Sensual Encounter: JJK

(R)emembrance

Rejuvenating, that was the word that came into your mind after finishing a thorough warm bath, you exited the bathroom and still found Jungkook laying on the bed sleeping.

Ring--ring--ring.

You slightly heard the faint sound of your ringtone inside your closed bag. Sitting on the bed you reached for your bag and fished your cellphone out.

14 missed calls from Taehyung.

Your gaze immediately landed on the man sleeping beside you. Heart ramming inside your chest so violently you can almost feel your lungs running out of oxygen, the last time Taehyung called this much, nothing good happened.

Fingers shaking as you tried to dial Taehyung’s number on your phone, and you gasped seeing your friend’s caller ID flashed in front of you before you could even call him.

“Tae?”

“Bring him to the hospital right now,” Taehyung said in a rush.

“I don’t und--.”

“I have the results of his tests yesterday,” although he tried to hide it, you could still make out the trembling on his voice, as if he was trying to keep himself from crying.

“Baby,” you woke Jungkook up gently and he groaned shifting slightly, “we need to go back to the hospital.”

“Huh?” Jungkook suddenly opened his eyes, and maybe it was because of the blinding lighting of the room but his vision had this patches of black-static thing on it.

He kept on rubbing his eyes while you both sat at the back seat of the cab, you held tightly on his arm asking him with concern, “is there something on your eyes?”

“My vision suddenly got blurry,” he explained, “and what is that sharp ringing sound I kept hearing?”

You bit on your lower lip as you shove all the negative thoughts in your head, trying to focused on just getting him into the hospital.

“Thank you,” you said to the cab driver as you both reached your destination.

Please don’t make him be sick again, please, please, please.

You kept repeating those words on your head like a prayer.

He can’t be sick, he was just fine after the therapy, he should be well, but the fact that he was starting to have blurred visions and difficulty hearing again made you felt weak and nauseous, you just don’t know what to think anymore.

You called out for Taehyung as you saw him talking to the doctor by the nurses’ station, his back was on you.

He tilted his head showing his puffy eyes and Jungkook didn’t had the chance to see the broken state of his best friend for he was already groaning in pain beside you.

“Ugh, my head Y/N!” He grunted, “it hurts!” He couldn’t go on as you both landed on the cold floor, Taehyung and the doctor rushed towards you both and the nurses immediately placed Jungkook on the stretcher and hurriedly brought him inside the emergency room.

With furrowed eyes you turned to Taehyung, confused and scared at the same time.

“What is happening Tae,” you asked.

The guy beside you sighed so deep and you saw a tear fell on his eyes.

“The tumor,” he started, “there was a newly form one on his head, a much bigger and malignant one.”

A loud gasped escape your dry throat that you had to cover your mouth with your hand just so you won’t attract too much attention,-- but you can already feel your knees trembling, and your whole body going numb and before you even know it you were laying on the tiled floor of the hospital, consciousness had already left you.

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The light blinded you and you squinted your eyes just so they could adjust to the brightness of the room, a sudden feeling of nauseousness struck you and you hurriedly stumbled your way towards the bathroom. Eyes filled with tears as you let it all go, and you felt drained after, panting and shaking at the same time while you held onto the sink’s counter.

“Y/N?” Taehyung’s voice echoed from outside.

“I’m in here.”

“You okay?” He asked patting your back.

“Where is he?”

“Private room, they’re making him ready for the operation.”

“But I thought he can’t go through an operation.”

“We have no choice Y/N.”

“What about the radiotherapy? It didn’t work?” You asked sitting on the bed, you felt tired already.

“It worked, but just as what the doctor had said, it’ll only remove the tumor that was on its way,” he explained, “they didn’t saw the new tumor on the other side of his head, a much active one which they said that won’t be remove easily by a mere laser.”

“Let me see him then.”

“You need to rest Y/N,” Taehyung commanded.

“I’ve rested, now I want to see him Taehyung,” you stood up, legs a bit wobbly but you still managed to held your ground. “Please!”

Taehyung bit his lip, you needed rest especially now with your condition. But he can’t let the two of you be apart, he doesn’t want that,-- he had no choice, so he assisted you and you both went to Jungkook’s room.

“Jungkook,” Taehyung called as you both entered the room.

He looked towards you both and you smiled lovingly at him, you miss him already, you honestly can’t be apart from him. The pain on your chest still won’t go away though, seeing him in this situation once again, back to that small hospital bed with those needles struck on his purple veins, his silky white skin turning almost red from the pressure of the needles on his arm that obviously would hurt even by small movements,-- it’s all too much, all too unfair for him.

You saw him looked at you with questionable eyes then he turned his gaze to Taehyung.

“Is she your girlfriend hyung?” He asked.

And your mouth just fell open, you couldn’t find any words to say and your throat seemed to be too dry to speak too. Tears just pooled on your eyes in no time,-- was he joking? Was he fooling around? Because if he does, it isn’t funny at all. You shove Taehyung’s hands off you and walked your way towards your boyfriend fast.

“Jungkook! Stop joking, it isn’t funny,” you said a bit too loud.

“Hyung! What is she saying?” Jungkook turned to Taehyung once again and the guy already made his way across the room and then beside you.

“Jungk--,” Taehyung started.

“I’m sorry but I don’t know you miss,” your man immediately said.

You bit your lower lip until you think, you could almost taste blood on it, calling for his name faintly, you reached for his hand gripping on it like there’s no tomorrow, but he was quick to pulled it out of your hold.

“Jungkook--.”

“What the f*ck is wrong with you?” He looked disgusted and annoyed and it breaks you too much you couldn’t stop yourself from sobbing so hard. How could he forget about you? How could he not remember his promise to you that he will love you forever?

His vow to you echoed inside your head which only made your heart hurt even more.

“I promise that I will love you forever, and that even though I might get sick and tell you to go away or yell at you, please don’t get mad, know that it’s just my illness taking over me, that in reality, in my heart I would still want you to take care of me, to be by my side and not leave me alone. And there might come to a time when I won’t be able to recognize you, maybe because my vision got blurry or my memory got bad, but Y/N please be reminded that even if the mind forgets, the heart still remembers. And no matter what happens, my heart will always and forever belongs to you.”

You looked down, staring at your tears falling one by one on the white covers of his bed, voice almost inaudible but you know he could hear you or at least feel your heart breaking inside.

“I’m your girlfriend Jungkook, we even had this silly wedding ceremony with Taehyung,” you paused to look at him trying to smile but your lips quivered, and your hands trembled as you reached once again on his, “baby please try to remember.”

He couldn’t helped but to look at your eyes full of tears, they were beautiful, but it somewhat hurt him seeing you cry like that, and he don’t know why he was feeling this way. Your touch on his hand seemed familiar too and he wanted to know why,-- why it hurt so much to see your sad face looking back at him, why your touch sent electricity to his whole body, and why does your voice soothes him in explainable way somehow,-- but he can’t remember you and it makes him so confused and angry and frustrated all at the same time, it almost hurt, or was he really hurting? He could already feel the hot liquid trailing down his cheeks from his lids as he tried to focus trying his best to remember, but his head was starting to hurt again, like it was being squeezed so hard that it’ll explode any second, he screamed shutting his eyes tight, hands on his head and you called for Taehyung who was already screaming outside calling for a doctor, or a nurse or anyone.

You leaned closer to him, holding his shoulders to calm him down but he shoved you off with so much force his hand unintentionally slammed on your left cheek, tears from your eyes flew on mid air as you felt your face burned.

“Ugh!!! Go away!” He screamed, as he opened his eyes, hot tears poured from them while he reached blindly on his surroundings, he got a hold of your arm and you felt his strong clutch on you it almost hurt but you didn’t mind. “Did you turned off the lights? I can’t see!”

“TAEHYUNG!!!!!!!” you wailed with all your might turning behind you to see where did the guy went, and what was taking him so f*cking long.

“Help me, I can’t see,” Jungkook sobbed pulling on your shirt, his voice soften like he was tired and helpless which broke your heart into a millions, you shut your eyes, feeling his trembling body against yours, he was so scared and you were useless around him, you can’t do anything to make him better, you can’t even make him remember you. But you have to stay strong for him, so you hugged Jungkook burying him on your chest as you kissed his fluffy hair making him feel your love for him.

“I’m here, I won’t leave you like I promised,” you whispered.

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The loud bang echoed on the hallway as the door to the operating room closes.

“Y/N,” you heard Taehyung’s soft voice as he hugged your frame close to him while you sobbed silently.

“I can’t live without him,” you said in a low voice, but Taehyung heard you clearly, and he couldn’t stop the tears on his eyes as they made their way down to his chin already. “Please, God, make him live.”

He hugged you tighter, “Y/N, please you also need to rest,” he said, concern could be heard from his voice, but he sounded absurd to you, how could you even rest when the person that matters to you the most was right there in that room fighting for his own life?

You pushed Taehyung away from you, eyes glaring at him, “how the hell would I do that? Huh?” You asked him, voice trembling, eyes flooding with tears. “Jungkook is in there, between life and death, and you just want me to lay on a hospital bed? How could you even-- what kind of a friend are you?”

He was hurt, how could you ask that to him, him-- the guy who spent almost his whole life together with Jungkook, who knows his favorite color, his favorite pokemon character, his favorite song to sing. Him-- who treated Jungkook like a real little brother that he had to take care of, that he has a responsibility to. He hated himself alright, he couldn’t do anything to protect his brother, to make the pain stop, and to see his smiling face once again, he remembered them running around the playground as little kids, not minding the world around them, he wish that they could go back to that time, when he was still healthy and free from pain. But Taehyung would even hate himself if he’d let the only precious thing he has on you to go to waste, he won’t be able to forgive himself if ever.

“I’m his best friend Y/N! And even if we stand here all day long, we won’t be able to do anything!”

You scoffed at him, “f*ck you!”

“Y/N, you don’t understand--, I just want to protect you both!” He didn’t want to tell you yet, not in this situation, not when Jungkook’s not around to hear it as well, but you were already walking away from him, going to God-knows-where, so he stride his way following you until he was close enough to reach for your wrist and turn you around.

“What is wrong with you?!” You hissed at him, some of the few people on the hallway were already looking at the both of you.

His face softened along with his grip on you, but his eyes held yours as the words almost left his lips but the doctor called on the both of you.

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Your image.

Your beautiful image, with strands of your hair flying due to the cold breeze of the night, the white colored floral wreath placed perfectly on the crown of your head making you look like a Goddess to him.

“Y/N,” Jungkook called out for you, and you turned to him, eyes twinkling just like the midnight sky.

He missed you, how could he forgot about you, how could his mind erased your precious memory on him? The white dress you were wearing danced along with the wind as you turned your back on him, he extended his hand towards you, crying for your name with all his might.

“Please don’t leave me!”

And you hold his hand, hugging it on your body as you sat beside his bed, “I’m here Jungkook, I won’t leave you.”

“We’re sorry,” the voice of the doctor replayed on your head.

Your familiar voice ringed on Jungkook ears, and he prayed so hard that even just for once, the greater power would let him see your beautiful face. He slowly opened his lids and he saw you in front of him, he mouthed your name silently and you hugged him so tightly.

“Thank you for remembering me,” you whispered on him and he wanted to hug you, to wrap his arms around you so tight until you’d complain that you couldn’t breathe, but he was numb, he couldn’t feel some parts of his body including his arms which he so wanted to move so he could hug you back but he just couldn’t.

“I--i l-love-e you,” he mumbled, stuttering at the words, trying his best to say them with difficulty. You cupped his face looking straight at his dark brown orbs, the eyes full of stars you swore you could see the galaxies on them, the eyes that you will never forget, the eyes of the man that made you fall in love for the first time over and over again.

“I know,” you mumbled, assuring him that you understood what he just said.

He squinted his eyes, your image before him was turning into a blur again, “Y/N...,” he called your name feebly and you knew he couldn’t see you again. “My head,” he said as you hugged his frame, he couldn’t bare the pain anymore, gripping on your shirt he closed his eyes, just so he could feel your body close to him, knowing that you’re still beside him. He was afraid, so afraid to go away, but he was glad, glad that he has been able to meet you, glad to be a part of your life even just for a short period of time. He wish that he could stay much longer, to see you grow old with him, to be able to hold your wrinkled hands against his while you both watch your grandchildren running around the house, he’d pictured it for so many times on his head already and it always gave him a sense of happiness and tranquility. You can feel his breathing getting ragged while his hold on you was getting tighter. It hurt you so damn much as if your whole being was being pricked by these needles, millions of them striking you all at the same time, you can almost feel him struggling to keep his breathing even but he couldn’t, his lungs was running out and you can’t bare it anymore, you can’t see him like this no more, so you shut your eyes, inhaling deeply, feeling the heart inside you almost burst out of your chest, feeling the heart inside you scattered into pieces as you murmured to him, “it’s okay baby, you can let go now if you want to.”

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Hey, how’s my ever so wonderful wife?

Are you doing fine? :)

Just so you know, you look so alluring sleeping beside me right now babe, and I couldn’t helped but to stole a kiss from your red lips so forgive me for that.

I always try to stare at you whenever I had the chance so I could memorize your beautiful face in my head if ever I’d lost my vision.

Y/N, I’d be lying if I’ll say that I’m not afraid, but you see, I’m more frightened at the thought of not being with you, to not be able to see or touch, or hug, or kiss you. But then I realized, maybe it’s the universe’s way of showing us that true love is unbreakable, that even with all these trials, we could still be together if we truly love each other.

I don’t know what will happen in the next few hours, or the next few days, or months or years, but all I know is that I’d like to spent every single second of my life with you. But you see, I’m a bit sick, and I don’t know how much time would be given to me.

Maybe by the time you’re reading this, I’m already gone,-- that’s why I’m writing this letter for you so when you suddenly misses me you could always read this and be reminded that even if you can’t see me physically, I’ll always be watching over you from up there in the clouds.

I’m sorry that I had to leave first, I guess it was inevitable. But please stay strong for the other people that matters to us, for our families and friends, please make them an inspiration to move forward.

Don’t worry baby, I’ll wait for you here, even if it’ll take decades for you to be right back in my arms again, I’ll wait for you. And once we’re together again, we could talk, and hug, and kiss like the old times, you would tell me your life’s journey and I would be in awe to hear all of it.

Know that my love for you is undying, and that it’ll last forever, until end of time.

’Till we meet again my love.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

I love you forever,

Without any due.

-JJK

Hot tears voluntarily fell down from your eyes while you placed the handwritten letter beside the vase full of yellow tulips on the table, no matter how many times you’d read it, you still couldn’t stop tears from pooling from your lids. You miss him so much, his touch, his hugs, his kisses, but you were happy and contented because you know deep inside you that you have been able to make him feel and see your unconditional love for him through the span that you were together. There were still times when you lay on your bed at night and you would feel his familiar warmth around you or his faint scent running on your nostrils-- and those nights were the nights that you would have the best and deepest sleep.

The little fingers of the boy on your lap glided on your face as if trying to wipe the tears that trailed down your cheeks. You smiled fondly at him and his beautiful eyes twinkled as they looked at you, smiling back as well as he showed his cute little bunny teeth. He’s beautiful like his father, he has his dark brown eyes that’d let you see the galaxies on them, he has his perfectly shaped lips, as red as roses against the white colored snow, he reminded you so much of him and you couldn’t thank Jungkook enough for giving you the most precious gift anyone could have ever present to you.

“I love you baby Kookie,” you whispered to your son as you kissed his rosy red cheeks.

“Y/N! The kids are waiting for you to play the piano for them,” your friend, Taehyung called out from the door as you smiled at him and you slowly entered the piano hall of the orphanage.

끝

FIN

“SENSORY LOVER:

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A/N

This is the end of ’SENSORY LOVER (Sensual Encounter)’, thank you for reading until now. I’ve shed a lot of tears while writing this. I hope this story touched you guys in so many ways. Also, this is my way of reminding you to cherish your loves ones, life is unpredictable, so it is best to make them feel your love towards them so you won’t be able to have regrets on the future.

~If you'll look at the first letter of the chapters' titles and the first letter of the beginning sentence of each chapters (excluding Chap 1) you would be able to spell out:

SENSORY LOVER