Grey POV
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I open my room door
All my toys which I used when I was a kid , the letters my mom used to write for me
The emails she used to send me
Our pictures together
Everything, which made us
All piled up in a box , as it lays down under my bed
I push the box beneath so I will never see that again
I don't want to see those again
It reminds me of her and the fact that she's never coming back
And the fact that I wasn't there for her, while she was dying , is something I'm still trying to process inside me
She could have told me , what she was going through
Cancer was not something you hide from one person , especially when that person is your only son.
I throw my bags , as I dig for my stuff
A wave of anger , anxiety striking inside me
Building a rage inside me , that needs to calm
I finally find it , next to my school transfer papers
Fuck it
I tear open the packet and sniff the powder , my hands shaking
The crack gets my brain kick started
I fall down on my knees as I stare at the mirror in front of me
"I don't even know you "
I throw my phone across the mirror
The glass breaks and my phone hits the ground , breaking into two pieces
My heart rate , increases as I stare at the broken pieces
I need to get out of here
Yeah
I open my window , to see if anyone's there around
But my blurred vision , makes it difficult for me to judge
I jump off my window and take the support of the tree next to my room to reach the ground
I start my car and I drive off before my great father realizes that I'm not at home and I'm on drugs
I don't know , how long I'm driving or where I am going
The car honks behind me , driving me crazy
"f**k off , b***h " I scream at the women whose trying to honk
I know , I'm on the wrong side of the road
But i don't care
I need a drink
I pull up in front of a shitty bar
I almost , stumble on my feet as I get down from the car
Great , I'm f*****g high
AMD everything around me looks like a maze the circles surrounding me , trapping me inside
"Can I have a shot " I put the money on the table as I slam my hands against the bar counter
"A shot coming right up " I look up to the waitress who smiles at me
"Grey ?"i turn around as I hear my name
"I knew. It was you
I heard , that you were back home
It's been two years
Since I last saw you " I stare at the women , working in the bar I guess she's wearing a uniform
But her face looks kind of blur
"You don't recognize me ?" She scoffs as she crosses her arms
Making her chest rise in the tight shirt , she's wearing
"Did we date anytime back ?" I ask her , as they serve my drink
She let's out a small laugh
"No we didn't
Shelly Andrew , Remember? "
It takes me a minute to grasp the name falling from her mouth
Andrew?
I remember , she was our neighbor
But shifted like years ago
But she's a friend
Who I don't remember, obviously
"Yes
The neighbor " I gulp down the drink
"Keep it coming, sugar " I wave at the waitress whose happy to be referred as sugar by me
She looks fine though , Shelley Andrew
"Lizzie , he's still in school
Your not suppose to serve drink for underage guys " Shelley takes the drink on the counter as she eyes at the waitress , Lizzie
"Are you my mom ?
Fuck off
Give my drink " I snap it from her hands
"Okay Big mouth , I don't know how John left you in
But I guess you already had too much to drink
That's enough, you need to get to home "
I laugh at her words
She's hilarious
"Wait , Grey .
You are stoned .
Did you take drugs ?" She asks me , as she holds me by my shoulder
"You want to f**k ?" I ask her
Sometimes people care about you because they want something in return
But Shelley , just laughs like I cracked a joke
"I will f**k you " I look up to Lizzie
Who gives me a wink
"Great "I get down from the bar stool
But my leg hits to the counter and I hump on my first step
"Grey
Let me drive you home
Lizzie , can you cover for me
Till I'm back ?
I promise , I'll be back soon " Shelley , takes my arm putting around her shoulder as she helps me to stand
"Lizzie, come on
Atleast give me a blow
I got money " I shout ad Shelley drags me through the crowd
"I'll do it free for you, Babe " Lizzie shouts back
"Okay , put the seat belt on "
I stare at Shelley , what the hell is she talking about?
Wait , I need a drink
"Grey. Nah
Your ain't going back
Come on
I'm driving you home " she puts my seat belt on
As she walks over towards the driving seat
My head's start to ache as the cold air hits me
Fuck
I need some crack too
"Do you have …
Huh have some crack ?"I ask her , my voice strained
Trying to cover my face from all the air hitting me
"No , I don't
And first of all the windows are closed
I don't see any threat to you
And secondly, your f*****g high Grey
I didn't even start the car
We are still in the parking lot
Waiting for the car behind us to move
What happened?
You look like a mess "
I stare at the car glasses in front of me
Are they close ?
How high am I?
"Shelley , you left your phone " Lizzie comes running towards the car
As they clear the cars behind us , so we can move
"By the way , how do you know such a hottie ?" Shelley just rolls her eyes at Lizzie
"Tell me , who is he " Lizzie asks again
As shelley walks over , starting the car
"He ?
He's the Principal's Son"