Wallace
I haven’t been home in a week. After the heated argument happened between me and Paige, I haven’t gone home. That’s my house but I don’t have any balls to come home and see her beautiful face.
My body tensed when I remember the exact same words she uttered in my face. I got scared. I knew I shouldn’t provoke her in any ways. But after witnessing that motherfucker caressing her hair like they are so f*****g close, I saw red and I got eaten by anger.
My blood boiled in anger and annoyance. I don’t know why I felt thy kind of feeling when I saw her smiling to other guy.
“Yow yow yow what is up citizen of the world?” I heard the annoying voice of my brother.
For over a week, I’ve been staying in his penthouse to sleep and drown myself on my won thoughts while staring at Paige’s picture.
“Shut the f**k up, fat ass.” I groaned. He looked offended but he kept his mouth shut.
“Aren’t you going home? You have girlfriend to see.”
My lips thinned. She told me she is not my real girlfriend and that hurt my ego. This whole boyfriend and girlfriend thing is just a front. I’m annoyed to that thought but I remembered that I’m the one who said that kind of lie.
I should’ve offered to her to be my real f*****g girlfriend so that I can have the right to get mad about what I saw a week ago.
Fucking dumb ass. f*****g stupid brain.
“Hello.”
“Shut the f**k up, Psyche.” I groaned again. Leon and Psyche is here hanging out with me.
I wanted to be alone but my crazy friends won’t let me have my own piece of mind.
“Hell! What did I do? I brought barbecue, guys.” He placed the plate of chicken barbecue on the glass coffee table.
I haven’t eaten my meal properly for the past week. I miss Paige’s company. I’m not used to eating alone anymore. I miss her but I’ve been so d**k.
“Oh! This is good, Ki. Where did you get these?” Leon’s mouth is full but he can talk properly. If that’s not talent, I don’t know what it is.
“On the floor next door.”
“f**k you!” The chewed chicken is all over the damn table. I grimaced. Disgusting.
I heard Psyche’s crazy laugh because he got my brother and his unholy appetite when it comes to food.
I poured myself a glass of scotch to relax my nerves. My crippled relationship with my girl, Paige and the noise coming from my brother and my best friend makes me irritated. Goddamnit.
The scotch hit the back of my throat. I can feel the heat caused by the alcohol but it doesn’t helped me to calm down and relax.
Paige’s presence makes me calm not this damn scotch.
“Hello, motherfuckers.” I looked at the doorway snd I saw Crow, Sage, Damon and Apollo. They are all here for unknown reasons.
Fuck me.
What now? I haven’t been at ease for the past week because I am not used to sleeping alone. And now, my lunatic friends are here to crash down the little sanity I have.
Missing Paige is making me crazy every single seconds. I want to apologise to her but why? Everything she said to me was true. She slapped me with the reality but I refused to sink that truth in my brain.
I’m doubting my own sanity and my own thoughts when I’m with her. The obsession is getting deeper and deeper.
I need to put a pressure on it to avoid the feelings I forbid myself to feel. I’m not supposed to like her or anything. We are together because of the deal.
Nothing more, nothing less.
My head is pounding from overthinking things. I should leave in the moment our time and deal with the other things when the deal is over.
I’m sure, by the time she got pregnant and her mother’s health become better, my interest with her will be gone and it will become a good memory.
I’m sure I can move on with her because I don’t stick to one woman. I won’t. My destiny is to become a bachelor without any women problems.
Soon, I will let Paige go and there’s no turning back.
“Someone’s thinking deep. You got a brain, psycho?” I glared at Apollo.
“Go home, idiot.”
I took out my phone from my pocket to stare at Paige’s image. She’s the spitting image of his mother but the stronger and braver version. She is not gentle like her mother because she’s ready to fight you all the time.
If you provoked her.
“Hello, Would you guys want to try this amazing chicken barbecue?” I heard Leon’s voice. Him and Psyche have evil plan on their minds.
Ad if on cue, my idiotic friends dig in. They are all amazed by the taste of the food. I cannot blame them. The chicken looks really delicious because it was dripping in sauce.
They didn’t say anything. They let the guys finish their own bites. They even offered the guys a glass of wine.
Fucking demons.
“Damn. That tastes good.” Crow commented. Followed by the others opinion.
I couldn’t hide my smile because of the evilness of my brother and my best friend. Damn, Satan will give his throne to this two, for real.
“Yeah. Crow’s right. Where did you buy it?” Sage asked while sipping his wine.
“Damn that’s so filling. The sauce is good.” That’s Apollo.
“On the floor next door.”
Everybody coughed in disgust.
“f**k the both you, assholes!” I heard Damon’s angry voice and I cannot help but to laugh. For the first time in a week, I laughed.
“You should’ve asked them before eating whatever they offer.” I simply said pouring myself another glass of scotch.
“Anyways, did your girlfriend informed you about her lunch date with a friend?” I looked at Sage frowning.
The room went silence and for once, I can hear the air coming out from the air conditioner. The commotion and the laughing faded.
“What?” I haven’t talked to her for a week because we our past conversation.
“I saw her earlier with a guy.”
I felt my anger rising. I tilted my head to ask him “When?”
“Earlier before I come here. He’s talking to this big guy with specs. He looks genius, by the way.” Sage took out his phone and browse something on it.
He showed me a photo of Paige and the guy, who’s responsible for our fight last week. They are not doing anything. They are sitting and eating without glancing to each other.
“I’m sure it’s just a friendly lunch.” I said as my body went rigid with anger. My hand formed into fist.
I should’ve punched him when he touched my girl.
“Well, maybe. They are talking about I don’t know. There’s something that genius guy said to her and she looked shocked but happy.”
“Ohhhh, maybe he confessed to her?” I heard Psyche’s voice.
I felt a sudden change of emotion. Confessed? What the f**k.
“If you want to prolong your life, better shut the f**k up, Psyche.” My anger is now rising. One more word about that motherfucker I will shoot him in the head so that he cannot talk to my girl anymore.
Psyche raised both of his hands to surrender from my threat.
“You gotta chill man. Maybe it’s was only a lunch date for friends. I didn’t see anything wrong. They are just casually talking.” Sage said.
“They are not talking. He’s been camping in here for the past and I don’t know until when.” Leon spoke after a long minute of silence.
I don’t know what is wrong with me. I haven’t been so possessive with my partners before because I don’t stick with one woman. Every day, different girl.
But for Paige, I’m ready to shoot a friend to stop accusations against her.
I stood up trying to relax because I can sense that I’m about to explode because of this strange feeling.
“Whatever that is, talk to her. You’re woman is gorgeous. Every guy will drool over her. You better put a barricade on what is yours.”
Before I could speak, my phone rang. My heart beats fast when I saw Paige is calling.
I pressed the green button to talk to her.
“Hey.”
“Where are you? My mom! Oh god!” Her voice is trembling. I can hear her sobs. “Come to the hospital, please!”
My flexes kicked in. I immediately grabbed my car keys.
“Sage! Paige’s mom.” I exclaimed.
That’s the only word I can say but he walked after me. Nervousness is covering my whole damn system. I don’t know but I’m scared to death.
I’m scared on what will happen throughout this day.
We arrived at the hospital and Sage rushed to the emergency room. I saw Paige crying while walking back to back. She’s shaking and I can feel she’s scared to death right now.
Without thinking. I ran towards her and hug her as tight as I could. Different emotions are playing in my system right now.
She hugged me back and she continue sobbing in my chest. I didn’t say anything. I just stood their hugging and caressing her back.
“Hey, calm down.” I said after not speaking for so long. I want to make her feel okay.
“I don’t know, Wallace. There’s a chance that she will not survive this attack.”
“Sage and Minrod will do anything they can okay?” I kissed her forehead hoping that gesture can make her at ease for a while.
After a while, the two doctors came out from the emergency room.
From the look of their eyes, the situation is worse that we can imagine. Paige removed both of her hands away from my waist to face the doctors.
“We are not gonna lie. Her state is not good. We need the donors now, Wallace.”
“I’m working on that, Sage.” I said.
“She’s not okay?” We turned our gaze to Paige. Her eyes doesn’t have any emotions in it.
She’s calm and collected. At this point, I don’t know what she’s thinking right now.
Minrod and Sage exchange glances before puffing a loud sigh. They bowed their heads not ready to tell the truth.
“I’m sorry.”
I looked at Sage who’s already looking at me.
“I can’t lie, man. I’m her mom’s doctor.”
“Anyways, we will be putting her to ICU to monitor her condition. She’s sleeping as we speak. For now, you cannot visit her. I’m sorry, Paige.” Sage tapped her shoulder then he left.
“We need the heart now.” That’s the only sentence Minrod said before walking away.
Once again, I heard Paige’s little sobs. I immediately wrapped my arms around her telling her that everything is gonna be okay.
But who am I kidding? Sage and Minrod clearly said that Cecil’s condition is worst.
“I’m sorry.” I mumbled while caressing her. I don’t know what I’m sorry for.
“She can survive that. You see? She’s still alive. We still have time. Just continue searching for the potential donor. She promised me that she will live.”
Paige’s eyes reflected the white light. Her eyes is wet from tears. She’s still beautiful than ever even though she’s crying. But, I cannot explain the pain in my chest when she’s down and sad like this. I feel like, I want to absorb her pain and suffering to make her smile again.
I cleared my throat and I slightly shook my head. Whenever I’m with her, my rational thoughts are going away. When I’m with her, there’s no other important thing in this world than her.
“Will you be okay? I need to make a call from my men to see what is up from the search?”
“Yeah.” I kissed her forehead before I turn my heel to leave her side.
I dialled Damon’s number. I cannot do it myself. I need his connections. Hell! I will ask for my friends connections too. I don’t want to fail Paige.
“Hey? What happened? We are now on our way in the hospital.”
“I need your connections. I’ve sent fifteen men around the world to search for a goddamn heart donor but there’s no update yet.” I am fully aware that I’m panicking right now.
I’ve tried to collect myself. Pushing away all the nervousness inside my system.
“I will help. But Ace, brother, I’m nit promising. We both knew how hard it is to find a heart donor since a lot of people around the world are already on the list but I will try what I can do. Okay?”
“I appreciate that, D. Thanks.”
This is what I love about my friends. They are ready to help each one of us when there’s a dilemma like this. We always have each other’s back.
I dropped the call and I started walking back to Paige. The only person he can rely right now is me. And I insist to be with her until this day worst day is over.
She smiled at me when she noticed my appearance. She held my hand as tight as she wanted.
We sat on the bench outside the ICU. Waiting for Minrod and Sage to tell us what we need to do. We just sat with our intertwined hands watching the walking pass by.
“About the past week.” Paige started. I looked at her waiting for her to speak. “Are you comfortable talking about that?”
Am I? Am I ready to get slap by the truth again? I don’t think so.
Right now, I want enjoy what me and Paige have. I don’t wanna choke myself from the thought that one day, I need to let her go because our deal is done.
I’m confident by the time our deal is finally off, my feelings and obsession towards her will go away too.
“Nope. I’m sorry. That’s immature of me to just walk away while we are in the middle of argument. Sorry.”
I admit that what I did that night is so immature and out of place. I shouldn’t be jealous of those bastards who are touching her because she’s sleeping on my bed and she’s staying at my house. All of her is mine.
“I’m sorry if I offended you.” I put her forehead to mine. I closed my eyes feeling the relaxation of her appearance.
“I missed you.”
“I missed you too. I’m sleeping to my mother’s room because you weren’t there.”
I ghostly smile drawn on my lips. I cannot explain the happiness I’m feeling right now. She just confessed to me that she cannot sleep in our room without me.
She can deny that she is not mine but from that confession, I felt I’m on top of the world. She just admitted that she is mine, in public or in private.
“That’s what Rigo reported to me. And he also told me that you are going to work earlier and you’re coming home late. Are you that busy?”
She nodded. “Yes. Me and Ezekiel need to work hard for the shot Arris gave to us. I don’t wanna disappoint them, Wallace.”
I tried not to roll my eyes when she uttered that bastard’s name. The relaxing feeling I was feeling earlier faded when I heard his name.
Damn.
And speaking of the devil. The Ezekiel guy approached us.
I calmed myself by holding Paige’s hand. Eze-f*****g-Kiel’s eyes landed on out hands. That’s right fucker, she’s taken.
“I heard the news from Crissa so I decided to stop by. Is she okay?”
“Obviously.” I scoffed. Paige’s pinched me on my side secretly giving me warning.
“Her condition is still not clear. By the way, Ez this is my boyfriend, Wallace. And Wallace, this is Ezekiel, my friend.”
Well, at least she introduced me as her boyfriend. This little mongrel can back off.
“Nice to meet you.” Ezekiel offered his hand to me.
I stared at his hand. I frowned. I don’t wanna be rude but I hate him. Even the tapeworms inside my body hate this
“Same.” I shook his for a second then I stepped back because I’m pissed at him.
I rolled my eyes secretly.
They are talking about something not interesting. All I know they are talking about work.
I bit my tongue to keep myself from interrupting their simple talk.
I’m playing with Paige’s hand when my phone rang. I took it our from my pocket and I saw Ken’s name. He is one of my men I sent around the world to search for the potential heart.
I excused myself.
“Ken. What is up?”
“There’s potential donor here in Sicily. I’ve been talking to the donor. I’m so close on closing the deal, boss. I hope it’s not too late.”
I contained myself from jumping in happiness when I heard the news from Ken. At f*****g last!
“Is she healthy?” I need to make sure that the donor’s heart can prolong Cecil’s precious life.
“Yes. Kaiser and I is doing what she need to be healthy. Maybe next week, we can deliver the heart in Rome.”
“Good. Call me for more updates.”
I almost ran back to Paige to deliver the news. Damn! I’m so proud of myself.
“Babe!” I exclamation in excitement.
“What? What happened? Are you okay? Do not make me worry now, Wallace Grant Monzato.”
“Ken called. There’s a potential donor in Sicily. Maybe next week, Sage and Minrod can perform the operation.”
Her eyes widened in shock and happiness. She showed me. She hugged me in excitement mumbling ‘thank you’ in my ear.
“That’s good news!”
“I’m awesome yes?”
She hugged me again.
She looked at me intently. She squeezed both of my hands.
“Tomorrow, I will check if I’m pregnant or not.”
I didn’t say a word. I cannot find the right word to say.
I wanted to say no because the moment she’s pregnant, this magical thing we have will be gone. Our time together will have the limit and I cannot avoid that.
This is harder than I thought. f**k.