they all promised to keep me in the loop from now on and let me help them with anything I can and let me try to help them without any bitching or sectrets from now on we found out that me dying and been what I am must have interested the devil himself and one day we expect he will show himself and let us all know why but for now I have asked them to put everything on hold as it is nearly Christmas and I want to enjoy it while we can and I want to get it all done right for my baby boy I mean decorations presents lights trees hot chocolate old movies singing the full works and praying it snows this year for the big day everyone I love is here and we are all together with a few new family to love a
