He Called Me Kid. Disaster Engagement Series, Book 4. Lynn Smith

Episode 11

Once John and I had finished talking things through I felt so much better but I knew I had to speak to Fran. So I called him but there was no answer, so I went to his house and he wasn’t home. I called the big man and he said Fran had went to the gym with Tommy. I went to his gym and the manager said they had left already. But I didn’t have Tommy’s number, so I called Chris and he said he had just spoke to Fran and he was at Tommy’s house watching football. I thought it was strange that he could answer the phone to Chris and not to me. He was definitely avoiding me, he must have been embarrassed that he had kissed me. I asked for Tommy’s address and made my way over there. I really wanted to speak to Fran before I left for Glasgow with John for Christmas. When I knocked on Tommy’s door I was super nervous because things with Tommy were still a little awkward and I wasn’t sure what I was going to say to Fran, all I knew was it was too late to back out. When Tommy opened the door his face dropped “hi Lydia, how are you? Come in” I walked in and looked around it was huge and open plan house. It was sleek and spacious and I liked it. “I love your house” “thanks” he said but I could tell he was still kind of nervous around me and I wanted to get out of there as soon as possible “I’m sorry to just show up like this but I’m looking for Fran and Chris said he was here” “he was here but he said he had a meeting?” “what meeting?” I snapped, by this time I had ran all over the place trying to speak to him and I was becoming impatient “who has a business meeting at this time on a Sunday?” “no it’s not a business meeting it’s an AA meeting, he said he had a drink last night and he’s really beating himself up about it” I could feel every emotion bubbling up inside me. It was all too much and for the first time in a long time I burst out crying “what do you mean he’s in the AA he didn’t tell me he was in AA” Tommy’s face dropped and I could see he was shocked but I couldn’t have kept it in any longer. “princess I’m sorry I thought you knew, come here” he hugged me tight “I don’t think I’ve ever seen you cry before” I let out a giggle “I know but this is a big mess” I didn’t want to tell him the whole story so I just broke it down “Frans girlfriend is a total b***h that has been trying it on with John and John told Fran and Fran had a drink but I didn’t know he was in recovery or I would never have let him drink, and the worst part is Joanna said I had an annoying voice and I told her I was going to break her jaw” I was still sobbing and he let out a huge laugh “so that’s the worst part, not that Fran feels like s**t or Joanna’s a cheating b***h and trying it on with your boyfriend” I shook my head “no I think her saying my voice is annoying is the worst bit” we both looked at each other and smiled. It was the first time I had looked him in the eye since I got back, and it made my heart melt a little. “I’m sorry I better go you don’t need me showing up here crying like a nutcase” he was still holding me and a look of panic crossed his face “no don’t go, I’ll put the kettle on until you’ve calmed down and I will call Fran for you” he was right I had to calm down before I went home. I didn’t want John to see that I was upset “only if you’re sure” I said drying my tears “please stay a while” he said and took my hand and led me into his kitchen. “where’s Lilly? isn’t she home?” I asked. I was already embarrassed that I was upset in front of him and didn’t want Lilly to see me crying “she doesn’t live here” he said as he started making us some tea “oh I thought you lived together” I said “no she has her own place” I thought it was strange that they had been together for so long and she still had her own place, when we were together he couldn’t wait for us to live together. Then again the night he and Lilly had stayed over at my house Vinnie told me Harry had to stop him from driving out during the night. I assumed he must have been sneaking out to meet a woman. I felt bad for poor Lilly because she was a nice girl and she deserved better than that. I sat across from Tommy sipping my tea, “do you feel better now princess” I know I had asked him to stop calling me that but there was no one else around and it was oddly comforting “yeah...no” I said “what’s up with ya? It ain’t like you to have a bubble” he looked so concerned “I know I never cry, but I have this terrible feeling that something is going on and I don’t know what it is. And it’s hanging over me, and now you’ve told me this about Fran I’m wondering what else he’s hiding from me” he shrugged his shoulders “listen I thought everyone knew about Fran not drinking and it’s pretty obvious he ain’t happy with that b***h Joanna, she’s an alcoholic as well and it just don’t mix right. But other than that I don’t know nothing” “Joanna said something weird” “what?” “That... do you know what it doesn’t matter honey” “come on tell me, you’ve got me worried now” “that she would have to dress up like me and that Fran was in to that kind of thing, and once before I caught him with Lydia Knight lookalike, and at the last band meeting the big man got drunk and said that Fran had slept with those p**n stars that dress up like me, the Dirty Knights. I don’t know what to make of all this” “Fran wouldn’t sleep with those p**n stars the big man loves a wind up. And Joanna is a total b***h, especially if she had been drinking. She was probably only saying that to annoy you.” I let out a sigh “You’re right Tommy I’m over thinking stuff” “Just do me a favour and be there for Fran cause he’s having a bad day, between drinking last night and Joanna’s bullshit, he needs you more than ever” I felt awful “I’m such a selfish b***h Tommy, I’m round here bending your ear about all this crap when he’s clearly hurting” he shook his head “don’t be silly your not selfish, he’s just been keeping it from you, that’s not your fault” “why does he do that?” “i think he likes to pretend that he’s strong in front of you, and that’s why he’s so open with everybody else” what Tommy was saying made perfect sense. I had always wondered why he was close to my mum and then Carmela but would never talk to me. “anyway why don’t you come into my bedroom I’ve got something that will cheer you up” I rolled my eyes “for god sake Tommy” I said and he let out a huge laugh “no! nothing like that, sorry that sounded terrible. I got a new dog he’s called Archie” my spirts lifted as soon as he mentioned a puppy “oh my god can I meet him?” he looked proud as punch with himself “yeah he’s through here” I followed Tommy into his bedroom and there was a tiny little brown boxer puppy asleep on his massive bed. I slapped Tommy’s arm with excitement and sat next to him on the bed. Little Archie started to stir as I stroked his head “he likes it if you rub his ears like this” he said and he started to rub Archie’s ear. “he’s so cute Tommy” Archie woke up and walked around the bed sniffing then he came over to me and I picked him up and he was l*****g my face. We sat on Tommy’s bed for about half an hour talking about old times and having a laugh before little Archie fell asleep again on my lap, “he loves you” said Tommy “I love him he’s gorgeous” “yeah he’s a good boy” i suddenly released that I was alone with my ex in his bedroom and I started to panic. What if Lilly would have come over she would have thought something was going on between us. “I better go” I said and I got up and grabbed my bag and walked out into the living area “wait why don’t you stay for another cup of tea” he said as he followed me “no I don’t want to take up any more of your time” I got to his front door and turned to face him. “Thanks for everything today, you’ve cheered me up so much. I feel loads better” I kissed his cheek and he grabbed my face and kissed me on the lips, it was gentle and familiar but I pushed him away. “Don’t do that Tommy” i snapped “I know your with John but I miss you, I love you so much Princess I would do anything to be with you” I was in shock, I couldn’t believe the audacity that he thought he could kiss me. “I’m sorry Tommy but all that’s behind me now, I thought we could be friends but I don’t think we can” his became pale, as I said it but it was for his own good “princess look at me I’m desperate, I love you so much” but I didn’t want to hear it. Maybe John was right, maybe Tommy did regret what he had done but he should have thought of that before he did it. “I mean it, I love you princess” and I couldn’t hold back any longer “if you love me then why the f**k did you shag the maid?” He looked angry that I had called him out “I didn’t shag the f*****g maid, I didn’t do anything wrong. You have to believe me. It was a set up, even Harry thinks so. Don’t you think it was weird that I was so drunk after one whiskey. And when Harry called the hotel he said that girl didn’t work there. You seen how drunk I was I couldn’t have had s*x with her” he was making a lot of valid points but that’s what liars do, “Tommy what are you talking about?” “I’m saying that someone set me up, they wanted me out the picture, they wanted you all to themselves” he had actually lost the plot “so you think that someone drugged you and paid that girl to pretend that she had slept with you? Do you know how mental you sound” he was getting more and more animated and I wanted to get as far away from him as possible “does it really sound that mental? that dickhead Mick is obsessed by you, and don’t get me started on the big man” I shook my head in disagreement “Tommy do you know the sad thing about it? If you would have chased me that day, or even tried a little in the weeks after it, if you would have admitted what you did was wrong I probably would have taken you back, because I loved you that much” I put my hand on his chest willing him to tell me the truth “admit it happened Tommy” he closed his eyes “Im sorry I didn’t chase you to Thailand, but I was heartbroken and you promised you would never walk out and leave me. I thought that you would come to your senses and come home but then you started seeing John. Princess I didn’t do anything wrong, I can’t admit to something I didn’t do” I thought that if he told me the truth and why he did it then it would have given me a little peace of mind but he just couldn’t do it “it doesn’t matter now, I need to go” I said as I practically ran out the door and out to my car and that’s when I called Harry “Harry I just spoke to Thomas Taylor, he says that you think that maid I caught him shagging was a set up” I could hear him taking a deep breath “yes I do” I couldn’t believe it I just thought it was another one of Tommys lies “he said that you agree with him” “yes I do” this was crazy, Harry was the most level headed man I had ever known and now that he was saying that he thought this mental set up was true I was intrigued to find out the truth. “can you look into it for me” I asked “of course I can” I was shocked Harry agreed with Tommy but in a way I couldn’t wait for him to come back to me with evidence that it did happen and that Tommy was just a ladies man that couldn’t keep it in his pants. I went home and I had never been so glad to see John in my entire life. He was sitting at his desk in my office that I never used. He was still wearing his suit from his meetings that day. As I walked in he was on the phone so I just sat on his lap and cuddled him waiting for his call to end. I sat there on his knee rubbing his chest and after a minute or two he must have sensed that I wasn’t myself and he cut the call short. He said to whoever it was on the phone that something more important had come up and I thought that was very sweet “What’s wrong kid?” He asked as he kissed my neck. I obviously couldn’t tell him the truth that in the past twenty four hours both Fran and Tommy had tried to kiss me. So I just explained to him that I was looking for Fran all day to see if he was ok after finding out about Joanna and I couldn’t find him and that I thought he was avoiding me. I also told him that I had went over to Tommy’s house to look for him and that Fran wasn’t there but that I had stayed for a cup of tea and that Tommy had a new puppy. John just smiled and said maybe he should get me a puppy for Christmas and I was glad that he wasn’t bothered that I had went over to Tommy’s house on my own. I didn’t tell him about Tommy’s fantasy that he had been set up or that he had tried to kiss me. I hugged John tightly and told him how much I loved him and how I couldn’t live without him. John and I ended up having s*x right there and then. He sat me on the edge of his desk and dropped his trousers and took off his suit jacket. It was raw and fast. He lay me back over the desk and took my dress off with one movement. I had my hands up under his shirt and I was clawing at his back as he f****d me hard. I kept pulling at his tie every time I wanted him to kiss me. He must have made me come at least four times before he did. And it was just what I had needed to get over all the stupid drama from the past day. John was right they were all a bunch of stupid boys and I needed a big, powerful, loving man like him between my legs. After a couple of days I still hadn’t heard back from Fran and I decided to let sleeping dogs lie. I convinced John to leave for Glasgow a few days earlier because I didn’t want to stay in LA for another minute. As the flight took off I cuddled into John the only man in my life that I could trust, the only man that was honest with me, even if I wasn’t always honest with him.