We Found Each Other

didn't see this coming

When I saw her at the park, I couldn't believe my eyes. I had to stop. I just had to talk to her. After almost two years, there she was, hanging out with all those East Side bitches, with all their kids. Those bitches have a lot of kids. But even in that setting, she looked better than ever. I couldn't resist the urge to talk to her. Memories of our past flooded my mind, and I couldn't help but think about making her mine this time. I was determined not to let her slip away again.

Her presence at the park made me realize how much I had missed her and how much I still wanted her. I knew that this time, I had to make my move and not let anything or anyone come between us. As I approached her, my heart raced with excitement and anticipation, hoping that she would give me another chance to make things right between us.

I never thought I would be in this situation, but here I am, holding my head and looking at her sitting on my couch holding our daughter. It's a surreal feeling, seeing her again after all these years and now having a child together. It's a messed-up situation, but she says it's true. I want to believe her, but I know I have to protect myself. So I tell her that we'll need a DNA test to confirm the paternity. She doesn't argue or get defensive, just calmly agrees.

At first, I was worried about how she would react. I thought she would be furious, but to my surprise, she looked scared. I could understand her fear, but I would never do anything to harm her. After all, she is the mother of my precious daughter, and I could never forgive myself if I ever caused her any pain. It's still hard for me to believe that I have a daughter. I never imagined myself as a father, and now here I am with this beautiful little girl. It's overwhelming, and I can't even begin to think about all the other things that come with being a parent.

I'm not even trying to worry about all that extra stuff with who her brothers are. I'll think about that later. How did I end up in this situation? I know how. Letting my desires cloud my judgment. She was irresistible. I mean, the intimacy was good. I wouldn't mind being with her again, but now is not the time for those thoughts. I need to focus. I have to get my mind back on track and off all those desires. I can't think like that, not right now. I have to think about what is best for my daughter. I have to put all the other distractions aside. I never thought I would have kids. It's a big responsibility. I know my mom is going to be happy. She has been asking me when I'm going to give her a grandchild.

That's when Sharane looks at me and asks, "What are you thinking about?"

I look at her and say, "What are we going to do?"

She responds, "Whatever is best for Princess."

So, I ask her if her brothers know. She says no, they don't know. She thought it best for me to know first since I am Princess's father. But she will be telling them once she gets home. Now that I know, there is no point in keeping it from my brothers anymore.

I ask her if she is staying with them and why she doesn't have her own place.

"Yes, I am staying with my brothers. There is no need to be on my own when they are willing to help. I kind of need all the help I can get, especially with me being in school."

I suggest that they can stay here if they want. She is my responsibility too.

If I'm honest with myself, I'm grateful for this second chance, even though my pride won't let me say it out loud. I can't help but think to myself, I'm not going to let her go again. She's mine, and I'll do whatever it takes to make sure she knows that.

Sharane tells me that they are her brothers, and yes, they will be mad, but they love me and Princess. I hope we can all find a way that is best for Princess. I have no delusion that you and I will be together. I just want you to be in your daughter's life. Is that too much to ask? You don't have to worry about giving me money for her. My brothers provide for both of us. So please don't ever try to pull that with me again. Even if they stop providing for us, I have my own money. My father left me a healthy amount of money.

The only thing I could do at this point was to thank Sharane. I wanted to let her know that I understood that she may have had her reasons for not wanting me in her daughter's life, but I appreciated her changing her mind. I wanted to be a part of my daughter's life and be the best father I could be. Let's put our differences aside and focus on what's best for Princess. Thank you for giving me the chance to be a father to our daughter. I know the life I lead isn't the safest, and to be honest, if I were her, I wouldn't want me around. But it's time for a change. I promise to do everything I can to be a positive influence in her life and to ensure that she is always safe and loved. Thank you for giving me this opportunity, and I hope we can work together to give Princess the happy and healthy life she deserves. Thank you, Sharane.