Blake I felt so pathetic. The only reason why I didn't go to Ella's birthday bash is because I felt like I couldn't face her. I didn't mean to say that to her earlier today and I surely as hell didn't mean to make her cry. It's just I'm a f****d up person with a f****d up mind. I can't help it The doorbell rang multiple times, causing me to quickly get pissed off. Who the hell rings doorbells continuously? I went downstairs and opened the door. "What the f**k do y- Ella?" On my doorstep was a dressed up Ella with a black box in her hands. She looks gorgeous. The black box that her present from me was in. "What is wrong with you?" She said, angrily. There's a whole list, which do you want first? Shut up. "Nothing, why?" "First your rude to me then you get me a present. What

