Chapter Nineteen
2021 Words
Paige
I ignored Wallace’s calls like I’m allergic to him. I don’t know why I’m so f*****g pissed at him. Maybe because he promised me something and all what he did is drink with his brother.
I mean, I’m not really pissed because of that, it’s just that he made us move in with him. I’m not being needy or clingy or anything. He told me he will help me to pack our clothes but he didn’t. If he doesn’t want to help, he can just simply tell me.
“Hey. How’s your mom?” I looked at Crissa. She standing behind the coffee maker in the lounge room in our company.
“She’s great, I guess?” I hope Rigo is entertaining her. I hope she is having a good with Rigo since they are just same age. “After her last attack, I’m so protective to her. I’m just waiting for a donor.”
Which is I knew, that will take so long to find. But at least, I’m doing everything not to trigger the causes of her attacks.
“That’s good. I talked to Jordan yesterday. He told me that he is sorry because there’s no update so as, your ex, Craig.”
“It is fine. I appreciate your help, Cris. And hey, mom and I moved. We moved closer to the hospital.”
“Why?”
“In case she need to be admitted to the hospital again, we are close. I’m more comfortable to that place because it is closer to the hospital.” I lied.
I don’t wanna tell her that we moved to a mansion and I’m f*****g the owner because we had deal crazy deal. At least this alibi, will get her.
“That’s good decision.” She hugged me and then she walked back to her table.
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When the clock strikes five, I immediately got out of work and then I drove to our house. If Wallace cannot help, I will do it myself.
Besides, it’s only temporary. After our deal is done, we are going back to our house. So maybe, I should pack clothes good for a couple of months.
I checked the the flower pot for a spare key. I knew my mom is keeping one in here. Just for emergency in case one of us, forgot our own key. And I’m right.
A silent living room welcomed me. A breeze of cold air entered the house. I miss this. We haven’t came home for two days but I miss this house.
This has been our home since I started working. Our haven. This is where we celebrate birthdays, holidays and other special occasions with friends.
“Paige? Hi.” I heard Rita’s voice. She is smiling from ear to ear. “Hello, Rita.”
“How’s Cecile? I’m sorry again.”
“Mom’s okay. It’s not your fault. Don’t be sorry, please. We both don’t wanted that to happen. You asked her what is wrong, she didn’t tell you a thing.”
I’m so tired of people blaming themselves for nothing because people decided not to tell them what is wrong. Let’s normalise when people didn’t say a thing, it’s not your fault what will happen to them next. You cared for them but they chose to stay silent.
“I appreciate your concern, Rita.” I said. Nothing’s gonna change. Her sorry will not cure my mother. It’s not her fault. All I need her to do is to support us by praying.
“Thank you. Anyways, someone is looking for you yesterday he told me you knew each other. It’s Craig? You know that man?”
As if on cue, someone knocked on the open door and I saw Craig looking at me intently.
“It’s him! I’ll leave you two alone.”
I saw Craig smiled to Rita before he come in. I have never been alone with Craig since we broke up. It’s been two years since we broke up and our relationship is civil.
We are still talking because he is helping me with my mother. But that’s all. We never talked about our broken relationship ever since.
“Can we talk? About... Us?” He said.
“What?”
“I wanna explain my side. It’s been two years, Paige. Let me explain.”
Is there really a reason for me to hear his side? I saw the whole thing. I saw how he moaned while moving on top of my friend— Flora. They had an affair while I’m busy being loyal and faithful to him.
“Flora is a slut. I made a mistake, Paige.”
I chuckled bitterly. “A mistake? You had an affair. You made me look like a fool, Craig! That is not a mistake!”
“We are drunk!” He hissed. I slapped him hard as I could. I cannot believe him.
“Drunk? You are drunk for two f*****g months? Craig, you had s*x with her multiple times! I disgust you!”
All of the memories of him and Flora having s*x on his bed came in like a flood. My mind is full of the scene I saw in his apartment two years ago.
They are both naked and moaning in pleasure. Flora is screaming his name, begging him to move faster because she is close to her climax. They are enjoying each other’s company.
They are having s*x on the bed where we do nasty things. He put his d**k inside of me when he put that thing inside my friend too. Disgusting.
“I’m sorry. It’s just a mistake, Paige. I made one mistake!”
“One f*****g mistake? You made that decision, Craig! You chose to screw other w***e behind my back! And the worst part is, she is my friend. Imagine the pain it gave me. Flora used to be my go to buddy but she chose to have s*x with you.”
I knew, Flora is a hoe because she is single. She’s a model and she is everyone’s type in the industry. A lot of his single guy friends wanted to be with her, they wanted to be Flora’s boyfriend. I can still remember back then, I used to think why she’s still single when there’s a lot of good guys ready to kneel in front of her, give her all the things she needs in this very life. But the conclusion made me realise that she doesn’t want to date a single man, she wants someone who is committed. A f*****g snake.
“You cheated on me. I thought you are the different guy, Craig. I pictured our life together but you chose to screw me. You chose to crush my love for you because you are not contented with me.”
I gave him my virginity. I let him taint my innovation. I gave him everything I have. But that’s not enough. I will never be enough for him.
My love, my virginity, my faithfulness, everything is not enough for him. I can give him everything I have and he will still cheat.
Men with a ring on their finger cheat. If you think your boyfriend will stay faithful to you because you opened your legs for him, think again. There’s not enough love that will make a cheater contended. They will always seek for more.
“Paige! I told you, I love you so much honey. Please give me another chance. I want you back.” Craig tried to come closer and hold my hand but I dodged it.
“Don’t touch me, Craig.”
"But I miss you. I miss us."
I raised a brow. "I can't relate, Craig."
Men think a simple sorry is enough. They don’t know the impact of their behaviour to us. They cheat and screw other woman and they still think a simple sorry can cure and make things better.
They don’t know the impact of their behaviour to our mental health and to our self esteem.
When Craig cheated on me with my snake little friend, I used to question myself. Am I not enough? I have been faithful to him. Everything he wants me to do, I’m doing it because I love him. Maybe I’m not beautiful as Flora? Maybe I’m not good in bed. Maybe I don’t satisfy him enough in bed. Should I do more? Should I beg?
Craig’s actions didn’t just left me broken. His actions gave me depression and low self esteem.
Now that I’m doing good. I know my worth as a woman, he wants to come back? Toxic men really out there waiting for you to settle your life in peace, get your s**t together, have a major glow up, love yourself and they will comeback to ruin it again.
But, I think they have the power to ruin us again because we always let them in our lives again. We let toxic men comeback in our life knowing they will just ruin our life again.
“Flora meant nothing on me, Paige. She is just a slut who are testing our relationship.”
"A slut? She's a slut but you had an affair with her. She's a slut but you slept with her, sit your ass down." I exclaimed. “Don’t be a f*****g stupid, Craig. She meant nothing? But you had an affair with her for two f*****g months! She is worth ruining our relationship and you helped her ruin it!”
Men really come at you after you busted them. You saw them cheat, they will act like they are the victim. They will talk s**t on the woman they screwed when in reality, they loved the s*x and they loved the lie.
“Craig, enough. We are done.” I told him in a tired voice. I am so done reminiscing that night of our anniversary where I caught him and his girl.
“Let’s start over, please! I still love you! I cannot live without you!”
“You are breathing right now.” I said sarcastically.
“Then why are you talking to me? You answer my calls.”
“Because you offered that you will help me and my mother. I let you talk to me because you told me we are civil and you just want to help. Do not put any other meaning to that, Craig.”
I saw him glared at me. My heart pound, I suddenly got nervous. Is he gonna hurt me? Now, I wish Rita is still here.
“I will stop looking for a donor if you don’t comeback to me.” His voice is aggressive. He is now cocky.
Is he trying to manipulate me? I tried not to chuckle because he is too funny right now. Right now, I am more thankful that Wallace is using all of his connections to help me. I guess losing Craig’s help will not affect the search.
“You can now stop helping. I will not let you manipulate me. Thank you for trying to help.”
His smirk is now gone. He knew he lost the argument. I hope he will leave this house and never contact me again. I will not let him manipulate me to comeback to him. I’m not stupid to comeback. I’m not stupid to tolerate his toxic ass— ever again.
“Besides, my girlfriend have me. All she needs is me. She doesn’t need your help, she doesn’t need you. All. She. Need. Is. Me.”
A baritone voice echoed the living room. Craig looked behind him. The shadow of a tall man covered the pavement outside. I saw his sharp jaw, and his blazing eyes. He is wearing his casual outfit but still, his aura is screaming power. His body language screams he is powerful and you shouldn't mess with him.
“Who are you?” Craig asked.
I didn’t say a word. I knew that man. He can destroy Craig in one snap. He can put Craig in his place, respectfully or by force.
“Wallace, Paige’s boyfriend.” He winked at me. “Now, if you don’t leave this house, my men will drag you by your ear. I suggest you leave now because me and my girlfriend have some business to do."
There are three men outside the house. They are simply wearing a black shirt and slacks with black shoes. They are all tall with muscular body. They are like wrestlers ready to slam someone.
Craig left without a word. I hope he got the message from me. I hope he can now accept that we are not getting back together. I hope he can now move on.
“I’m impressed that you didn’t let him comeback to you, babe.” Wallace kissed my forehead.
Toxic men will not ruin your improvement with yourself and with life if you don’t let them. Toxic men will not comeback to your life if you don’t let them. Think with your mind not with your heart.
- Writer
