Luna of the Golden Moon

Future

I sat in the office and looked at the list of alphas and beets that would come, Delta Vivian had sent over it and I looked worriedly at the betas wife that would not come and I knew who it was and why she did not want to show up, Melody.

She was Brad's wife, they had no children yet and I was concerned about how it was between them, Melody and Caleb , they were siblings but none of them talked to each other since he had killed Terrence, Melody had not seen the page that Caleb had got, I fully understood that she hated her older brother but she might understand if I explained, I just wished I could talk to her, she was naive but pure-hearted and clumsy when she talked.

“Delta Vivian, see if we can get Beta Melody to come over to the celebration, say I ask her personally, if nothing else tell them the alpha did.”

I spoke via the link to the older woman who did not even respond, but I knew she was already about to do as I had commanded. It would not surprise me if there was already an envoy on the way to their pack with my message right now.

“Mila baby where are you?” I smiled at hearing his voice in my head, he was asleep when I got up, it was still dawn, but I could not sleep when the baby kicked so I was down in the office, doing good instead of just hanging around and pulling my feet after me.

“I'm downstairs, our little alpha keeps me awake and I wanted to review invitations again. I said it calmly as he sighed on the other side and I looked down the list again at my record, I would do my best to get the Melody and him to talk again.

“okay I’m coming down, stay there…” he sounded tired when I wanted to say he could stay but I did not mind that he came down to me where I sat in nightgown and the luxury robe open  I had it closed on the way here and I sighed then I put the pad down and looked up at how the sun was already up, it was summer and I was so happy about it, the winter had been long and hard, for us, for everyone with new leadership.

Caleb was not Terrence even though they were similar looking and had similar characteristics, most respected Caleb as an alpha at once, others had taken time and the last group we had had to get rid of.

Caleb had wanted to kill them, which was not generally known thank the goddess, but I had made him just exile them, I had a bad conscience about it, every day, my Luna was meant to care about every member of our pack, even those who did not agree.

I heard him on the other side of the door, talking to Tony and Mark about how long I had been here, like I could not hear all the control questions both through the door and through the link if he had chosen to use it when I broke through their conversation.

“I'm here alpha, you are welcome to ask me, and I will answer instead of pressuring beta Mark and Tony on answers I can give you.”

I swore they laughed if they could because I was not a compliant Luna like many others were, I was obedient when I had to but otherwise, I was cheeky as Caleb called me, I took it as a compliment.

“You may leave.” he said the dismissal as they walked quickly and he opened the door to where I was sitting and smiled at him as he came in tired and obviously grumpy that I had made him look bad in front of his beets, which he was not used to.

“Luna. What did I say about interrupting? how do I get respect if you make fun of me in front of my own betas?” He looked at me angrily now with the dark gray eyes I adored, I adored him all if I was honest where he stood in pajama pants and nothing more, he was so sexy, I bit my lip and looked down the list again to distract myself, I really could not bear more s*x again, no matter how much I wanted it.

“It was Mark and tony… calm down alpha, you make it sound like I was laughing at you in front of another alpha, they know I'm just teasing you, they like you being so easily teased by me, I feel that they are happy for you, for our sake.” I said it via the link without looking up and he sighed and gave up, it was too early to argue, and he knew I was right, he had learned that sometimes it was better to give up on me than to continue.

“learned that the hard way with baby…” he had come close now and sat behind me in my big armchair and started massaging my shoulders, it felt so good that I moaned, the baby was heavy for me, I had never thought that I was small until I got pregnant, I wished I was stronger, I was an alpha but not like Caleb , he was just raw strength and muscles, my body was more lean, I was faster and easier to move, but when it came to strength not so much.

“You are a female Mila, you will always be weaker, it's not me who says that to be dominated and you know that females are weaker and that's it.” I looked at him now and sighed, he was stupid if nothing else, all the muscles had sucked out his brain it seemed.

“If we are weaker, why are we the ones who have to carry the children and be the ones who take care of everything?” I sneered as he seemed to understand that he said something stupid finally and looked at me with his big gray eyes begging to forgive him and caressed my back with his big warm hands so everything felt better and I relaxed, I could not stand against him, never.

“I’m not saying that females are weak, I just say physically it is just that, I think you are the strongest person I know Mila, you are as much alpha as me and you know it, I would never do without you, but you could take over and only continue if I disappeared. He said it amused and laughed when I shook my head, I do not even want to hear the words, that he would disappear, we were a team, he and I against the world.

“Always baby, always.” He leaned his head on my shoulder and I was happy again, he knew what to say now, sly as a fox he was when he needed to.

“I'm a wolf…” he said it mumbling when I laughed and put the list down again, I could stare at it all morning, nothing was certain until I got an answer from the blood moon pack.

“Melody?” He said it uninterested like he did not care when he played with my hair with his hand, but I knew better, he cared, was it something Caleb did so it was to care for his loved ones, no matter how much he growled at us.

“I sent out a convoy before you came down, I hope alpha Victor can convince Brad if she does not want to listen to me…” I said it uncertain if I had done the right thing, she did not want to come and I had forced her then I had mixed in the alpha for her pack, he would never let my wish go unnoticed, she had to come now.

“I do not understand why you care so much Mila, you have met her once, she believes in the version that I killed Terrence without provocation, that I am a murderer.”

I did not answer it, he knew what I felt about all this… I had just swallowed it, I disliked the way it had gone down, not because I would ever admit it outwardly, I was on his side in all in public.

“Because she's family, and I know it's important to you, it's important to me too, I want our little alpha not to lose the family we have, especially since I still can’t find my parents and everyone else are dead.” I said it dryly as he pulled me back in his arms and I lay against his chest and closed my eyes with his forehead on my head, it rested softly on me where we sat in nightwear, and it was barely six in the morning yet.

“I will talk to her…” he said it softly and I became happier, more hopeful, I really wished we could hang out, I wanted to know more about her, maybe come and visit her pack if I got the chance, things I knew that he would like too, Luna things mixed with privacy, kind of.”

“I can’t promise that she will listen, but I will try, after we sent Lucas to school I probably did not that popular.” I looked out the window, it had not been popular at all, that we sent away his twelve-year-old autistic brother, who did not seem to suffer from it at all, he did not feel like others did and I felt it, he was fine where he was, he was happy, he did not miss us, not at all.

I think it was probably worst for his siblings and not for him that he was away at the same school where Caleb had spent his teens, he had not even finished before he became the main alpha, apparently it was quite common and no one said anything about it, the whole thing with the school was that they would prepare for the role they would have later.

“I don’t want that, send my children away.” I looked up to him now, I refused, if he was going to send our children away then I would refuse it, they were mine and no one else would teach them right and wrong, it was our job and no one else's.

“You get it like it was a terrible time Emilia, I enjoyed it, I'm glad I was there, I know almost all alphas and future alphas because of it, I barely had to defend myself when I killed Terrence for the other alphas are my friends that I have known for several years, I want our alpha to get that, a chance to get a good start later. but it is not until they are older, Lucas wanted to go if you do not remember it wrong, I was not there until I was fifteen.”

I looked at him angrily now, it did not matter, they were wrong in my eyes, they would be my children he sent away ...

“You mean our children Luna, our children…” he said it meant when I snorted, okay our children, I did not understand why they could not go to regular school with people I had done as a participant, there was nothing wrong with that either.

He sat up more now and said it out loud, so I understood that he was serious as we had talked via the link before and we stared at each other now, challenged over something that was so many years left to decide but I was overprotective already now, he wanted to take my child away from me, how heartless was he not right now?

“I am not heartless, I try to give my children everything they will need in life then as a leader, you went to regular school with people because your mother was too scared and bitter to understand that you were meant for something better than a life to delta, how much have you not learned from me afterwards? things you could have done if you had gone to boarding school?” His accusing tone made me angry when I turned my head away, I did not want to admit it, but he was right, I wished I had known more, sometimes it felt like I was groping my way through the darkness without a beacon, without Delta Vivian and Caleb had I did not make it, my role as Luna.

“Okay.” I said it bitterly because I didn’t want to agree, but he was right, I had needed to know so much more, but it did not make it damn easy to know that one day I had to send my children away, the same child I was carrying now, it was heartbreaking.

“I feel the same if you listen to me, I will suffer that day right along with you.” he said it more resignedly as I turned around with the arms I had crossed and relaxed, listened to him, his feelings and realized that he really felt the same thing, sadness, the day when it would happen, enormous sadness.

“It crushes me Cay, to know that one day they will leave us, I know it's for the best but to know that there will come a day when I have to give them up…” I cried already when he pulled mine into his arms and rocked me lightly, pulled his hand through my blonde hair and kissed me softly on the forehead several times, it felt better, but not by much.

“you are such a tender mother already Mila, I don’t understand at all why you were afraid to have children with me, you are the best mother there is, both for our child and our pack…” his words comforted me, I do not know either what I had been so afraid of, I was exactly where I wanted to be with him and knew about my place in life, it was the best feeling in the world.

“don't think about it anymore, our alpha is not even born yet and you talk about things that will not happen in many years, we have so much time with her before it happens…” he caressed my face where I had cried when I nodded quietly, he was right, it was a long time left, I had time left with… you know it does not have to be a she Cay ? I interrupted my own thoughts as he smiled stupidly at me now, he was so sure of it, I had never experienced that an alpha even wanted a daughter, certainly not like his first child either.

“I have said it all the time, I don’t give a s**t about the old polotics baby… I looked completely lost in his gray eyes now, he was the best man on earth and I was so lucky to have him.

“I just want you and her, that's all, I've told you it does not have to be the whole world if my inheritance dies out, then… with your genes Mila, if what my father's words are true, what does it matter? If it's a boy or a girl? Both will be able to pass on their alpha genes, just like you…” his voice was lower now that I looked at him with my own uncertain eyes. He was right about that, but it was the same reason they had slaughtered my parents for, slaughtered everyone who was in my pack in which I was born, I did not want that fate for my children, I would rather die myself.

“no one will touch you or our daughter, never let me touch a single hair on your heads, I will kill everything and everyone in my path if that is the case.” his eyes were yellow now when I met up with my own gold green, I was worried, that was also one of the reasons we still pretended to be cousins, even though people found it strange, there was not enough reason to want to kill me for, and our child.

“Things will change Luna, I have always promised you that it will be different, I refuse to let you be my cousin outwardly for the rest of my life. You will be my wife on paper with, if so, be it last thing I do.” I closed my eyes as I lay in his arms, it was my last problem, whether we were married or not, I was more worried about our child's survival, there were wolves who knew the truth, and I did not trust any of them, especially the one who claimed to be my brother.

“I will kill everything in my path alpha, if anyone tries anything against our child.” I said it coldly, the Luna in me had a purpose in life, to protect her cubs, and I was broad on agreeing with her in that.

“I know about its Luna, I trust you will do it.” his eyes were completely yellow now, more wolf than man and his voice was completely serious, if he died, I would be the one who was the last defender, just as we had always talked about, only that now it was serious, like it was not hypothetical anymore, it was a reality that was entirely possible if we did not play our cards right.

We closed our eyes, and they were blue and gray again but we both looked like we had swallowed something hard, a bitter pill of what was our reality, that someone would come after our child.

“Alpha Caleb, Luna Emilia.” I looked up at the old woman, I had not heard her, just as usual she moved like a shadow and I sighed as I sat on Caleb's lap, we were still in pajamas and even though Delta Vivian was dressed as usual, flawless in her Delta suit, black though I had said she was allowed to have a different color as she had only had a sneer at me when I told her the proud wolf she was.

“What?” I said, annoyed by the serious conversation we had just had, and we both looked at her where she stood like an owl, observing us with her old but sharp eyes that did not miss a single detail. She had heard everything we talked about. I imagined nothing else as I pulled my arm and Caleb and watched, waiting for what she wanted to say.

“Alpha Victor answers that Beta Melody will be present at your celebration, with pleasure.” She said the words so blankly that it was hard to believe that there was any joy at all behind Melody's words, more anger that she had to show up.

Caleb replied by snorting where we sat and I just nodded in response. It felt like I might have done wrong. If she did not want to come, then maybe I would not force her… I looked at him now that he did not seem to like at all that I made a mistake, I myself was not so sure when Delta Vivian left as quietly as she had appeared.

“She will see later, when she comes here that I am not the monster that everyone says, she will see you, see our child then, I'm glad you made the decision to force her Emilia, she could not hide from me for the rest of our lives anyway.”

I wrapped my arms around him. I was still unsure….