Dear Neighbour

→ THIRTY-TWO

His grave was a reminder that he was dead. The sunny emotion he was feeling earlier faltered when he looked at his four-month-old tombstone.

"Hobi?"

"Hmm.."

"How do you think he'll react if he realizes that I'm not someone who he thinks I am?"

Hoseok knows exactly what his friend means and he doesn't know how to respond to that, afraid that he'll say something that would make his hyung sadder but he had to say it.

"Definitely, not a good reaction.."

"But I like him, Hobi..."

"I know that. but don't you feel a bit bad if you make him fall for you?"

"What do you mean?"

Jin picks off some overgrown grass on his grave and threw it beside where he sat.

"I mean..your time here has an expiration once you get your grudges done –what? you're just gonna leave him?"

"I-I just really want to be with him. And I never thought of that actually"

"It’s your choice, hyung. Besides, I bet Namjoon would be a lot of help with your grudges"

Seokjin frowns as the thought crossed his mind.

"That doesn't make things any better, I feel like I'm using him just to get out of here"

The older tucks his knees in his arms, and bowed his head tugging at his roots out of frustration.

"Hyung, just know that I'm gonna support you with whatever you choose.."

Hoseok is concerned for his friend, he wishes he could help Seokjin do something about it but the problem is, it's all up to Seokjin to decide what to do. He's just there to be a friend, who will guide and give advices --hopefully helpful advices to Seokjin.

"..but I'm just saying that you're gonna have to use somebody one way or another to help you with your grudges with or without feelings for them.."

Hoseok says standing and dusting off his butt before offering a hand to Jin, pulling him to his feet also.

"..and right now, I think that somebody, is Namjoon"

"I'll feel bad, Hobi. I really don't want to use him"

"This is a chance for you, you don't know when will the next chance come around.

Although using someone is really f****d up but it's the only way if you want to leave here.."

"I don't know, Hobi.."

Seokjin trails off as they walked down the pathway leading to the exit the graveyard.

"Look, Hyung.."

Hobi steps in front of the elder spreading his arms out catching the elder's attention.

"You like him and he likes you-"

"You don't know that, I just think he likes me"

"He does! Who the hell kisses, cuddles, and makes googley eyes at someone they don't like?"

And Hobi's words somehow sparked a faint hope inside Seokjin. Everything his friend said made sense.

"Grow a pair and fess up, let him help you with your list"

Hoseok rubs his hyung's back in assurance that he will be there for him whether s**t goes down or if everything turns out okay. Seokjin nods still skeptical but he wants Namjoon to himself, he was selfish enough to hide his true self just to be with the younger.

"..but you're gonna have to explain yourself to him before he finds out in the wrong way..."

His friend pauses and looks at Jin seriously in the eyes.

"... or before you accomplish your last wish because you know what happens right after when we complete our grudges"

Hoseok warns giving Jin that knowing look, and Jin nods as they walked off to the park to clear his head a bit.