Love n' Dear

Chapter 32: Alcohol

I want to grab and pull Elle's hair. Akala ko naman mag-isa lang siya nang um-oo na makipag-inuman sa akin but she's with someone, Renz to be exact, the cousin of the devil.

I speak to her in Filipino language so Renz won't understand. I'm really cursing him out, saying he's a jerk and what am I a freaking third wheel? Wala naman akong balak mainggit sa kanilang pagpapa-sweet. Dapat talaga natulog na lang ako kesa nakipag-inuman sa gag*ng 'to.

"Hey, I can understand you," Renz interrupted us. I rolled my eyes, he can understand but not his cousin?

Inisang lagok ko ang alak sa may harapan ko. "Oh! Calm down, young lady, you really want to be wasted," Elle said, stopping my hand that's about to pour my empty shot glass and added, "I never prohibited you to something you want to do but for now, stop drinking."

"How about smoke?" asked by me because I really want to divert my atention.

She just held my face and said, "No smoke, no alcohol, any other option to relieve your stress?"

I act like I'm thinking but it's actually a decoy so I can quickly grab the glass and drink it. Napapailing siyang tinitingnan ako dahil naisahan ko siya. People love alcohol and the last time I think, I'm one of the people because who don't want to escape to a problem even for a span of time? Yeah sure, problem is still there but at least in few hours, you forgot it and just like they said, knowing the problem is half the solution. I just don't know how to solve it

But the real question is that why would he do that? Aminado naman akong manyak siya pero sa akin talaga? Malaya naman ako at open sa lahat ng bagay but why can't I justify the actions he did to me?

I love thrill but never expected not imagine to feel it inside the classroom. What if someone saw us and they took photo or video it? Bwesit na Luis talaga yan, sobra siyang panira ng araw ko.

I mean, hindi naman na bago sa akin iyon. It's not like I just did an exercise without them romancing my body but the heck! This is different thing, this time it's in a public place. I must say it feels good the thrill that someone might caught us but if I'm an innocent type, I would feel horrible. That was unexpected, what if I don't know him and he suddenly grab my t**s and massage it? I would go to police station and let him rot in jail. Anyway, I won't go to police and as if I didn't want that to happen. I let him touch me so I also have the responsibility about it. Kung sumigaw lang sana ako edi hindi ako nasisiraan ng bait kaiisip sa ginawa niya.

"But why? Why would he do it?" I murmured, thinking about the answer of my query.

"Lila, you are drunk," Elle commented, distancing the glass to me. I'm a bit tipsy and things are spinning around but I can manage. Iyong kanina pa kasi kami naglalasing. After my class, I straightly went here.

"Something happened to my friend." I don't even know what I'm blubbing to her.

"Your friend again? What now? Did she return to her ex?"

"I want more." I raised the glass, asking for a wine but she shrugged it asking me na ituloy ko ang kwento sa kaibigan kuno ko when in fact it's me.

Hindi ako nagsalita at pinilit na abutin ang alak na nasa may gilid niya. "No, that's enough, why would you drink in the first place when you just landed here? What's your problem?" She pours some wine to her glass and even let me watch how she drinks it.
May gana pang mang-inggit na pwede siyang uminom samantalang ako hindi? But she's right, ano nga bang problema ko?

"It's getting late, you should go home. Should I drop you off again in the school? Your driver will b---"

Fine, we need to go home so I stood up. "I forgot taking your pasalubong, I'll give it to you tomorrow," I speaked and hug her one last time.

"Hoy! Faith Louisse Violet! Kakalbuhin talaga kit--Renz help m--" I don't know what's happening or what they are saying and why is Elle shouting. I am more worried about my dress because I might puked anytime soon.

I surrender my arms, raised it through the air. "I can manage." I laugh while covering my mouth. I don't wanna vomit right now. Hindi ako magsusuka at maglalahok kay Elle, alam kong maarte siya and the smell stinks.

My eyes become blurry, starting to vision a person becoming two or I'm just imagining things. I don't even know if this is the right track to go to the comfort room.

I felt a hand grabbing my wrist and let me faced him. I suddenly p**e, not sure who is the man in front of me. Bakit kasi ako hihilahin? Naibuga ko tuloy ang balak kong ilabas sa banyo.

"Sorry," I said, smiling while bowing my head. This thing is so stupid. But this is nice compared to the drink I had in the Philippines.

"I'll drop you. Let's go," the man said. I look up to see whose the owner of that voice when it's Luis. Anong ginagawa niya rito? Dumayo ba siya para maglasing dito?

"Oh, Mr. Luis Savvidis," I said, pointing my fingers towards him but he just hold my hand.

I shook my head when he asked where is my address because my mom will surely be mad if she saw me being like this at nakita nga niya ako kaninang umaga at bukambibig kung naging ayos na raw ba kami ng manok niya. Na-miss ko nga siya pero pinilit kong hindi pansinin. I just hate everything about Zero.

I replied him 'sa puso mo' but before I can finish my sentence, I heard someone laughing behind me.

"May ka-corny-han ka rin palang taglay, Lila."

I smiled when I turm around and saw her face. "Oh! Ms. Baby Rencelle Aril." I can't point her since Luis is holding my hand. But I'm so confused because why she become two?

Screw my eyes! Mabubulag na ata ako.

"I'll drive her home. Where is it?"

"Just drop her at the school. Her driver is waiting for her."

"The two of you stop talking. Let's party." I was about to walk and enter the dance floor when I'm suddenly flying.

Really? I can fly? Am I a bird?

"Renz will drop me off. Take care of her; don't force her to do something. She's scary. See you around." The last thing I heard Elle's voice before I move.

"Am I flying?"

"I'm carrying you."

I look down and pouted when I can noticed a floor and his feet moving.

"I have feet." Why carry me if I have that thing?

"Then, can you walk?"

"Absolutely," I proudly said.

He puts me down and I force myself to walk which is very weird because everything is moving and I want to p**e again. This is not a good thing.

I heard him uttering that I'm silly then carry me again on his shoulder, like a sack, facing his back.

"But I can really walk." What if he misunderstands that I want to hang on his shoulder when I can walk? Ayoko na ngang makihalubilo sa kaniya.

"Not now."

"Aren't am I heavy?"

"Not really."

"Really? I think, I'm around 90 pounds? I'm heavy."

He replied thay he can manage lifting me but why?

"Why would you manage? I told you, I have feet. I can walk." I sway my feet but it was bump to his body. I heard him cursing probably because what I did hurt him especially I'm wearing my favorite heels.

"Later," he said.

"Why later?"

"You can't walk."

"Are you sure? But I have two feet. Why God bother to give me feet if I will not use it?"

He startd losing his patient and repeated the answer he said to me and I argue that I can walk.

"If we get out, I'll let you walk."

"When is that?"

"Later, Louisse, f**king later."

Why is he angry now? I'm just asking because I don't want to cause troubles.

"Why are you upset?"

He let a deep sighed. "Why do you have so many questions?"

"What's wrong with asking questions?"

He didn't bother replying and I just heard him catching his breath. I even smell something bad and later on he let me walk. I let him saw that I can walk like a model in a runaway and even twirl around.

"You can't," he said, laughing while catching me before I can fall and sadly I vomit again in front of him. Oh freak! Sobra na iyong pag-aabala ko sa kaniya.

I take out my handkerchief and wipe his shirt while saying sorry over and over again. He stopped me from what I'm doing. "That's fine, let me get you home."

I didn't argue and just nod my head. I bend down so I can pick my heels; this is probably the reason why I was tripped. I'll just walk with my bare feet but I was startled when he carried me, again.

"Wait! My heels." I keep punching him on his back but he ignored me and continued walking. He even put me inside his car and forced me to wear a seatbelt.

"Listen, you can p**e at me but not in my car. For Pete's sake Louisse, f**king hold it for a while, do you understand?"

I don't care about his car. I want my shoes. "My heels?"

"Do you really love those heels?"

"Of course, it makes me become tall, especially when I'm with you. I look like your sister or worst your daughter. Whatever, give me my heels."

He cupped my face like it's a mug containing a hot coffee and wanted to warm himself when it's cold. "Stop it! I won’t give you permission to kiss me. Where are my heels?"

He chuckled then kiss the side of my head. "You're wearing it," he replied.

I'm wearing it? But I'm pretty sure that I don't have anything in my feet. I bend down to touch my feet and I'm amazed that it's on my feet. "Here are my heels," I said, smiling. I thought I'll lose it.

"Tell me if you feel puking, I'll stop the car."

I salute him before he went to his spot. I rested my head against the seat because everything males me dizzy. This will surely a pain in the ass tomorrow.

"Are you the lost princess where I'm not allowed to go to your place because I might disseminate the information and people will go over you? Or you're scared I might make you fall in love with me because I wanted your money and palace? "

The humor of this man.

"Don't worry, I'm not with that option but I still won't tell you about where it is." I massage my temple. Sumasakit na rin ang ulo ko na parang ang sarap na lang biyakin.

"Alright, how's your trip?"

"Trip? Ah! I had fun. I went to the Philippines and celebrate my birthday there. The second day we went to beach and the third day I just sleep."

I heard him faking a cough enough to ruin the ambiance between us. "Can you elaborate the second day?"

That day? "I just swim?"

"Then?"

"Just swim," I firmly said, still closing my eyes.

He repeated what I said like he's convincing himself that I just swim. I don't have choice but to beat his arm using my hand. Mukha ba akong nagliliwaliw at hindi siya satisfied sa sagot ko? May meaning ba dapat?

Naging tahimik naman iyong byahe namin pagkatapos makipagtalo sa kung ano bang ganap ko noong pangalawang araw. Everything seems fine just by closing my eyes because nothing is moving but my stomach did it again. Something wants to get out of my body.

"Just hold it, we can't pull over, we are in the middle of the highway," he said in a panic mode. Kanina pa ako nagsasabing nasusuka na ako but he keeps excusing na ganiyan. Bakit kasi ang tagal niya magmaneho? Sukang-suka na nga ako rito.

Takip-takip ko nga ang bibig ko habang umiiling. I don't know if I can last holding it. I need to p**e, it taste sour and bitter. I just need to get this freaking something awful in my mouth that keeps wanting to get out. I don't even want to swallow it again because it makes me want to vomit more.

Screw alcohol!

I'm freaking screwed!

Why did I even want to drink? Luis touching my b**bs? Is that my problem? As if I didn’t experience it already so why bother getting wasted?

II guess, I need to remove Luis and Zero out of my life. They are freaking bothersome. That's the solution to my problem.