Story that remained untold

That old heartache

When someone crushes you completely...it is difficult to gather yourself and build your world again..but it is not impossible..just have little faith in yourself

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After bidding goodbyes with Maehul I reached home and discussed prospective apartment with mum, where I may land very soon. After having dinner I went to my room and threw myself on my bed.. as I was about to drown in sleep, my phone beeped..I squinted my eyes to see what that beep is all about...it's goodnight text from Maehul, I replied back and got drunk with deep sleep.

"Have you ever seen yourself in mirror...Look at you, You are clumpsy , bloody emotional, you are NOTHING in comparison to me just a piece of a dirt" he shouted with a death glare in his eyes which is now burning with desperate anger.

"How could you even imagine that I will fall in love with someone like you" he said with a disgust and left.stomping sound of his shoes faded away from the corridor...I stood there dumbfounded being insulted.

I didn't know that the moment for which I was waiting for, would come with such a hurting storm which will collapse all my dreams and will convert it into million shards of pieces.I didn't realize I was crying until I felt something hot and wet flowing freely from my eyes over my cheeks.

After being rejected and mortified by him, I directly headed towards my apartment and locked myself into my room.I felt disgusted with myself and shouted to myself that "I don't deserve anyone, I look horrible, I can never be compatible to him...you know what! you don't deserve anyone..!!.

I woke up with sudden shock.. covered in all sweat. "Again this nightmare, I don't know when I'll be free from it" I thought to myself sighing heavily.

It's morning 5'o clock, I growled and stepped out of bed..I coudn't sleep because of that nightmare. Maybe I won't be able to recover from what happened that day.

I've been traumatized because of his words psychologically and had to get regular counselling.

After that incident, I kept distance from people. Sereal helped me a lot in becoming normal and she convinced me that I can share everything with her. Sereal is like a shield for me...she give death threats to people if they'll dare to hurt me in any way. I am really blessed to have a buddy like her.

"well, now that my sleep is ruined..why not to utilise this morning" I thought to myself.

I put on the sports wear, earbuds with full volume,...and went on jogging.

While I was jogging..Maehul appeared next to me running, following my pace.

"How's you Velish?...didn't get enough sleep?..you look tired" Maehul said.

"I'm good..yeah! I woke up early..had some bad dream" I replied.

"so..all ok now??" He enquired with concern.

"Hmm..I'm good" I replied with low tone..before I could notice a single tear betrayed my effort to hold it in.

"what happened?" He asked (his face was covered in full concern).

his voice became slow..and I started feeling dizzy..a sharp pain pierced in my heart...this heartache is so painful..before I could know ....Everything became dark.