This holiday period was really dreadful for me . Seeing how pathetic I felt dating a gay man .
The only nice thing I actually look forward to is my mum , who will be coming for dinner again .
It's crazy how I hated her and now I find myself needing her . I think seeing her aside from the whole camp trip will definitely be the highlight of my month .
I thought it was weird at first how mum and dad had dinner with different partners but were able to act okay . I see they've moved on from their history .
Now that I think about it , it's only history that is keeping me with Gomez . I don't really get anything from all this but he does . He gets to act straight until college and I'm his pretend girlfriend while his real girlfriend or boyfriend or whatever is being hidden .
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