CHANCE

Chapter 3: The Trip...

Jamie POV

I wake up early to prepare what I need for the trip, Diane called me last night to be sure I take the leave in my work.

“Just want to be sure you really do as you say last night…” she said… I look at her and she got her happiest look ever.

“What’s that look? I promise to come so I did what I had to do but please Diane never mention to Damien about this trip!”

I saw how her smile changed and by the look of it, Damien already knows….

”I’m sorry babe… John already told him!” I feel so disappointed to hear that im going to be bothered the entire trip. And I need to persevere..

“I’m going to strangle you babe! You don’t follow what you said to me the last time again… You promise me!

I was not the one who told him you know… Its john,”

“You should tell him what I told you…”

“There’s nothing wrong with him tagging along with us…”

“You can say that because your not the one who will be bothered!” I said as acted as if I’m going to cry.

I was just putting my guard up for the heartbreak’s. I’m not ready to have a serious relationship yet..

Damien is a perfect man indeed, I can say that his every woman’s dream but I can’t give him a hope… I never know if I can give him the love he deserve.

“Why your so scared to gamble? Why don’t you give yourself a chance to be love and give love in return…”

Diane said as she gave me the “ why don’t you try look” and Give yourself a chance…

“Don’t push it too hard… I believe love comes in unexpected time!

You know what, let not just discuss this .. Will just end up arguing again, I don’t want to ruin this travel..”

“Yeah right!” she said as we carry my luggage down the apartment.

As we go down the two boys were waiting outside.. As they saw as carrying a luggage Damien help me put my luggage at the back of John’s Range Rover..

As he approach me he greeted me first I just smile at him, Diane went to the passenger seat, I and Damien stay at the back.

I don’t know how to react in front of him I feel like any moment I might burst out! Because John and Diane lied to me! Why they treat me like this, this is unfair…

I said as I watch them both sit in front but my uneasiness makes me a bit unsteady at my sit.

I can’t start a conversation because right at this moment I was fuming…

I didn’t bother to start a conversation, I was angry inside, my body feels like on warfare. If they didn’t connive then I can freely express myself..

How Can I enjoy? This trip is really a mess. Yes it is! And I just keep it to myself. I was looking outside the car when Damien talk and he said…

“Hey, why your so quite?” I look at him and feel like my angry feeling subsided after I saw his handsome face..

I’m not an expressive person so it look like I didn’t care at all but I am…

That is why I’m so bothered that I can’t give back the love that he is offering, that is why I want to have a time of myself but it end up a time with them.

“Nothing, am just thinking bout work I reasoned out.” He just look at me and said..

“ Why don’t you give yourself a chance to enjoy the moment?” I look at him in the eye and saw the feeling of concern in it.

Its true… All my life I give it to my work that I don’t even have time for myself. I wake up in the morning do the house chores early, went to my first part time work in a pizza parlor for 4 hours.

And to the Williams Company as a CSR at night. I need to do that to forget my frustrations in life. I need to busy myself to forget that being alone is so depressing. I need to be positive in life because if I didn’t do it I will find myself in a mental institutions, haha…

“Ok!” I agree to him He smiled back. The atmosphere became awkward I don’t know how to react.. There’s just a feeling that I want to give him a chance and experience love for the first time but am scared that I wont meet his expectations…

Since my parents death I’m so scared to trust people, I shut myself to everyone that’s the time Diane always come at my aunts house to cheer me up…

Yes, my fathers sister Nellie tried to raise me but only a year after my mothers death, I decided to live alone.

She treat me as her own daughter and I can say I’m lucky enough to experience her unconditional love, she supported me all the way.

Where heading now to the airport when I came back to reality. John park his car to his usual parking space. I can say John is not an ordinary man also.

He is an only son and has his own business also.. We got off the car and we went to the airport with our luggage.

After checking in were just waiting now for our time to depart. Damien start a conversation with me. “Jam, your avoiding me… Why?”

“Its only right to be distant to each other….” I said to him he look at me with a sad face…

“I’m not demanding for anything Jam… Your depriving me of getting closer to you, I don’t understand anything because you never share to me about what happen to you in the past that you are so scared to rely on us!”

“Lets not talk about this please… Not here…” He just look at me with questioning eyes, And he said “ Alright! as you say so.”

Yes it true since I was alone I have a lot of questions but it ended up to only keep it to myself… I have Diane but since my parents left I don’t trust anybody now. My unlucky life drag me to become a loner.

Its so hard for me to open up my life, all of the people surrounds me think that I already overcome the longing, the longing of having a complete family, the longing of someone to confide in..

Someone to turn to when you feel like world is against you. There’s a time when I want to go to mountain peek and shout all my heart out until my sadness subsided, until it drained me and all will fade…

Sometimes I questioned life why I ended up like this. But still thankful to the life ahead of me… I’m still young and have a lot of wants to attain in life.

“Babe lets go! “ Diane said and I cant hide the frowning look on my face…

“Oh! So you still remember me?” I give her a very sharp eye.

“And why is that?” She ask in return

“The last time I recall we had a deal and now you just ignore it as if im not your best friend, do you know how it feels…” I said as we walk..

“OMG! I thought we sort things out already…

“ And because of that all my expenses will be yours..”

“No worries, the boys are there… They will! Hahahaha” A

nd that make me smile.

This friend of mine really made up my day! And I love her… I was nodding myself when she pulled my hand and we headed to the boys place together.

So are you both okay now? Lets go its time for plane departure…

Ok! We both said,

After 6hrs and 15mins. Travel we arrive at San Francisco International Airport at around 9 in the morning… We ride the airport shuttle as if were two couples just as Diane with his boyfriend John and me with Damien, as we get in the shuttle the assistant wrong us as couple.

I go against it but Damien touch my hand to confirm it.

“Why you didn’t correct her…”

“Let her assume…” he said..

I'm some kind of speechless by his determination, I just ignore and started to sit next to him at the shuttle I don’t know what gotten to me and agree to this set up…

Why not! Just go with the flow… I convince myself to just go with it, who knows… He can go inside my heart or touch my soul..

Why not feel the moment I said to myself. And I fall asleep while thinking.. Damien offer his shoulder for me to feel much comfortable while sleeping and I oblique…

I set aside my worries to be at ease. Damien is not a bad person after all, if I give him a chance I will be the most luckiest girl in Beacon.

Damien’s family is well known in our place because of they’re businesses as one of the Anderson family but he never have an airs in the body…

He remain humble that’s the reason why he gets the highest position in their business. I admire him for that, I didn’t know why until now he is single, he is handsome for got sake! And a bachelor…

He shake my shoulder when we are near the Hotel.

“Wake up! Sleeping beauty… Were near the hotel now…”

“Mmm… I said stretching my two hand and I slowly open my eyes, until our eyes meet and I saw him staring at me.”

“Did I slept too long? I’m sorry am I too heavy? “ I said very worried…

“No problem…” “ You know I can take anything for you..” he said, I lower my head as I get the hint of it.

This is the reason why I don’t want him to come…

I feel so bad every time he does something for me that I can’t give anything in return , my conscience killing me every time…

All the actions his giving is melting me but every time I’m thinking of giving him a chance, I just can’t! It feels like there’s a force telling me not too…

Im still hoping the right one to come…

“Jam, please give us a chance… You know how much I love you…” he murmur at my ears…

I close my eyes and said “ I’m not ready yet…”

“ Give me time please… To think it over.”

“Were not getting younger Jam and beside were in the right age…”

“I know but i don’t want to give you hope, I hope you understand I can compromise myself just because you did everything for me… That’s unfair…”

I saw how sad he is, I want to say lets try but I really can’t… I swear my parents that I will give myself to the man I can feel love.. Only him..

Then suddenly we arrive at the famous PARKER HOUSE the known hotel in San Francisco.

Diane get three rooms, 1 for couple and 2 singles.. I’m so happy that i can have my own room. Thanks God! I tell myself…

As we go to our designated rooms I bump to someone as i was walking holding my keycard, I pick up the keycard not looking to the man I bump into…

As I look at him, I was about to say sorry, but my tongue got stack.. “ You again!”

Yeah, Its Francis Ribbs again… The handsome and look like Hardin Scott in the film After…

But the only difference is he has no smile at all, this man is so arrogant. This is our second encounter but I never saw him smile.

Is this guy always In a bad mood? I question myself as I was looking at him.

On the contrary, Jam didn’t know that this was all a set up, the incident they had now was all intentional because she had been investigated and all her information are gathered.

Franz also known about Damien, that’s why he decided to see her as early as right now.

He really want this girl so much that his possessiveness to her is too much, they can’t deny the bond that they have and he will be willing to take the risk.

As Jam back in reality she take a step back and she fainted…

"Are you sure, we really need to do this?" Nate ask to me..

"Ah-huh... I need to do this..." I said.

"She will get angry with you.."

"I can deal with her temper."

"I see, so you have a lot of patience when it comes to her now?"

I just look at him and ignore his mocking... Can he be more serious, I told to myself.

"And why is that?" I told him...

" So i cant get your help with this?"

" I just can't leave her with that man without a fight..."

"Ok! I got your point now... Satisfied?"

As I was looking like a madman he smiled and assured to help me sort this out...

Nate is really a very supportive friend and because of that i treated him as a kin.