Luna of the Golden Moon

The Pink dress

I listened patiently to the crying woman, I empathized so much, suffered with her as we sat in the now decorated part of the alpha office which was my side, me and Caleb ruled together.

In our own different ways and we shared the same office where Terrence had died, with his side unchanged with the leather armchair and desk and I who had I held her hand and poured her over with my feelings, influenced her own, my gift as luna, to comfort and influenced with my feelings when she already looked like she had found a little more acceptance that her mother's death, even though we lived longer, much longer than humans, it was inevitable for us too, if you were a warrior it was usually quick and brutal, the woman's mother had died of old age and I pushed that it was the best death, old and surrounded by her children.

“I announce to Delta Vivian to help with the funeral.” I said it warmly when she thanked me again and I smiled genuinely at the older woman, she was probably over forty years old and I was soon nineteen but still it was me who comforted as a mother did with her children, because they were my responsibility, my pack.

“thank you again Luna Emilia, I wish you and alpha a long life and a healthy child.” she said it with genuine gratitude in her voice when she looked at me one last time and closed the door behind her as I leaned back in the armchair I had, it was pink and almost like a small sofa when I lay to the side and put my legs up and closing my eyes, I was tired, so tired nowadays, even though I would complain to one of the pack members, it was more tiring with everything when I was heavily pregnant.

I was only in the fifth month, but werewolves had a shorter pregnancy, I only had two months left before we would see our baby and I happily stroked my hand over the swollen belly where our baby was, we did not know the gender, I did not want to know if I would be honest.

I knew the pack was hoping for a boy for it would secure the legacy, the bloodline, their leaders and protection in the future, but we could get a girl just as well, Caleb was on the same track, but he talked about that there were more opportunities to get a boy of course…. his s*x drive was even more active since we became the leaders, something with his alpha genes being even worse now and wanting to produce offspring, it sounded silly but true at the same time.

“Luna Emilia.” I looked up and smiled at Delta Vivian, she looked at me with her neutral face, but I felt her feelings now, she was happy to see me, as always, she liked me and honestly, I had not understood it before I became the real Luna, she was glad I was soothing to Caleb, that he was not allowed to do as he pleased like Terrence had done.

There was another reason why there was a Luna, she was the one who alpha's counterpart, he was the hard wall, the one who protected everyone and the luna the soft embrace who would be the one who calmed, and Terrence had become terrible without his Luna who was comforting, supportive, and it would not have mattered if he married twice after that, you had one mate, one Luna and no one else, which had led to too much of the hard wall and no one who caught up neither he nor the pack when they needed it, they needed me.

I was sure that was why Terrence had been different before the end against me, he had already felt it…. proved his true self before Caleb had killed him, and surely why he had let him do so without fighting back.

“Make sure Delta Clara gets help with her mother's funeral.” I smiled weakly as she nodded as she had understood and had already started giving out orders and instructions to those below her and I just looked at her neutral face, she was around eighty years, probably older but she looked younger, an advantage of being a wolf, we aged slowly and looked younger, I was not even sure if Delta Vivian was a hundred years old, nothing would surprise me.

She looked at me now when she was done and I smiled leaned back and looked at her, she disliked that I was so relaxed in front of others, she liked more when you stuck to who you were born too be, I was not the strict Luna she had hoped for but I knew she still liked me where I lay in my light pink summer dress with my hair floating around and made me look even younger than I was with my pregnant belly and smiled big at her irritation that I had talked all morning with different members, she thought it was probably now and I nodded, it was probably now. For a while.

“Okay, I'm coming.” I only said that when she nodded and went her way happy to give with me and I lay for a little while longer staring at the courtyard which was full of grass and flowers in different colors and shapes, another of my changes, I had made sure there was color everywhere, made sure you got rid of the all-black clothes that made alpha and beta look like it was always a funeral procession, I had lost count of how many women and a couple of men had thanked me for it specific words that had existed since my mother's father had been alpha .

I got up slowly, I got a little dizzy when I stood up and held myself in the armchair for a while, it would have been stupid to lie down on my back, it stopped the blood all the way up to my head now that I had the weight of the baby on me, I smiled and held my hand over my belly and laughed to myself, I had been so scared of this, but now it felt like I had never wanted anything else and I longed to hold my baby in my arms.

I walked slowly out the door in my sandals and already knew that Mark and Tony were outside the door, they were always there, always by my side when Caleb was gone, I thought they should be by his side when he was out, needed to be protected more than me who was in the wooden palace but Caleb had refused because I had no beta of their own so they had to be with me, and they were serious, not at all like Kyle been, they were young like Caleb but they were driven by duty , knew there places as a warriors.

Not like my so-called brother who had just been waiting to come to power… I sighed and nodded to them as they immediately followed me without even saying anything and I walked slowly with the two big warriors who shadowed me through the large hall down to the dining room and I sat down in front of the set table, there was everything possible on it, but I mostly just wanted to eat biscuits if I was to be honest which was awful and I got scolded for it by Delta Vivian as she stared at me with her judgmental eyes when I sighed and picked up the fork with food and took a bite staring back so she nodded invisibly like she was happy, she kept track of everything, mostly me since it had come out that I was pregnant, which had been five minutes after I had told Caleb.

I knew he had spread it strategically, not just because he was ecstatic, the people would have a greater understanding, everyone would have it in other packs with why he had killed Terrence, he not only protected me, but he also protected his offspring, and it was perfectly acceptable to do what one wanted then apparently?

I didn’t get it at all, but I did not try one to understand it on me it as I was just glad that this had not ended with war or that the other Alphas had tried to bring Caleb to justice, which I knew some of them still wanted then they thought it was unacceptable that he had killed the main alpha straight off, murder they called it.

I ate more food and looked around, it felt good here now, I dont know why but the whole house was calmer, people were not so scared anymore as they had begun to understand that Caleb was not like his father and they were grateful that there was a Luna of course, it could not be missed, the pack had lacked a luna too, it felt so good after I had become it and I tried to do my best despite my age to fill the place that had been empty for so long.

I stopped when I already felt him, long before anyone else did and looked up at delta Vivian, I trusted her in everything, if Caleb had his beta, Mark and Tony, I had her, she looked at me when I nodded after saying he was here soon and she quickly bowed her head and started scolding orders, deltas thought she was harsh and horrible unaware of how much she had actually protected them from Terrence when I released the fork and stood up and Mark and Tony was already after me when I walked towards the entrance and out on the same porch where we had met last late summer and my life as a delta was over.

I saw the cars that came at the beginning of the huge area that lay around the wooden palace and my heart was already beating hard to see him again, he had been gone for three days and it was three days too much in my eyes.

I was absolutely sure that the first car was accelerating now because I could feel how much he missed me, needed me in the same way where I stood waiting for him with our child that he would come home and I showered him with all love I already had him in me he had even gotten out of the car and skidded in like the young man he really was and I smiled happily and longingly when I saw him come out of the black city jeep with jeans and t-shirt and black pilot glasses, his smile was wide and looked so sexy that I was fainting, became weak in my knees and had started to go against him when he stopped me with the link, told me to stop and I obeyed when I knew he would come to me in a second but I did not really want to wait for it.

He was already there before I had even finished thinking the thought and had his hands on my face and kissed me tenderly and passionately at the same time as I had my hands on his hips and closed my eyes and enjoyed that he was here, I missed him every second that he was not by my side and I almost did not want to let him stop kissing me when we finally managed to tear ourselves apart but he wrapped his arm around me as we started to enter without looking back at the other three cars that came in, not because it mattered, I felt that the warriors behind us were grateful that we were back, they had families too and Caleb was always more angry when I was not around, like he was a teenager who was grumpy                     and they were tired of it already after three days out together.

We said nothing, not yet, we did not talk openly to each other about things that were about us or where he had been, there were enough curious ears for that and I did not mind showing everyone how much I loved him but not what we talked about, it was the only part I was hard on, that the pack respected my and his private part of our relationship, there was enough of us for them anyway.

We held hands now when we were on our way to the bedroom, it was not the biggest because we still had Caleb’s old one that he had had all his life, I saw no point in changing, maybe later when we had more children who were older, but it was a later headache.

He followed my pace now as I walked a slower now, I did not know if it was me who was untrained or if the baby was big, weighed me down, maybe both when I had to go in first and I sat on the bed when he closed the door and locked it behind him, completely unnecessarily as no one would dare to come in here uninvited, not even Delta Vivian would do that, who appeared everywhere.