Never Give Up

Chapter 18 -Taylor

Waking up after the ravishing I got from Rafe last night I am not too shy to say “Holy f*****g s**t balls am I aching”. Rafe really put me through it last night and boy was it a huge turn on. I have never felt so helpless, scared and wanting more in my life. Surely it cannot get any better!

Creeping out of bed quickly I go across the room and slide down the wall. Looking at Rafe makes my heart pounds harder and louder as if it was the beat to an old underground Chinese war drum. He is lay there all Angelic and peaceful, I know there will be some awkwardness between us but thats life. I mean, I know nothing about him, really, just that he was supposed to be my babysitter on Alpha's orders.

I pull my knees up tight against me as I start to rock. My mind is all over the place, and I am totally confused. Mostly, I know I have been abused by the men I have come into contact with whilst I have been here. However, it felt different last night. It meant more somehow. I don’t know how to explain it than, I felt I really lost my virginity last night and not when it was stolen from me.

What would Mama think of all this? How would she feel if I brought Rafe home to introduce them? Tears stream down my cheeks at the thought of Mama. It’s not as if I can ask her, not anymore anyway. Seems that Alpha has made quite sure of that. Wrapping my arms around my knees, I sob, I sob so hard I am shuddering, trying to catch my breath. I don't care that I am not quiet. The pain I am feeling out wins anything else around me. I know I am falling apart, but I need to. Right now, it is the only thing I can do and not feel like I am going insane.

The room seems to darken with my mood. The shadows feel like they’re closing in on me. Desperation fills the air as the sounds of pipes rattling against one another in a battle for brawn. The sensation of pain, loss, and hunger fills the emptiness of the room. Looking over towards the bed, Rafe is sound asleep, I myself am still huddled against the wall, fighting my mind to make sense of what is happening to me. I wonder when Alpha will attack me or someone I hold closer than I should. I mean it’s what happened to Zane isn’t it?

Surely, if he hadn’t been involved with my sister, we wouldn’t be in this mess right now. God, if we hadn’t come on this stupid vacation, we wouldn’t be in this situation. I could have been back home helping Mama in the kitchen whilst Reece was out on her horse or something. Mama would be alive, and we would be all in a much better place. Hell, I don’t even know where Zane is. Is he ok? Why do I care?

I have so many mixed emotions that I am not entirely sure where to start. For example, I don't even know these people - I have no real right to judge them. However, Zane, wow, he is dreamy and one look into them eyes, and yes, he has you under his spell. I swear, when you look at him, it feels like he is piercing right into your soul. Grabbing your heart and claiming it as his, so yes, I can see why Reece had fallen head over heels for the guy.

Now, as for Rafe, that man is causing my panties to become soaked. It’s like a switch, one look, and that’s it, let me bend over and put my ass in the air, take me now, I beg you. Well, I supposed you can say that about both of them really. However, Rafe makes my heart beat fast. His arms and shoulders just make you want to jump into them and let him hold you close. Wrapping them around you like a safety net, knowing he would never let you fall. These boys are going to and will be the death of me.

As for Alpha, he makes your skin prickle with fear. When he brings his fingers across your skin, it feels like acid. You can feel the burn and feel the pain from only a whispered touch. God, even thinking about him now makes my skin crawl, what an absolute bell-end he is.

Completely lost in my own thoughts, I don’t even realize Rafe has woken up and has grabbed my arm. Startled, I just stare at him for what must be an eternity.

“Rafe, you scared the freaking s**t out of me! What are you doing?”

Trying to catch my breath in the room at this very moment is like trying to breathe underwater. Rafe is far too close, and I feel like I am drowning in his scent. Weakly smiling up at him, he grabs my face and leaves a chastised kiss to my lips. Seriously, I could have just died and gone to heaven. Why does his touch do this to me?

“Now, Taylor, what is going on in that beautiful head of yours?”

He used his thumbs to gently remove the tears that I had already shed. Rafe is so gentle towards me that each touch feels like the feather from an Angel’s wing. Each touch brings me to my knees and takes my breath away. As much as Zane had drawn my attention with his eyes, I know deep down Rafe would be the one I’d consider to stay with.

Taking ahold of his hands, I hold them to my face as I am looking to his eyes. I can see he isn't so sure where we stand either.

“Rafe, I am so overwhelmed with everything that has gone on in the last twenty-four hours, It just got a little too much, and my minor breakdown was needed. I am ok now for the situation I am in, so please don't worry.”

Looking into his eyes, I smile warmly at him,

“On another note, I am pretty hungry,” raising one eyebrow as my bottom lips finds it’s way under the clamp of my teeth.

“Oh so you’re hungry?”

He grabs my arms and pulls me into his chest, lowering his lips to my ear, pulling the lobe between his beautiful mouth. I can’t help the moan that escapes my lips, I wrap my arms around his neck, just as he continues his assault just behind my ear.

“Not so fast Princess, were taking it slow this morning. I want to explore every inch of this delicious body. Run my mouth down the whole length of you, I need to taste your essence on my tongue, feel you squirm from my touch. I want all your senses, I need you to submit them to me and just let me take my time. You can beg all you want, Princess, but until I am satisfied with what I want, then you will have to just enjoy.”

Oh my f*****g god, as if I wasn't panty dripping wet already. His little speech just solved that problem.

“Rafe, please” thats all I can say, I am at his mercy.