CHANCE

Chapter 7: Changes...

As we are on the dock Francis talk to me as if I was the best thing that happen to him. We are near the resorts that he says…As we approach to our destination, he said one thing that caught my attention and I turned around to look at him.. He said “Do you trust me on this?”

I was “……”

I can’t say anything, all I want now is to take whatever Diane might give me, the time that I disappear without further notice to them. I know she’s worried now to death…

He comes near me and hold my hands… “ Love, were on this together.. Remember that, whatever happens you can lean on me…”

His assurance makes me quite relief… The night that I gave myself to him was the best night that happen on my life… I will never regret it, I hug him and we walk holding hands back to the seashore where his resort was… As we approach the hotel it was named as Hotel Ribbs Pacific Height that was located near the downtown on San Francisco, It’s a no.1 Top Hotel in the Fisherman Warf. We are walking when a man approaches Francis as he saw us coming, he was smiling… “Hey! Lovebirds, what’s up!” he says… It was Nate,

“I thought your not coming” Francis said to him.

“You gave me a mission, do you remember?” he said…

“Hi Jamie!” he greeted as he was smiling…

“Hello!” I answered back as I was so red by the attention I get to both of them.. Francis put his hand on my shoulder as we walk.

As we approach inside the hotel I saw Diane and others at the lobby, I don’t know how to react to them… I feel like I want to dig a hole and bury myself in it. The way Diane looking at me right at the moment, she has a lot of questions… I will be bombarded with a lot of questions later when they leave us alone… As I approach them as Francis and Nate was talking to the staff.

Damien on the other hand can’t stand the scene anymore… he feels like he was about to die, As he looked at his Jamie approaching inside the hotel, with the mans hand on her shoulder, he wanted to punch the mans face… He tried to focus on the lighter side but that scene really stirred up his insides… Why Jamie choose him over me! He said to himself….He was like a lost puppy at the moment, he wanted to cry but his a man…

Jamie felt that Damien is looking at her, she felt his indifferent… She wants to explain to him and right now her emotions bothered her. What will I do… she told to herself I just can’t drop our friendship just like that…. I was about to talk to him when Franz hold my hand and I look at him as pleading showed to my eyes, he just nod at me signaling me that I can approach him… “I need to talk to him, to sort things out…” I told to him…

“Ok go on” “Before we go to our rooms to freshen up.”

Frowned look on Damien registered on his face, I know how he feels… But what can I do, I just can’t force myself to love him the way I love Franz…We’ve been friends for 3 years now and our relationship is like siblings.. I know I’m being insensitive for not considering what he feels. I’m such a badass! I feel so awful because of that. I hurt him so much that I can’t bear looking at him with so much hurt in his eyes…

“Why?” Damien ask me, I really don’t know how to answer him, because his question is a general, it has a broad answer… My conscience is killing me, I can’t stand his pain…

“Can we take a walk outside?” He said to me, I can’t decide… “ I just want to say something…” he said I look at Francis with pleading look in my eyes… He nodded so I accept his invitation.. We went to a bench near the seashore, I let him lead the way he went out first and I followed him.

“Why him? You haven’t know him well enough!” He ask hoping to answer him with the way he wants it to.

“I really don’t know how to answer you questions also…” I told him as I look down to avoid his questioning eyes…

“ Do you know how much it hurts to me, looking both of you so close?”

“From the first I told you already my side about this courting thing…. It is because I know that by the time I found my one… I don’t want you to feel like this… I can’t bear you hurting because of me!” “Damien I know you’re a nice guy and you will find e new inspiration for a life time.” I told him.

“How can you say that Jam? You know how I’m longing for you.. You know how much I love you. You haven’t know about him Jam… How could you trust him that easy?”

I look at him with so much resistance in his eyes… In reality, I don’t want to listen to him because even me scared to face the fact that we never talk about the night that I give myself to him. He was my first time but it seem his a stranger my heart doesn’t change anything….Instead my feelings for him grew stronger.. Do I need to follow my heart? Maybe, because if not until now I preserve my vcard…

“I’m sorry… I can’t teach my feelings. All I need now is your understanding… Be my friend Please…” I told him pleading…

“ No Jam! You know my stand! You know how much I love you… You can’t just ignore me just like that! Its so easy for you to accept him, is it because of his status?” I feel like being slapped 500 times…So I slap him…

“ Is that what you think about me?!” I was so disappointed that I was about to cry, “Are you done insulting me? So I guesse this is enough! If that’s what you think then ok I’m a gold digger, Are you satisfied?!” As I said that i take my leave back at the lobby of the hotel were Francis and the others are waiting. I hide my frustrations to them. I don’t want to spoil the mood, as I approach them I saw Damien following me I just ignore him. He hurt me so much, for the things that he assumed.

In my life I live a simple life and I’m happy… I didn’t wish more but this time I just cant ignore my feeling to Francis, I don’t care about his status… All I know is were connected to each other… Our hearts speaks for us.

“How is it?” Diane ask…

“We’ll talk about it later…” I told him and she understand

Francis hold my hand as he lead us to our respective rooms, he gives their keycards.

“ Follow me!” he told me.

I Just nod and follow him. We went to the elevator Damien’s gazes is really something that I can’t ignore… I feel like he is up to something that I cant quite figure out… Is this the reason why in a years of courting I never give him a chance because he never show me his true colors? I said to myself.. I just tsk the idea that maybe we are not meant to be together… I felt that Francis squeeze my hand to reassured that he’s there for me.. And I just smile on him..

"Are you ok? he ask me...

"We'll talk about it later" I told him...

"Dont think too much..."

" I just can't help it... We are too fast," he looked at me frowning...

"No love... Were not going to talk that here..." "Cheer up!"