Paige
“You think we should get some clothes for my mom?” I asked Wallace outside the shower.
We are too comfortable with each other to the point that he doesn’t really mind if I go inside the shower to ask him something.
My cheeks reddened when he unconsciously opened the glass door, his wet naked body showed and my throat become incredibly dry because of the breathtaking man in front of me.
Jesus!
“Rigo brought some.” He said while looking at me. I looked away because his eyes is so intense I can melt.
“Okay.” Before I could turn my heel to leave, he grabbed my forearm and he put me under the shower.
“f**k, Wallace! What the hell!” I hissed. I just finished showering and now I’m wet again.
“Well, we’ll f**k right now.”
I pushed him but because of his strength and muscles, it didn’t him anything
“We need to go. Let go of me!” I hissed. He left out a deep sexy chuckle before aggressively yanked off my dressed.
Damn.
I stopped his hand from going down to my womanhood.
“Why? Just a quickie.” He winked at me.
I pinched him on the side while chuckling. “No. We have to go back to the hospital. Hurry up.”
He grimaced but he ended up showering again. I close the bathroom door to fix my things.
I called my boss to tell him that I cannot go to work for a couple of days or a week because of my mom’s condition. I need to be more hands on when it comes to taking care of her.
***
While we’re waiting for outside the room of my mom, I called Ez and Criss for something.
The operation hasn’t start yet. The nurses are still checking my mother. The heart is now in the hands of the surgeon.
I don’t know what to feel right now. I’m happy but at the same time, I’m nervous ad hell. My anxieties have anxieties at this point.
I held Wallace’s hand to calm my system. He squeezed my hand and he kissed my cheeks. I closed my eyes to feel the relaxing effect of his kisses.
“Relax. Everything’s gonna be alright.” He whispered.
I nodded my head while waiting. When the nurse pulled her out of the room, I immediately approached her.
“Hey, mom.” She smiled at me. I kissed her cheeks.
“I love you, Paige.”
“I love you too, Mom. I love you so much.”
She didn’t get a chance to respond since she needs to be in the operation room. I saw doctor Minrod and Sage.
“Good luck, Man.” Wallace and Sage fist bumps each other. I smiled to the both of them before they turned to their way.
“I hope for the best, Miss Paige.” I hugged Rigo. “I need to go back to the mansion, Sir and Miss.”
For the past months, Rigo has been part of my being. He is too gentle and caring.
Wallace’s friends are here. They wanted to be here for prayers and moral support.
“What the f**k is that bastard doing here?” I heard Wallace’s whispers. I look at him but he is glaring to someone in front of us.
Unconsciously, I looked on what he is looking and I saw Crissa ad Ezekiel.
Ezekiel looks so stunning in his simple outfit. Nobody’s gonna think that he is gay because he looks a total snack with the white polo shirt.
“Did you invited him? I’m okay with your girl friend being in here but that son of b***h? You have to kick him out of here.”
“Why? He’s doing nothing, Wallace. Chill.”
“Oh yeah? He knew that you are taken and for sure, he’s going to hit on you right in front of my face.” Still annoyed, he wrapped his hand on the back of my waist and he pinned me to his hard rock body. He’s possessiveness is all over the room right now.
“He is not gonna hit on me. He is married.”
“And why the hell are you going out with him? Lunch date huh? Damn he got a wife, he shouldn’t invite you to lunch. f*****g asshole.”
I chuckled when I saw his annoyed face. He is offended that Ezekiel is here.
“He is gay, Wallace. You sit down your ass. Stop hating on him.”
From annoyed to shocked. He looked at me in disbelief. “Really!?” I pinched him on the side when he hissed so loud we got his friends attention.
“What?” His friends asked. Wallace showed his middle finger to them before putting his attention to me again.
“He is married with a man? Really?”
“Trust me, that’s my reaction too. But, isn’t it amazing? He is already married and happy. At first I didn’t believe him because you see? He’s a total snack right now. He is hot and hand—“
“Whoa. Hold on there. The only man you will see as hot and handsome is me. I don’t care if he is gay or straight or whatever. The hot and handsome compliment of yours is only applicable to me.”
“What? I’m just stating some facts. Crissa had hots on him. Maybe he’s my crush too.” I winked.
“What? And I’m not your crush? Wow. I’ve been making love with you and you were moaning my name in pleasure and I’m still not your crush?”
I didn’t know if he needs to know but I knew what I feel for him right now is not a simple attraction anymore. There’s more in my feelings and I don’t want to name what it was.
I might get hurt if I put a name on it. I will hide it to him and to myself too. Besides, I’m too old for those crush things. I’m not getting any younger anymore. There’s no room for crushes.
“Hello. Are you ready to go?” I hugged Ezekiel before nodding my head.
Wallace looks confuse. “You’re going out? Aren’t you gonna stay here?”
“I just need to do something important with them. I’ll be back.” I kissed him on the lips then I walked away.
He’s about to protest but Leon asked him something .
Today, I will get myself checked if I’m pregnant or not. Since, my mother is now on surgery for heart transplant, might as well give what Wallace wants.
A sonogram.
Ezekiel’s cousin is an Obstetrician gynaecologist. I decided to check myself up not only because this is for Wallace but also I can feel some symptoms of pregnancy.
“Usually, her clinic is closed on Sundays. But since I asked her a favour, she will be examining you today.” I heard Ezekiel as he guided me inside his car.
The car is covered by his natural scent. He’s scent is manly just like Wallace but if I will choose, I will pick Wallace’s scent because it suits him well. Masculine but not that strong.
“Do you know how yummy you look today, Ez? Damn.” Crissa sat down on the backseat.
“No. But thank you.”
“Are you really sure you don’t like woman? I’m available.” I chuckled. For sure, she is heart broken right now.
When Ez told me he’s going to tell Cris his real gender, I laughed. Crissa have a huge crush on him. He’s handsome and gentleman after all. Every woman will fall in love with him. Even though he looks like a hottie nerd because of his specs.
“Nope. Happily married, Crissa.” He winked at her through the mirror. I saw Criss rolled her eyes.
“I’m happy for you but do you have a brother? I can settle with your brother. If I can’t be with the Ezekiel, I would be very happy if I get the other Ezekiel looking.”
I chuckled again. She’s really desperate to get the genes of Ezekiel. But I wonder, does his family look good too? Because sometimes, family contain one good looking human and the is— okay looking.
“His name is Clark Stewart. He is one year younger than us. I can set the two of you up.”
“Yeah, and she will remember her ex.”
“Why?” His eyes is focused on the road. I cleared my throat to tell the story. “Clark is the name of her beloved ex boyfriend.”
“I hate the name Clark. And I hate that brother of yours.”
I cannot help myself but to burst out in laughter. Whenever Crissa hear a person named Clark, her day and mood get ruined. Just like right now.
When we arrived to the clinic. An old woman on her fifties greeted us. I’m a bit shocked when she’s literally older than us.
“Hello, are the patient?” I nodded.
She asked me to take two pregnancy tests in the comfort room whilst Crissa and Ezekiel is waiting for me. I wore the hospital gown she gave me for the ultrasound later on.
I peed on the kits and I waited for the result nervously. I don’t know what will happen after this. If I’m pregnant, meaning me and Wallace’s time together will end by next week.
The agreement is, if I get pregnant and I showed him the sonogram, and my mother have her needed transplant, the deal is done.
After long minutes, I checked the pregnancy test and I saw the two red lines. My heart skipped a beat.
It is positive. I’m pregnant.
My hands trembled. I’m pregnant with Wallace’s child. Oh god.
I twisted the door to get outside and show the doctor the two pregnancy kit. She smile at me. “Congratulations, Miss Martin.”
Ezekiel and Crissa hugged me while smiling so widely. They’re happy for sure but me? I don’t know. This pregnancy means one thing— I have to let him go now.
“Congratulations, P! You deserve to be a mother! Oh god I’m gonna cry!” Crissa is exaggerating. A tear escaped my right eye when I saw her reaction.
“Congrats, Paige. I’m happy for you.” I hugged the both of them. I cannot utter some words. No words can describe the little happiness I’m feeling right now.
“Let’s see the baby, shall we?”
My friends let go of me then I lay my back in the hospital bed. The doctor put some gel on my stomach. It feels cold but relaxing.
On the monitor, she’s locating the baby and there it is. “You see that?” She pointed on the white figure.
“That’s the baby. You’re eight weeks pregnant, Miss Martin. Congratulations.”
I stared at the monitor. My heart melted when I saw the figure she pointed seconds ago. I smiled happily and the relaxing feeling and contentment filled my whole body.
By just staring at the tiny figure, all my worries were gone.
Is that what they call love at first sight? Because I cannot feel the baby yet but I can feel deep in my heart that I will love the baby with all my heart and soul.
After I changed my clothes. The doctor gave me the two copies of the sonogram.
“You have to deal with the pregnancy hormones and the cravings will be very bad for the months. I recommended the the vitamins that would help you throughout the weeks until you visit me again, Okay?”
“Noted.”
“Congratulations, again.”
We decided to go back in the hospital to wait for my mother’s surgery. I don’t know if by now the surgery is or not.
I flinches when I felt my phone vibrated. It’s a message from Wallace attached with his image.
From Wallace:
You've been gone for two hours. What time are you coming back? Here's a photo of me to remind you that you have a boyfriend so, stop drooling over that f*****g Ezekiel.
I shoved back my inside in my pocket without responding. I don’t know what to respond.
What will I say? We will part our ways maybe next week so there’s no other reason to say silly things to him.
I hated that thought. I don’t want to let go of him but I have to. It’s clear to me that he doesn’t want to be in a relationship and I should put that in my head.
Wallace would never return my feelings so I should just restart my heart like a f*****g phone.
“I want a cheeseburger.” I demanded. Thinking my relationship with Wallace made me crave for a cheeseburger with pickles and tomato dripping in cheese sauce.
“Here goes the cravings.” Ezekiel murmured.
Damn. Cheeseburger and milk is good combination right now.
I swallowed the saliva in my mouth. Wallace is wrong when he said that I should stop drooling over Ez. Well, I’m drooling over a damn cheeseburger, I won.
Ezekiel did what I want. We stopped to a drive thru and he bought me a cheeseburger.
I’m eating the cheeseburger when I approached Wallace and his friends. Ezekiel and Crissa dropped me in front of the hospital before they go home.
I don’t want then to be here since the hospital is too crowded for me. Too much people in the area make me sick.
“Where have you been?” I didn’t answer Wallace’s question. I walked to sit on the chair to enjoy my cheeseburger.
Right now, I can eat twenty pieces of this bad boys.
“That cheeseburger is mouth watering. Who wants a cheeseburger?” Crow asked them.
Damon immediately raised his hand up and jumped like a little kid. Cute!
“Me! Me! Me!” He cheered.
I stood up to pinch his rosy cheeks. He smiled at me, “I’m cute, right?”
“Adorable.” I winked at him. Next thing I knew, a strong hands were wrapped in my waist pulling me away from Damon.
Base from the scent, it is Wallace’s hand. I looked at him while frowning.
“He is what?”
“Adorable.”
“No he is not.” He groaned.
“Hey, I’m cute and you’re not. Right Paige?” I nodded to Damon.
I was about to speak when Doctor Minrod and Sage came out from the operating room. Their heads are down just like their shoulders.
I approached them but my mind went crazy when they look sad, sorry and disappointed.
“What happened?” I tried to sound hopeful. Because maybe they are just pranking me.
They are just playing.
“I’m sorry.”
I was about to bite my burger when I halted. What?
“Heart transplant is a major operation a human can undergo. During the procedure, there’s some complications we encountered.” Sage started.
I felt Wallace’s hand over mine but that didn’t sent me anywhere. My mind is circling on what happened and what these doctors about to say.
Now I'm actually scared to death. What is happening?
“We transferred the healthy heart but the heart didn’t start in her body. It didn’t function well. The patient rejected the heart. And there’s a tumour on her gallbladder. We failed to remove it because we haven’t seen the tumour before. We have no idea if the tumour is malignant or not.”
“We tried everything we can inside that room. But, we failed her. I’m sorry, Paige.”
My stomach clenched. I think I’m going to puke or what. I dropped the cheeseburger on the floor.
The news thudded in my ears like an explosion. I heard every single words clearly but my mind won’t accept it. It rejected what they said.
“What?” I asked. What they said didn’t add up.
“She lost the battle. She’s dead. I’m sorry.” Sage held my shoulders and he is disappointed.
“No.” She told me she’s going to be healthy again.
Oh my god. I covered my mouth as my tears started to fall. My heart got wounded deep. I felt my soul got ripped into pieces.
Wallace hugged my from behind as I collapsed on the ground. Suddenly, I cannot feel my own legs. I faced Wallace to look at him but his face is sad.
There’s no word can describe the agony I’m feeling right now. I heard his friends saying sorry and their faces are full of sadness and pity.
All my strength shrinks. My heart is crushed into pieces. Life betrayed me again.
The news is ripping apart my whole human being inside and out. I broke Wallace’s embrace because for the first time, I didn’t feel safe in his arms. I feel suffocated that I needed to get out of here and breathe.
I ran away without saying a word or looking. I don’t know where my feet will bring me but I don’t care. I didn’t know how to digest this. I’ve been living with agony for days and I’m living with it forever.
When I was finally away from all of them, my tears burst out. I cried so much that I cannot breath anymore. I sobbed like a little girl. I hit the rock bottom now. There was nothing left with me.
Once again, I’m all alone— for good