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Chapter Eleven
Seokjin went home with two paperbags in his hand, it was the boxes of all the cookies that he sold for today. He was glad all of the boxes were empty already.
He is also selling cookies to his co-workers so that he could save up as fast as possible. It is tiring but it's all fine for him.
Seokjin scrunched up his nose with his brows knitted together when the house reeks of alcohol. He immediately put the paperbags in the corner and walked inside the living room.
He let out a very exhausted sigh when he saw Jungkook sitting on the floor with a bottle of beer in his hands. Though, a lot of bottle of both beer and soju is scattered on the floor. An indication that he is drinking for so long already.
Jungkook looked up when he heard footsteps, he smiled when he saw his boyfriend kneeling down infront of him with a worried look on his face.
He was about to hold Seokjin's hand when he saw the paperbags that contains all the cookies that he baked earlier in the morning.
Seokjin gasped when Jungkook slapped his hands away. The younger winced and pain but still reached out for Jungkook's hand but to no avail, the older just pushed him making him almost fall backwards.
"I told you not to sell those.. f*****g cookies!" He shouted.
Seokjin bit his lower lips looking up taking in a deep breathe. He knows better than to say something or else they will just fight and a fight with a drunk Jungkook never ends well.
Seokjin is feeling so exhausted because of the amount of work that he does and what Jungkook's mother just told him.
He knows that none of those words were true but of course he is just a human afterall, he gets hurt especially that it came from the mother of the person that he loves the most.
"Let's get you to bed."
He tried to reach out for Jungkook's hands once again but the older just pushed him away causing him to almost fell on the floor.
Seokjin shut his eyes closed bringing his head down as he felt all of his energy slowly draining- it's as if even his soul is begging for a release, like all of him- his system is wanting to give in and just let Jungkook do whatever he wants.
He slowly shook his head, that wont ever happen. He will never let Jungkook be on his own, he will stay with the older- help him with everything that he needs, watch him chase his dreams.
"Please, babe. Please." Seokjin begged.
He let out a sigh of relief when Jungkook finally gave in and let Seokjin held his hands. The younger put the older's hand around his shoulder also holding Jungkook's waist firmly making sure that they wont just fall or else it would be even more hard putting Jungkook to bed.
He twisted the doorknob and quickly kicking the door wide open. They walked inside the room and Seokjin gently made his boyfriend lie on the bed.
He stared at the sleeping Jungkook taking in a deep sigh wishing for the older to be a little bit more stronger and to have long patience. They will reach their dreams especially Jungkook's, that's why he needs to hold on.
He quietly made his way out of the room shutting his eyes closed feeling his heart wrenched. He walked in the living room tiredly falling onto his knees picking up the bottle of beers scattered on the floor.
He went straight to the sink after he disregarded the bottles of beer washing his hands not wanting himself to smell like alcohol. He scrunched up his nose cursing at himself when a tear slipped out his eyes.
He walked towards their room wiping his tears away first before opening the door. He furrowed his brows when he saw Jungkook already sitting on the edge of their bed.
"Kookie..."
He walked towards Jungkook stopping just infront of his older boyfriend letting out a weak smile when he suddenly looked up at him.
"Im so sorry, sorry. I am really sorry."
Seokjin feels his heart begging to come out of his chest when he saw the tears streaming down Jungkook's face.
The way the older's voice cracker reflecte his heart that is slowly being shattered into tiny little pieces. No, not because of the pain he is feeling but all because or llf seeing Jungkook like this, so broken and sad.
"I.. I always promise to do better but," Jungkook shook his head, "I cant ever be good enough. I am always never enough." He cried.
Seokjin tries to shush him as he choked as his own tears. He leans down to kiss Jungkook's forehear shutting his eyes closed with a tear slipping out of his eyes because of how everything suddenly hurts.
"You are doing just fine, babe. It's okay, you are fine." Seokjin said with a smile on his face.
Jungkook needs him and he will always be ready for whatever Jungkook needs.
He will give and love. That's what he's always been good at- to love his boyfriend so selflessly, to love and give without expecting anything in return.
Their friends are actually convincing him to just break up with Jungkook or atleats give him some time to do things on his own saying that their relationship has been nothing but toxic and full of heartbreaks.
It is not healthy anymore, Seokjin is the only one carrying all the burden. He is the one that is leading and making this relationship work but still, he is a follower of Jungkook.
Everytime that they are like that, Seokjin will just smile and defend his boyfriend knowing Jungkook better than anyone else. He knows that his boyfriend can do better, it's just that... everything has been so hard for him.
Love is not love if you are not struggling and Seokjin believes in that. It may be so hard this time around but he knows that the storm in their relationship will calm and will be replaced but the beautiful sun shining at them.
Though, it is hard. This is hard. The difficulties that he is been facing alone want to give up at times but he is glad that he always finds himself having a reason to get back up.
Jungkook fell asleep crying. Seokjin kissed his forehead tucking him on the bed before making his way out of the roon gently closing the door.
He picked out his phone from his pocket when he it suddenly rang, a message from Taehyung.
Taehyung:
You can cry tonight and be a sunshine tomorrow.:)
Seokjin covered his mouth letting himself collapsed on the floor while clutching on his chest.
It's hard but it is also nice to have someone who will stay by his side no matter what happens, that is Taehyung.
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