MY LOVE. MY CONTENDER

REGRETS

Krist's POV

**Mr. Darvid calling**

"Hello"

"Master Krist"

"What is it?"

"Your father wants to talk to you."

"When and why?"

"Right now sir. I'm waiting for you in the lobby. Your father asked me to pick you up"

"Fine. I'll just take a shower first. I'll be there in 20 minutes P"

Ughh. my head hurts. It's just 10 in the morning. I don't even have classes today. Why does he need to talk to me? I started taking a shower. Once, the water hit my body. It felt sore, plus I had some scratches. What the hell happened last night? I think I should stop drinking too much.

My hands are so red. Did I cause a lot of trouble last night? Maybe that's why my father wants to talk to me. I need to think of an excuse. I'll call Ice first to know what happened. But what luck he is not answering. Even my other friends don't answer my calls. But who can blame them? We got so drunk so they're probably sleeping like a log. I'll just talk to P'Tae. He probably knows why anyway.

"P'Tae. I think you know why my dad wants to talk to me. Can you please give me a heads up already?"

"Master Krist"

"P. Stop calling me master. We are not at home yet. Don't be too formal. You act like we have a servant-master relationship. Let's just have a normal conversation."

"Fine. N'Krist. You messed up big time. Your dad is very angry right now. What the hell were you thinking last night?"

"P. To tell you honestly. I'm not really sure what happened. I was too drunk. Last thing I remember is when I went outside the bar with a girl."

"You better think of a good excuse. There's a video circulating on social media about you. Good thing we caught it right away and we were able to stop it from spreading."

"What video P?"

"It's about you and Singto"

What the hell is that video about? I don't want to ask P'Tae anymore. I might not like what that video is. But did we do something we shouldn't? And he just left me at my dorm. But is he there in the first place? I can't remember anything. I started hitting my head, then a memory came in. He was hugging me last night. Did we really do it? Is that why I have bruises and scratches? But my bu-. Shiiit. What the hell are you thinking, Krist?

I just stayed silent all through our way to my house. I just don't know what happened. That f*****g alcohol. And now I'm here. I don't really feel good about this. I seldom meet my father since he is too busy. We don't really see each other unless it is an urgent matter like this. Any incident that might ruin his name.

"Krist sit down"

"Why do you want to talk to me?"

"I think you know the reason why. Aren't you going to explain yourself?"

"Father, just please get to the point."

"Fine then. What happened between you and Singto?"

"I don't know. I can't remember."

I think not remembering is the best thing I could say. Because there are a lot of things in my head right now. I don't even know the exact things that happened.

"I don't know what to do with you anymore. I was already happy that your grades are improving because of Singto. But now you are disappointing me again."

" Because of Singto?? Isn't it because of me that I got good grades? I did study hard to ace those exams."

"You still hate him too much. Not knowing that he created an excuse for what happened last night."

"What do you mean?"

"Haven't you seen the video? Here, watch it."

Woah. Good thing, is that is not what I was thinking. But now as I watch the video. I can't believe this happened. I kept punching him but he was not fighting back. He was just stopping me. He tried his best. His face was bleeding, but he didn't care. Why didn't you fight back? What the hell was in your mind at that time?

"Do you know what he told me for you not to get in trouble? He said that this was a social experiment. Part of a presentation that he is helping you out with. If you are wondering how he talked to me? I asked Tae this morning to pick him up but he refused and just explained everything to Tae. But how can I believe him when Tae said he didn't look good? Don't you think you should atleast say sorry to what you did to him?"

While my father was talking, all the things that happened last night flashed back. Every hurtful word that I told him. I didn't know that I had turned into a despicable human being or maybe a monster. My father let me go after our conversation. I went back to my dorm. I actually want to go to his place, but I don't think I can face him. I know how understanding he can be, but I don't know if he can forgive me. I don't even think I deserve to be forgiven. What the hell have I done? I am not really like this. Just because of one girl that chose to leave me behind, I turned into something like this. I need to talk to him. Or atleast text him first.

Wow. There are tons of missed calls from him. A lot of messages. He seemed to be worried that I was not replying, but then I did that to him. Maybe I should call him. But why isn't he answering? Well duh? He might be in a hospital because of what I did. Or he might not want to talk to me at all.

Author's POV

Krist kept calling his senior. He also sent messages but no reply. Singto didn't even read it. He feels so miserable and guilty. He was a monster. When he tried calling again, the phone was already off. So he decided not to call anymore. He gave his senior some space for the mean time. He decided to wait until Monday to talk to him.

Monday came and Krist woke up early. Which is an unusual thing to do for him. But he needs to do this. He went straight to Singto's Apartment.

**KNOCK KNOCK**

"P? P'Singto?"

-- no response --

"P' can we talk?"

He kept on knocking but no one answered. He just stopped when the tenant from the other room went out.

"Ei nong. Can you tone it down? It's still too early. Singto is not there. He left yesterday and hasn't come back yet."

"Sorry P"

While he was leaving, he heard the couple from the other room that they saw him leaving and he was badly hurt.

"Is he in the hospital maybe? I'll just go to school to check" he said to himself.

Krist went around the university to look for his P. but he was not able to see him. Good thing he saw Singto's best friend.

"P'New"

"What the hell do you want from us?"

"I just want to know where P'Singto is."

"Looking for him after what you did."

"P I'm really sorry. I was not in my right mind. I was too drunk. I just really need to talk to him."

Fluke punched and pushed him away.

"Don't bother us. Specially Singto."

"I just want to talk him"

"He doesn't need to hear your explanation. You were like that to him before. If it wasn't for Singto I'd just beat you up."

"P please. Just tell me where he is right now. Please"

"Like that would ever happen. Did you forget that you asked him to disappear? And Singto keeps his promise. You won't ever see him anymore."

Fluke and New left him. Krist stayed silent the whole day. There were a lot of things running in his head. He wants to know where his senior is. He didn't know if his P would still go to school because he asked him to disappear. Krist felt guilty. But besides the guilt that he felt, there was also a sting that he felt in his chest. A sense of longing occurred.

After class, Krist went back to his senior's apartment. But he didn't get any luck. There were still no responses. He tried messaging him, calling him. Still no response. He couldn't sleep. Even in the morning, he tried to call him but got no answer. He went back to school with no ounce of sleep in his body. He tried going to Singto's classes and only ended up being shoved away by his senior's friends. There were also no signs of Singto coming to school. He wanted to ask for his father's help but he knew he did not deserve to get any help. Because he knows that he is the reason why his senior disappeared.

"s**t. What should I do? This is not good. I went to every possible place he could be but he is nowhere to be found. I even texted and called him, but no luck." he said to himself.

He sat down first and lay his head on the table. He closed his eyes because he felt very tired.

"Nong"

He immediately raised his head, expecting that it was the senior that he was looking for, but it was not him.

"Who are you?"

"Hi, I'm Tew. Singot told me that I am the one who is going to tutor you from now on. "

"Where is P'Singto?"

"I'm sorry, but I don't know where he is. He just sent me an email about the things I need to teach you."

"Well, tell him that I'm not going to study with you. I want him here. Tell him to answer my calls and messages. "

"But"

"No buts. Again, I am not going to follow you. Tell him he just can't leave. We signed an agreement"

Krist's POV

What the hell was that? This is unfair. Why did he have to listen to me? He knows that I'm not in the right mind. But then I can't blame him. I beat him up and asked him to disappear. I don't know what else I should do. f**k. I'll just go to my comfort place to think. I drove for awhile until I reached my favorite spot.

"SHHIIIIT!!! P"Singto. f**k you. You left me too. I hate you more this time.!"

After shouting, my eyes started to betray me. Tears are falling. I don't like this feeling.

"P!! Come back now. I'm sorry. Please don't leave me too either."

I know I am the sole reason for people leaving me behind. But I at least want him to come back. I don't think I can afford to lose someone again.