We Found Each Other

vines and sharane

It's been like two years since that night and I can't get sharane out my mind. It's like she got a hold on me and I can't shake her. It's crazy how she just disappeared. I keep thinking she is going to pop up, but she never do.

"It's not like I can try to reach out to anyone. From what I remember, we don't have any mutual friends or acquaintances to see if they have any updates on her whereabouts. I don't use social media."

"Don't get me wrong, I'm not sitting around waiting for her. I am a well-known player, the ultimate ladies' man. I have a reputation for charming women into my bed and then quickly moving on to the next one. I see no reason to be tied down to just one woman when there are so many out there to have a good time with. I'm the type to sleep with them and then leave. I have no interest in forming any emotional connections, no desire for anything more than physical pleasure. Love is just a four-letter word that has no place in my life. You can't trust these women as far as you can throw them."

I'm about my money and growing my empire. Investing in the right companies. Trying to get my own business up and running. I'm not trying to be a street ninja forever. These streets got love for no one. If you not careful it will bring you down and keep you there. A lot of ninjas start using their own products. A lot of good ninjas die in these streets. You know what they say , the good die young. A lot of ninjas end up in jail. Only a selected few get out and stay out. The one thing I can say about my long time rivals is they taught me something. These streets ain't forever. Do what you can to get out. That's what I'm doing. In a way you can say I got respect for them. They are at the point that they don't even have to be in the streets. They could hang they hat up and be done. I know this because you got to know your enemy and all that s**t. I'm not to that point but I'm close to it. s**t between me and them is always going to be shoot on sight. It's to much blood In the water for us to ever be more than enemies. We don't cross paths unless we have to.

Sharane

Nine months later

I look into my princess's eyes for the first time. The only things I can think is, I will always protect you. I won't let this world take your innocence. You're going to do and be better than all of us.

My brothers came to Florida for three months when I had my princess. They chilled out and helped with my daughter. You would think she was theirs the way they came running every time she cried. That girl had them wrapped around her finger. It was so cute. I didn't mind. I got some rest. I enjoyed spending time with my brothers. In their line of business, they couldn't stay too long. They were here longer than I thought they would be, but I knew it wasn't going to last forever. They had to head back to Connecticut. It was nice while it lasted.

It's crazy how you have your whole life planned out. All it takes is one wrong decision and everything changes. I can't even say it was wrong. I don't regret it. I wish I was smarter about it. Then if I was, I wouldn't have my princess. I can't see life without her. It was hard at first finding out I was pregnant. I was scared about telling my brothers. They were mad at first, but they got over it. They wanted to know who the father was. I was going to tell them, but then I found out who Vines really was. I Asked my crew in Connecticut about Vines. My girls knows everything. They get into a little bit of everything. My girls are crazy, but you have to love them. After finding out about who Vines was I knew I was going to have to take my secret to the grave. My brothers would never forgive me if they knew. He is their biggest rival. I went and had a relationship with him. Not just a relationship, but got pregnant. The only thing I could do was keep it to myself.

I haven't seen him since that night. To be expected. I don't live with my brothers. I was there visiting for my birthday. I feel bad because a part of me wants to tell Vines. A part of me doesn't. I don't want my child in any of that s**t. What he doesn't know won't hurt him, right? I know, it's messed up on my part. Every child needs their dad. At this point, I don't know if I'm doing it for her or more for me. I guess to make me feel better, I say both.

I did my first year of college online because I was pregnant, and it's looking like I'm going to be doing my second year of college online. My mom is on some other stuff, talking about that's not my baby. You need to find a way. I get where she's coming from. She raised five kids on her own after my father got killed. It's not like she had a choice. My dad got killed when I was one year old. It's just been us since. He was the love of her life. Losing him left a big hole in her heart. They were together since she was 14 years old. My pops was 17. They didn't waste any time when it came to having kids. They had my four older brothers, then waited 10 years before having me. My dad was already a big figure in the streets even at 17. He was intelligent in the streets and in the books. He gave my mom everything she ever wanted and needed. She was his world. I really do hope she finds love again. Losing him hurt her so bad she couldn't even stay in Connecticut. That's how we ended up in Florida. My brothers stayed. She couldn't make them come with her even if she wanted to. The streets had a hold on them. There was no pulling them away.

The only reason she didn't kick me out when I told her I was pregnant is that she knew my brothers would stop helping her pay for everything. Don't get me wrong my father left her money, but don't ask me what she did with it. After having my princess and dealing with her for the last six months, I'm at the point where I'm thinking of just getting my own place. I don't need to hear her mouth all the time. I don't want my daughter to be taking in all that negative energy. My brothers keep telling me to move in with them so they can help me. The only thing keeping me from doing that is I'm scared my secret will come out. So I'm keeping my fast self out of Connecticut and in Florida. I'm not about that life anyway. Don't get me wrong, I can fight. I just feel, why should I have to? Why put myself in the hood when I have something good here?