Chapter 9: Just Save My Baby PT 1
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Brittany’s POV:
I haven’t shifted since I found out I was pregnant. I didn’t want the baby to get hurt. Teresa assured me that wouldn’t happen, but I just had a bad feeling. Since, I haven’t let Rose run she doesn’t talk to me much and stays at the back of my mind. I can sense her there, but she never seems to talk with Cain either.
Andrew is here and he is trying to talk to me. I know he knows something is up, but I just have to pretend like everything is fine. He always leaves me alone, letting things go back to normal. Or at least our normal. Why do I get the feeling he isn’t going to drop this? He is being super persistent even though I said I wanted to be left alone and have rolled over.
“Do you regret being with me?” With that simple question my breath catches, and I am instantly afraid. I know he will see it, but I cannot hide it anymore. I am sure he has noticed my apprehension. He knows I am second guessing my choices. I don’t fit into this life. They are so aggressive and that just isn’t me. I have to retreat completely when I let Rose run because the feeling of being in her mind at the same time disturbs me.
I have to try to save this. I don’t want to break his heart. Nevertheless, he needs to know how I feel. I tell him and his response shocks me. He is defending himself and the pack, not seeing it from my side. He doesn’t see the pack members staring. I have never really adjusted well to pack life. My pack duties don’t come naturally to me and when people around, I feel like it is forced because they don’t want to upset me.
His next words strike a nerve and the anger starts to seethe of the edge of my emotions. I don’t get angry often because I try to control it. However, he just said everything I am feeling is my fault because I basically don’t try hard enough. I am up in an instant, “Are you saying this is my fault?”
His reply just makes me sad and I wish I could make him see. I have to leave before I say something I completely regret. “It doesn’t feel like that.” I walk to the door and slam it behind me. He has never said anything to me like that. He isn’t stupid, Britt. What do you want Rose? You are pushing our mate away as well as me. We are paired together and when you give up, it doesn’t bode well for me. I am not giving up. No, you aren’t. You already have.
With that, she cuts off the communication and recedes back further than she was. I haven’t given up. I am just tired of living a life I don’t belong in. Most humans transition into the pack fairly easily, but I was dragged here against my will. I basically had everything shoved down my throat in that first night of meeting Andrew. He apologized after he got his sense back and courted me like he should have in the beginning, but it had already left a bad taste in my mouth.
The mate pull is what finally had me agreeing to accept him as my mate and join the pack. I didn’t want to. I was terrified and when Rose first spoke to me, it felt foreign. I never have grown accustom to it and it still feels like I have someone listening in on my thoughts constantly. I am taking the first step on the flight of stairs that will take me to the second floor, when the baby kicks me hard.
My foot doesn’t hit the stair the way I meant for it and then I know I am screwed. I start to tumble down the stairs. I hit my head and my vision goes in and out of focus as I continue to tumble down the stairs. I feel liquid start to soak my underwear and the last thought I have is for our baby. No, please be okay, little one.
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I wake up to the sound of roaring water. I have water on my face and my hair is slightly damp. What the hell is going on? The last thing I remember… was falling down the stairs. I grab my stomach and there is nothing there. My baby… where is it?
“Child calm down. You are in my grove. I am the Mood Goddess, Lena.”
I rise to a sitting position looking around. The first thing I notice is the source of the roaring water. There is a breathtaking waterfall just a few feet from me. I am right on the shore of the pond it flows into. I cannot help but think where in the hell the voice is coming from? Nor where I am at… am I dead?
A beautiful woman steps out from a break in the waterfall. She is followed by a large wolf that is pure white. I have never seen a pure white wolf. Especially not one with the blazing blue eyes that are staring at me. The woman has the same shade of hair and it flows down to her feet. She has the same bright blue eyes as the wolf behind her.
“You are not dead, yet.”
Those words hit me like no other words have. Yet. What do you mean by yet? My baby isn’t ready to be born yet.
She steps off of the last rock in the pond and walks over to me. She places her hand on either side of me and kisses my forehead. I feel a rush of serenity flow through me and my muscles loosen as I am able to calm down.
“As I am sure you remember, you fell down the stairs. You have a broken ankle, arm, a few ribs, and your baby is struggling to breathe. You landed quite a few times on your stomach. Deep breaths and listen.”
“I cannot breathe right now. My own inability to accept my fate has put me in this situation. My baby is suffering because I couldn’t try harder.”
“While I cannot deny what you are saying, I knew this was going to be a hard choice for you to make. While Andrew is your fated mate, you still have free will in deciding to accept him or reject him. You accepted him, but never fully.”
“It was the mate bond.”
“It wasn’t the mate bond. You fell in love with Andrew. Take a second to think about it. How did he treat you compared to exes in the past? Forgetting the initial meeting and how you found out about your new world, but after when he was proving his love for you. He loves you so deeply. Your next choice is going to change his life forever.”
What does she mean my next choice? How can I choose what happens next.
“You have two choices to make. Your first option is to save yourself. In saving yourself, you baby will die.”
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